Touch My Soul With Passion

Meant to Be (part 45)

2012-01-19T01:11:00.001-08:00

Hellooo :)

Sorry 6awalt bas uni is taking up all my time!

Inshallah I will try to finish the story in this break!

Enjoy:D

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----- Shai5a

University was extremely stressful, the pre-med competition, the crazy schedule, the rude girls everywhere. My life was a mess outside the house basically, and sometimes, I don't even have time to talk to M7ammad.

He's always understanding, but I know he didn't particularly like it. I didn't like it myself.

My chemistry midterm was today, and honestly I was just dying from the amount of stress and the fear of flunking my first uni test.

My exam was at 11, but I woke up at 6 when M7ammad did to go to work.

I quickly grabbed the first thing I got from the closet and ironed it as I waited for M7ammad to leave the bathroom.

"Oh sorry ga3adtich 7abeebti?" he asked as he got out of the bathroom.

"La its fine, I want to review anyways" I told him.

"3ayal good morning" He hugged me tightly.

"Stressful morning you mean" I replied grumpily.

"La la moo stressful, you studied well, and you answered all the questions I asked you yesterday correctly" He said.

"M7ammad, remind me, shno your questions? You basically asked me to complete the titles of the lectures before you fell asleep" I laughed.

"Bas I woke up again for you, and I asked you about the subtitles too!" He chuckled.

"Yeah yeah, inzain yalla badel 3ashan ma tit2a5ar" I told him as I went to the bathroom.

M7ammad was waiting for me when I got out, and after I finished dressing we both headed downstairs.

"I'll drop you off today a7san" he said as we sat for breakfast.

"No I'm fine, I can drive" I replied.

"I'm not really asking you, I'm just telling you" He smirked as he filled my plate with cheese and cucumbers.

"M7ammad 7aram, I don't even want breakfast la t7e6 wayed" I complained, ignoring his previous comment.

"La you're eating all of this 3ashan you have energy for the exam. Moo min ams myaninatny 3indy exam w 3indy exam, yalla it's my turn now to annoy you about your exam" He said as he placed the plate in front of me.

"Sometimes you are just annoying" I told him.

"Tara your exam is not a big deal, ya3ny it is only 30% of your grade. If you ditch it and go out with me for example, you can still pass if you did well in your final" He joked.

"Whatever M7ammad" I said, trying to hide my smile.

"tara ilyoom intay wayed ma36eetny 6af, awal shay no good morning kiss, wala I love you, w il7een moo 3ajbich kalamy ba3ad.." He complained pouting.

"I'll make it up to you when I finish my exam inshallah" I said.

"Nshoof" He replied smiling. "Bas I can't go through the day without my good-moring kiss, so you'll have to give it to me soon or I'll die.." He pretended to be serious.

"That's not funny at all" I stared at him.

"Me dead is not funny?" He joked.

I stopped eating and I looked at him, annoyed.

"I'm sorry 5ala9" He laughed as he continued eating his breakfast.

He ended up dropping me off. I have no idea why he likes to do it, bas he does.

And he did get his good-morning kiss somewhere along the way.

----- M7ammad

I was just as stressed about Shai5a's exams as she was, because I didn't want her to be upset about anything, even if it was a trivial as a midterm grade. I knew she was smart, and I knew she could do it. However, I also knew that sometimes no matter how much you study, you simple cannot get grades in medical school.

Her exams went by pretty quickly, and today her results will be out so I'm planning on surprising her.

----- Shai5a

Il7imillah I did well in my midterms even though I did not expect that at all. M7ammad is taking me out today bas apparently I can't know where.

"Inzain shda3wa just tell me wain.." I complained.

"La2 it's a surprise love" He replied.

"Please.." I continued.

"No.." He smiled, pinching my cheeks.

"Inzain shlon adry shno albes?" I asked.

"Ily yray7ech.." He said.

"I'm going to dress up la2ana I feel like it.. so please don't take me somewhere with mud.." I told him as I picked my outfit.

"You'll never know until we're there.." He winked.

"Inzain should I wear heels? Please bas answer this question.." I said.

"It's up to you.. and don't worry I'll carry you if you can't walk.." he told me.

"Yeah as if I'll let you do that.." I laughed.

"kaifich 3ayal.. walk barefoot jidam ilnas.." He replied.

"I'm not wearing heels 5ala9.." I grumbled as I got ready.

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Hope you enjoyed!

Meant to Be (part 44)

2011-09-07T16:26:00.000-07:00

Hey ;D

Adry, adry :p

I'm sorry bas I needed the break is all I can say..

