Two in One

Two mini posts..
in one ya3ny :p
both posts dedicated to H
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Inspiration Gone Wrong

I love you.

I miss you.

You were my inspiration, you were my motivation.

But that's just the thing.

You were wrong for me, and I knew it; but I wanted you nonetheless.

H it was you who set me off in the wrong path.

You told me to be happy no matter how sad I was.

Didn't you realize back then that this will require all the energy I have?

Didn't you know that no matter how much I pretended to be a grown-up, I was just a child?

Didn't you know that I will hold on to everything you said?

Didn't you know that I was in no shape to handle that, and I am still in no shape to handle it?

I ran in the direction you pointed to without looking back, but now that I'm on my own, I realized that the right path only became longer.






Crying


Washing away worries

trying to diminish my pains..

but they are only intensifying ..

what did I ever do, I thought to myself

Each tear holds a memory

I tried to keep them in..

wanted to hold on to as much of them..

but in the same time, trying to forget the brutal ones..

they keep flowing nonetheless

like imprisoned raindrops that just escaped their cloud

how can love do this?

they say it's good, all the crying..

but so far.. I'm experiencing nothing but more heartbreak and anguish


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I will probably post the part 19 by the end of this week..inshallah!
But no promises, la2ana I don't see myself recovering from my depressed mood soon enough!