Thank you killikum, your comments and emails mean A LOT!

Please aby a3arf if you want me to continue the story till like part 50 ..

Or taboony a5ale9ha bser3a in like 2 parts?

short post bas I will write again as soon as i can!

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---- M7ammad

I woke up the next morning, and felt the bed for Shaikha because she wasn't in my arms as usual.

I heard the water run in the bathroom, and went there quickly, hoping that she forgot to lock the door, but was disappointed when I got there.

"Shaikhaaaaaaa" I called, crankily.

I'm guessing she didn't hear me because there was no reply.

"Shayooooooo5" I screamed.

I heard something fall.

"Ouuuch.. Na3am, shno, shfeek?" She replied startled as she stopped the water.

"Intay ily shfeech" I laughed.

"6a7 il shampoo 3ala reely.. w mako shay y'6a7ek" She said, not able to stop herself from laughing.

"Inzain open the door" I told her.

"I'm taking a shower" She said slowly, as if she was trying to show me how stupid I was to ask her that.

"Adry, and I also know that I've seen it all.. so open the door" I said mischievously.

"M7ammad.. bas 3ad maly 5lg" she replied.

"Intay killa malich 5lg mako shay yideed.. open the f***** door" I told her, smiling, knowing that this is going to piss her off.

"cham marra gaylatlik la tseb M7ammad?" She said, annoyed.

" f*** " I repeated.

"M7ammaaaad!!" She exclaimed.

" f*** and ***** ok?" I laughed.

"That is it!" She almost screamed, and opened the door with her towel tightly wrapped around her slender figure. " w ba3dain ma3ak ya3ny?" She said as she stared at me angrily.

"9aba7 il 5air 7abeebti" I replied innocently. "are you done taking a shower?" I asked as I went inside the bathroom.

"M7ammaaad la tista3be6!!!" She tried to drag me out.

"Look honey, I'm going to take a shower, so if you want to join me 7ayach, and if you don't please close the door, bas I don't mind you peeking tara" I smiled evilly.

"I can't believe you!" She complained, but quickly closed the door when she realized that I was really serious about taking a shower, whether or not she was watching.

"Oh and I forgot to tell you how hot you look in that towel!" I screamed after her.

----- Shai5a

I went to the other bathroom and took a really quick shower after the stunt that M7ammad decided to pull.

I dressed in the other room too, knowing that M7ammad would not let me dress in peace in out room.

"Shai5aaa.." I heard him call.

"m7amaaad" I called back.

"Are you done?" He asked.

"Yeah kind of!" I replied.

He came into the room wearing his navy scrubs, with his hair still wet.

"Mumkin afham laish il 7araka il bay5a ily saweetha this morning?" I asked him, trying my best not to smile.

"3ashan marra thanya lama agoolich tifti7een il bab, tifti7eena 3ala 6ool.." He said with his eyebrow raised. "Ok?"

I stared at him, but knowing M7ammad, I would not win this argument any time soon, so I let it go 3ashan la at2a5ar 3al jam3a.

"I think you forgot something.." He said as I took my books and headed to the door.

"Shno?" I asked worried.

"My good morning kiss" He smiled innocently.

"You're not getting one honey.." I said as I hurried towards the door, but sadly he was much faster than me especially that I was carrying a couple of books.

"Awal shay, shaklich chinich yadity w intay shayla hathool, so give me the books.." He said as he blocked the door. " w thany shay, you know perfectly well that you are going nowhere without giving me my kiss.. so do it" He laughed.

I kissed him on the cheek quickly, and motioned for him to move so I can open the door.

He rolled his eyes, and pulled me for a kiss of his own, as he opened the door.

"M7ammad tara mit2a5ra so bser3a nazely the books please!" I said.

"Ok 3ayal ana awa9lich 3ashan ma tisre3een bl sayara.." He replied.

"La ana broo7y baroo7!" I told him.

"Intay ma t3arfeen tsoogeen, ana awa9lich!" He said.

"M7amad.. you better put the books in my car and leave bser3a.." I said annoyed that he was making fun of my driving skills.

"Inzain, don't forget to call me when you get there, w la tasre3een" He ordered me seriously.

"Inshallah" I replied and drove off with a smile refusing to leave my face.

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Hope you enjoyed ;D

Meant to Be (Part 43)

2011-05-01T08:22:00.001-07:00

Hello..

I posted finally.. :D

It's kinda short though, and there are some not so innocent moments in there ;p
sorry ;p

please id3ooly with my exams..

and good luck everyone with whatever you are doing..

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----- M7ammad

The days have passed and I can only say that I grew more and more attached to Shaikha.

Well, I can't say that we are acting like husband and wife fully, as much as I want to do just that, but that is mainly because she is a very shy person.

"M7ammad.." She called, interrupting the part where I undress her with my eyes, shamelessly.

"Hmm.." I replied, still distracted.

"Stop staring!" She ordered.

"Only if you stop resisting.." I mocked her.

"You are unbelievable.." She stated.

"But you love me.." I softly kissed her neck.

"M7ammad.." She replied breathlessly.

"I want you now.." I said, for the millionth time since we got married.

"But.." She said, running out of excuses as her cheeks flushed.

"I'm listening.." I replied,

"It's 10 in the morning.." She stated.

"So? " I asked.

"So.. you can't do this in the morning.." She said.

"Why not.." I chuckled.

"Because.. because.. you just can't.." She replied, flustered.

"Then watch me.." I said, pecking her lips.

"M7ammaaad.." She pleaded with her eyes closed.

"ya3nee lee mita?" I sighed.

"Tonight.. bas not now.." She said hopefully.

"You think I'm going to fall for that again?" I asked chuckling.

"La2 hal marra 9ij.." She stated.

"Yeah right, and then you'll go and sleep in my mom's room just like last time you said tonight.. or is it going to be like the time you stayed in the bathroom for three hours showering and then pretended you were asleep as soon as your head was on the pillow?" I teased her.

She sighed.

"Give me some credit.. it's not going to be bad.." I promised confidently.

She stayed quiet as I trailed kissed from her neck to her defined collarbone.

"If you really don't want to, I suppose I can wait another day or two.." I said with my eyes closed, the idea of waiting paining me.

"I just want to do one thing first.." She said quietly.

"Ok.." I said hesitantly, as she jumped out of bed.

She locked the door, closed the lights and the curtains, and made her way back to me slowly.

"Alright.." She said, unsure.

"A7ibich tadreen.." I said as I held her closer to me, feeling her body melt to my touch immediately.

And I can only say, it was definitely worth the wait.

----- Shaikha

I blushed furiously as I remembered the details of the past few days, since he had everything his way after that night, or morning to be more accurate.

His birthday was coming up soon, and I had one thing planned for sure, I was going to tell him that I love him.

I blushed again at the thought of saying these words out loud, and I tried whispering them, but failed again.

M7ammad barged into the room and walked to the bed, plopping himself next to me, as he hugged my side.

"7abeebty.." He said, exhausted.

"Shlonik?! Had a rough day?" I asked him, putting my hands on his cheeks and tracing his perfect gufel.

"Kind of.." he replied with his eyes closed.

"Allah ya36eek il 3afya.." I said caringly.

"Allah y3afeech.. did you miss me?!" He asked.

"Of course.." I replied smiling.

"Then say it.." He said with a smile of his own.

" No.." I teased him.

"Laish?" He pouted, and I felt like kissing him but I didn't want to go that way, knowing how it will end.

"Simply because I miss you too much that words can't really express.." I said, as I let him hug me properly, enjoying the warmth radiating from his body.

"7abeebty intay walla.. I missed you too.." He kissed my forehead, and from my experience with him, I knew that he will not stop the conversation. Just like he read my mind, he continued: " Inzain, do you love me?" He asked opening his eyes now and looking at me hopefully.

I felt my cheeks burning as soon as I heard the L-word and my ears were not in a better shape either.

"Ya3ny laish ma tgooleenha.. kil hatha w ma t7ibeeny?" He asked, sounding like a little boy.

I was tongue-tied, as usual, because as soon as he says anything related to love, I'm just forced to remain quiet by an overwhelming force that I cannot overcome.

"I will make you scream that you love me tonight.." He smirked.

"Ya 8aleel il adab.." I muttered feeling my face turn to a very unattractive shade of rouge.

"Say that one more time and I will show you mno 8aleel il adab.." He said, and although he had a goofy expression on his face, his tone sounded serious.

I gulped involuntarily, and he chuckled as he hugged me closer, finally surrendering to sleep.

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Hope you enjoyed..

See you all in a while if I do survive my exams!!

Reconciling Hearts..

2011-04-19T11:27:00.000-07:00

Hellooo ;DD

I miss my blog soooo much and i miss all of you guys!!

Thank you those who have been in touch,
and I promise that I will post one part of the story this month,
even if it meant failing an exam or two ;p

This is dedicated to all my readers and followers :)

Random post btw..

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She took a deep breath, trying to control the ragged movements that her chest was making as a failing attempt to breathe when he entered the elevator quickly.

The elevator's doors closed just before she was about to rush outside.

He looked at her, and even though he didn't recognize her at first, the emotions displayed in her eyes as she looked his way in a frantic manner gave her away.
Only one girl would mirror all these feelings, her.

A slight smile formed on his beautiful face as he realized that fate has finally brought her his way again.

She, however, did not find that coincidence a pleasant one, all the memories came pouring down, flashing sporadically, making her shiver at their intensity.

The elevator's doors opened one more time, it was his stop but not hers.

She thanked god silently because she was going to collapse very soon and she didn't want that to happen in front of him.

He took one more look at her, and grabbed her arm unexpectedly, making her heart stop.

Was it his touch, the one that she yearned for, that made everything freeze?

Or was it the look in his eyes? Everything seemed chaotic there, and she couldn't put a finger on what she saw in his deep chocolate-brown eyes. But she saw beautiful hues of passion there somewhere.

She felt her body rigged with fear of what he was about to do with her, but most importantly she feared that she would not be able to tame her emotions anymore.

Thankfully, his room was only two steps away from the hallway where the elevators were, so no one noticed him half-pulling and half-carrying her to his room.

As soon as he released her hands, she turned away from him, not allowing him to see her face.

He locked the door twice, and the sound of the lock made her gulp.

She looked at him fearfully, as he smiled, taking in her features and tracing them with his eyes.

"Mno?" She said, realizing how stupid she sounded even to herself, because everyone knew that she cannot forget him.

"Mno?" He asked mockingly as he took a step towards her.

"La2?" She replied quickly, although it sounded more like a question.

"3ayal?" He asked.

"Shno?" She looked at him, her beautiful eyes wide with shock as he closed the gap between them in one big step.

She tried to take a step back, but soon she was pinned to the wall. Their bodies weren't really touching because he had his hands on both of her sides, preventing her from escaping, but in the same time keeping an arm's distance.

"Intay jawbay.. mno ana?" He asked her, wanting to hear her say his name.

"Madry.." She replied looking around the room, trying desperately not to get captured into the brown prisons of his eyes.

He took a tiny step closer to her, and she knew where this was going.

"M7ammad.." She whispered, her voice begging him to leave her alone.

"3yoon M7ammad.." He replied involuntarily, causing her close her eyes momentarily, trying to compose herself.

He cursed himself for being so forward, especially when he hasn't seen her or talked to her for over five years.

He wondered how they came to the conclusion to break up, was it the fact that they were going to different countries to study, was it the fact that he didn't want her to be a doctor because he knew it was tiring and he wanted the best for her, or was it the fact that both of them were really stubborn?

He shook his head, not believing that five years had already passed.

He was a doctor himself, and while he left to specialize abroad, she stayed in Kuwait to study medicine.

She didn't want him to leave Kuwait, and he didn't want her to study medicine, he knew deep down that the miseries of all these people would get to her, and in his eyes she was too fragile to handle that.

Both of them admit that they called each other for months, they even did a couple of weeks ago, he listened to her breathing on the phone, and she silently cried, wishing that one of them would speak up. But the things that had to be said were too abstract for words to illustrate them. But it took one look in the abyss of her honey-colored eyes, and he understood.

They stood silently, both of them hypnotized by the others' eyes. He stepped closer to her as her eyes, beautifully rimmed with long black eyelashes, held a pool of tears. He had the urge to cup her face and kiss her eyes until the tears disappeared. But he held himself back, willing to make everything go right this time because as he got lost into her eyes one more time, he realized how much he is missing.

Her lungs were failing her one more time; from the minute she met his gaze, she felt herself slip slowly.

He looked at her worriedly, realizing that she was probably having an asthma attack.

"Where is your inhaler?" He asked her quickly.

She shook her head, and he cursed under his breath as he went to his drawer and emptied its contents on the desk. He found a puffer and quickly gave it to her. He helped her with it because her hands were shaking, and she leaned on the wall after inhaling twice.

He gently picked her up explaining that he was placing her on the bed before she freaks out.

He went out quickly and got an oxygen mask just to be sure that she was ok.

She pushed it away when he offered it to her.

"Please.." He said breathlessly.

Without opening her eyes, she reluctantly took the mask from him.

After a while, she regained some of her physical composure and got up.

"Wain ray7a?" He asked quickly, not allowing her to get off the bed.

"I'm tired.." She begged him with her eyes to let her leave.

"I know, which is why you should rest a bit.." He said.

"I can't.. please.." Her voice broke as she talked.

"Intay ily please.. let me do this right.. let me fix this.. la2ana both of us know that if you leave this room I might not see you in a very long time la2ana you will be avoiding me.." He begged her.

She sat down again, covering her small face with her hands.

"Shfeech?" He asked concerned, as he felt her breathing get unsteady again.

"I'm really tired M7ammad.." She said as she looked up at him, and he felt his heart shatter.

This time he didn't hesitate as he took her into his arms and hugged her closer to him.

It had been their first time to hug. He felt her body give in to him, as he fought the urge to crush her body against his.

Both of them had a million thoughts going through their minds, but none of them spoke, cherishing the proximity of their bodies.

"Are you feeling better now?" He asked after what seemed like an eternity.

"Yeah.." She replied, a sad smile invaded her face.

"You know I never stopped thinking about you.." He said, while taking her hand into his.

"I never stopped talking to you.." She replied simply.

"Ha?" He replied, confused, although they did call each other, no one uttered a word, except maybe an aloo or two every now and then.

"Well.." She started reluctantly, but then continued. "I wrote to you every day, emails, letters, notes.. but I wouldn't send them.. and I would always talk to you at night, imagining you were hidden behind one of the beautiful, unreachable stars.. and then I would try to guess your reactions which I pretty much knew by heart.." She finished.

He sat her next to him so he can take a good look at her face, she seemed to be in a reverie, and he can almost guarantee that she did not realize that she just spoke aloud because she wasn't usually a person who easily confesses.

He smiled as he watched her expressions, and he cursed himself for being so stupid and thinking he can forget her from the beginning.

"M7ammad?" She said, driving him crazy with the way she said his name.

"7abeebti.." He replied, not being able to control himself.

He saw her cheeks redden and she gave him her back this time.

"M7ammad.. what now?" She said is a sad, distant voice.

" It's simple .. I'm going to make it up for you.." He said confidently. She sighed, and he continued, "Will you give me a second chance?" He asked her, he stood up and knelt in front of her so he can get the answer from her eyes even if she decided to remain quiet. He got his answer immediately, and said "You don't have to tell me now, but you're going to have to tell me soon you know.." His eyes held a mischievous spark in them.

He decided to let the matter go, but then he remembered, "Why isn't your inhaler with you?" He asked, raiisng his eyebrows.

"Why would I need to carry it with me everywhere I go?" She asked, rolling her eyes.

"Well, maybe because you have asthma?" He told her, frowning that she was so careless when it came to her own health yet so careful when it came to others.

"I don't have asthma.. i just have some emotional stress attacks every now and then.." She replied simply.

"And the scientific name for that would be..?" He asked, knowing that he was wining this argument.

"I have to leave.." She said, biting back her smile.

"You know if something happened to you.. I will track you down and you won't like my punishment.. I don't think I can manage to live without you anymore.." He told her, pretending to be angry.

She looked at him for a while before blushing and making her way to the door.

"Not so fast young lady.." He told her as he took hold of both of her hands. "You're under-estimating me you know.. we have a history and I know how stubborn you are.. so I am going to make you promise to take it everyday now or else you are not leaving this room.." He said, chuckling at her reaction.

"I am not young.." She told him sternly.

"I didn't mean it that way.." He told her laughing.

"whatever" She rolled her eyes and tried to free her hands from his.

"I am going to count to three, and then I will kiss you until you give in and promise to take it with you everyday.." He warned her, secretly hoping that she would not say yes before he counts to three.

"one, two.." he said quickly.

"Fine.. I promise!!" She said closing her eyes, fearing that he will actually do it.

"That's my girl.." He said, smiling widely.

"Woman.." She corrected him.

"Are you ever going to get over your age issues?" He laughed at her.

"Never.." She said smiling and left the room quietly, looking back one last time before she took the stairs this time to her floor.

Two weeks have passed and she didn't see him at all since that day. She smiled as she went up to her mother blushing.

"Yes.." She said.

Today, she was his, and he was hers.

"A7ibich.." He whispered after her kissed her forehead on their milcha.

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Hope you enjoyed..
:)

You, one more time..

2011-01-17T07:22:00.000-08:00

helloo..

This is a quick post ...

Exams started this week.. and they end next week..

Wish me luck :)

w I hope everyone does well on their exams..

Dedicated to H..

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I miss you so much, I can truthfully say that I am willing to give up my whole life, my future, my dreams, my everything, to be with you for one day..

to experience the pure bliss accompanied by your smile..

to get those butterflies flying chaotically in my stomach for one more time..

to wash my eyes with happy tears, ones that don't sting..

to breathe in your intoxicating scent..

to listen to your soothing voice..

and this time I'm going to take it all in..

I'm going to saavor every second like it is the last..

I'm going to pay attention..

I'm going to hold on to every word you say, every gesture you make, every smile, every syllable, every blink..

because sometimes, those small details are the only things that manage to make my day..

When I remember the way you used to laugh..

the way you would pronounce certain words..

the way you would gaze into my eyes like I'm the only person around..

the way you would talk to me only..

the times when you would annoy me one purpose just because you want to make it up to me, you want to show me how much you love me you always reasoned..

those times when we shared private jokes..

those times when we used to tell each other everything..

those times when we would make fun of each other..

those times when we were pretending to be mad at each other but our eyes mirrored every emotion, and when we looked down, our voices betrayed us, showing all the love we had for each other..

those times when I missed you.. and you were just a phone-call away..

those times when you comforted me at night..

those times when you were my safe-haven..

those times when I had something to look forward to, talking to you..

Our first touch.. we imagined would be on the beach..

our first hug.. we imagined would be on the beach..

our first kiss.. we imagined would be on the beach..

I go to the beach every day - H - where are you?

You promised you would love me no matter what happened next..

I promise you now that I will be your forever..

No one is going to take your place in my heart..

I love you..

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Take care..

The one and only - H

2011-01-03T07:50:00.000-08:00

Hello..

Happy New Year (sorry its late)..

awal shay I'm really sorry for not replying to ur comments or emails..
I am reading them, but I dont have time to reply to all of you..
I will reply to the emails asap inshallah..

As for the story, I will post the next part in February (;S)
Sorryyyyyyyyyyyyy..
Bas I dont want to fail my senior year ..

I will try to finish the story in the winter break inshallah..
we'll see ..

This post is dedicated to H.. on his birthday (as if he reads this ya3ny)..

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Sometimes we love someone so much that we start to get delusional..

Reality gets mixed up with hopes, dreams, and whims..

Two months ago, it was easy for me to imagine you beside me ..

To imagine our lives together..

To imagine waking up beside you..

To imagine hugging you after a long day..

To imagine your soothing voice..

To imagine your perfect smile..

To imagine you.. but more importantly us..

But with everything going around me right now, it is getting harder and harder..

The possibility of us being together is fading..

And that possibility is the only thing that kept me going for so long..

I'm starting to need you to the point where it is simply painful..

I read about drug addicts and I smile, because being addicted to drugs is much easier than being in love with you..

At least these people can get treated.. whereas no one can find a solution to my problem..

All this is probably meaningless on your birthday..

I should wish you a happy birthday..

I should wish you a happy life..

I should be able to celebrate this day with you..

I love you..

And I hope that one day you will realize how much I do love you..

Happy Birthday..

And may all your wishes come true inshallah..

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Will post next one in a month..

TC!

Imagination Running Wild..

2010-11-22T08:58:00.000-08:00

Random post..

Dedicated to H..

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"Do you want me?" He asked, smiling knowingly.

She stared at him, hating the fact that she was exposed in every way possible.

"Answer my question.." He imitated the voice she used, every time he chose not to answer her questions.

"Well, your question isn't really clear.. you have to give me a clear definition for the word 'want'" She replied, thinking that she passed the danger zone by making her witty remark.

"Do you want to marry me?" He asked, gazing into her eyes, holding her face, and forcing her to look directly at him.

She closed her eyes, a tear forcefully escaping her secured eyelid.

He traced her tear with his finger, kissing where it stopped, just next to her lips.

He hugged her, feeling every emotion in her tense body melt with his touch.

He felt her love.

He felt her fear.

He felt her attachment.

His heart ached from the depth of the emotions being transferred to him; and he shuddered thinking of what she's going through right now. She was very fragile, and he knew it, but he liked the fact that he was her savior, her protector.

"Intay 7abeebty.." He said, hugging her even closer, trying to assure her that their love is going to last forever.

When in reality, both of them know that they are not meant to be.

She was his, without having to announce it; he had control over every fiber in her body.

They are the perfect match; their souls are made for each other.

But every other thing defies their love.

" I .. " She started, but his lips found hers immediately, savoring their taste, and preserving the sacred silence in which only their hearts were communicating.

She held onto him, only thinking about the moment.

" a7ibich .." He said, moving away before things get too far.

She looked at him, with pain in her eyes. Pain because all the love she has for him was weighing her down. She felt suffocated, she felt weak, she felt tired.

She looked at him, silently asking him to make the pain go away.

He observed her, hating the fact that pain fogged the spark in her eyes.

He scooped her once more in his arms, where they both felt at home.

He tightened his grip on her waist, and almost crushed her against him.

"Do I really have to go down on one knee?" He asked her.

Tears automatically brimmed her eyes again; this time he kissed her eyes tenderly.

"I love you.." She said it aloud for the first time, her voice shaking. She felt her whole body sigh as she verbally confessed for the first time that she loved him.

"Gooleeha ba3ad marra.." He whispered.

"a7ibik.." She replied sincerely, as she bit her trembling lips, "I don't want to lose you" She continued, her voice breaking.

He looked at her, and for the first time he was speechless.

Her words touched him so deeply; he felt his heart break as he watched her trying to compose herself.

He went down on one knee, and without a word he slipped the ring onto her slim finger.

He sat there admiring it, admiring the fact that she is now officially his no matter what anyone else says about it, while she stood still frozen.

She looked up at him, one glance, and she knew what was coming is worth the wait.

She closed her eyes tightly, wanting all the images she was creating to disappear. She was imagining again, this was her thing.

She wiped her eyes as she recalled their beautiful love story, perfect in her imagination. Every time she saw him, she imagined a love-filled conversation, where he would somehow confess all his feelings.

That day never came.

She watched him today, as he held another girl's hands. She watched him kiss her fingers. She watched them silently, wishing that she would die because it would be less painful. She hated herself for being so selfish. Shouldn't she be happy for him?

But how can she happy when all her dreams were shattered in front of her. He was everything she ever wanted, and still is; but life does that sometimes. It deprives you from the only thing you really want, need, and love.

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Hope you liked it..
And I will try my best to post the story (no promises when)..
TC!

Meant to be (part 42)

2010-11-20T08:44:00.000-08:00

3eedkum mbarak mu2a5aran :p

w I hope everyone had a good break :)

Sorry for the extremely late post..

senior year is just hectic + it sucks unfortunately..

This is dedicated to everyone who commented on the last post ;)

Oh and this is a not-so-innocent post ;p (matches my mood for some reason ;P)

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----- M7ammad

When we got home, talked to my mom, and told her that she's going to study medicine. Yabibat and we laughed. She was extremely happy for her, since she knew that it was her dream.

For the first time since we got married, my mom looked at me with respect and pride in her eyes.

She announced that she wants to throw a party for Shai5a, since she didn't get a graduation party and all. A barbeque party she decided, tonight.

"mala da3ee 5alty.." Shai5a replied, smiling.

"La2 5ala9.. ana baroo7 ajahez kl shay.." My mom left us alone.

"Ha ya 7ilwa.. tabeen tit'3adeen il7een?" I asked her.

"Kaifik.. if you're hungry I'll eat with you" She said.

"No I ate in the hospital la2anich ti2a5artay.." I replied.

"And I drank coffee.. so I don't feel like eating.." She smiled.

"Ok then.. let's go.." I said, carrying her up the stairs, and ignoring all her complaints.

I went to the bathroom, and when I got out she was sitting on the bed, flipping through one of her books.

"Isn't that cool??!" She said, her eyes wide with excitement.

"Shno?" I said, as I sat beside her, peaking into the book.

"This is cool.." She said, pointing at the heart diagram, with the vessels looking like the cartoon-heart.

I smiled as I hugged her, and she leaned back on me in response.

"m7ammad.. don't you think I should go help 5alty in the kitchen?" She asked, looking up at me.

"I really don't think so.. I think we should sleep.." I said, tackling her so that she's under me now.

She rolled her eyes, and managed to slip from under me. I watched her get dressed, and head downstairs, laughing at my expression.

A couple of minutes later, she came back, and I laughed at her expression.

"I think I told you not to go.." I chuckled.

"She gave me the death stare and practically kicked me out of the kitchen.." She said, laughing.

"3ashan marra thanya tismi3een il kalam.." I continued laughing.

" Fine whatever.." She said, as she got into her pajamas again, and lied down next to me, and started blabbing about her day.

"Shai5a.." I interrupted after a couple of minutes.

"Shno?" She asked.

"I want to sleep, so I'm going to have to do this so you can shut up for a while.." I said as I pulled her next to me and kissed her lips devouringly.

I hugged her closer, giving her a quick last peck, and went to sleep immediately.

----- Shai5a

I stayed awake, since I was not accustomed to afternoon napping. So I basically watched him sleep for a while. I tried to get up a couple of times, but each time he would tighten his grip and mumble something incomprehensible.

I woke him up after two hours, because we have to get ready and go downstairs.

"M7ammaaaaaaad.. please goom" I whined after tons of nudges and pleas.

"A lady usually wakes her husband with a proper kiss.. until you do that I am not getting up.." He said in a serious tone, but humor was written all over his face.

"M7ammad.." I plead.

But he wouldn't budge.

"Fine.. just loosen your grip a bit so I can kiss you" I said, blushing already.

"Ok.." He said, as he loosened his grip.

I automatically freed myself completely, by ducking my head under his arm, and jumped out of bed.

"Yalla goom.." I laughed.

"You are so going to regret this.." He chuckled as he got out of bed, but I was in the bathroom already with the door safely locked.

"Do want to take a shower too?" I asked.

"Do you want me to join you?" He laughed.

"I'll be done in 30 minutes and then you can have the bathroom.." I said, as I rolled my eyes.

He didn't reply, but I could hear him laughing.

----- M7ammad

She got out of the bathroom after more than an hour, looking fresh and smiley.
I pointed at my watch, indicating the time she took.

"Sorry.. the water was really warm.." She smiled.

"It's alright" I said as I closed the bathroom door after me, "But don't think I forgot about my revenge!!" I shouted from inside.

I took a quick shower, got dressed, and I can see Shai5a still drying her hair, not half way done. She looked like she needed at least 2 more hours before she's ready.

"I am going to head down before you.." I told her as I sprayed perfume all over my dishdasha.

"Ok.. try to help 5alty around.." She replied. "You know I have no idea what to wear, if one of your sisters is downstairs send her up.." She added.

"Inshallah 7abeebty.." I said, as I closed the door.

----- Shai5a

He came up again, after about 5 minutes, he plopped himself on the coach next to me.

"Ana madry intay binthum wala ana waldhum?" He asked.

"Laish?" I asked him laughing.

"Umy 6ardatnee w tgool la tyee ila wiyaha.. Oh and she said I can help you pick an outfit.. but that's not going to happen.." He said.

"That's a wonderful idea!!" I told him.

"No it's not.." He said, bored. "Are you brushing your hair or the air?" He said, as he laughed at his own sentence.

He grabbed the comb from me, and started to brush my hair.

"Ouch!!" I said involuntarily as soon as he touched my hair, expecting him to be very rough.

"Tista3bi6een?" He asked, chuckling.

"Madry.. I thought you were going to pull my hair or something.." I laughed.

"There.. we're all done" He said after a while. He hugged me from the back, kissing the nape of my neck.

I felt like I needed to brush my hair more, just because I was obsessed with having it neat, but I didn't want to show that I'm ungrateful. And the kisses shut me up completely.

"A7ibich.." He whispered, making my insides flip.

"Intay t7ibeeny?" He asked in an even lower voice, and this time I felt my whole body flush. I felt my heart going violent, wanting to scream 'yes.. a7ibik'. But I was tongue-tied.

"Ee wala la2?" He continued asking. I was probably shivering, because he held my hand and I can feel him holding in his laugh.

"You are going to answer me sooner or later you know.." He said as he got up and pulled me with him towards the closet. "Pick something quickly.." He said, as he leaned on the wall.

Absent-mindedly I looked at the clothes, not really taking in what I was looking at.
I looked at him again, and he saw how lost I was.

"It's not a very formal thing.. so just pick any dress or whatever.." He said, trying to be helpful.

I sat down on the floor and stared at the clothes, again not really thinking about what I was going to wear.

"I like this one.." He said as he pulled out a long sky-blue dress, really simple but elegant.

"Ok, I'll wear it" I said as I waited for him to leave the changing room.

I sat on the chair, feeling exhausted for some reason, and got up to wear the dress after a while.

I applied minimal make-up, and we headed down together. The evening went pretty well, and soon it was time to sleep, I didn't say a word, and I guess he was too exhausted too because he was already asleep when I went to bed.

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Hope you liked it :)

You ask me..

2010-10-10T10:17:00.000-07:00

I know ina u guys are bored from all the random posts..
but I honestly have no time to write a post 7ag the story..
I slept for one hour bas yesterday..
and this is just part of my venting process..

So.. Im extremely sorry..
and I promise you I will try my best to post this weekend..

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You ask me a simple question..

A question, with either a yes or a no, for an answer..

and yet, it's the most difficult question in my life..

How much do you love me?

You ask me, not bothering to ask if I do love you,

Even though I have never said it aloud..

You ask me, even though it's clear..

I love you more than anyone else..

And you know that..

But you still ask..

Even though you can see it in my eyes..

Even though you can sense it..

Even though you can almost touch the love in the air..

The love I carry around for you..

It's becoming a burden, difficult to carry around..

Loving you so much but not being able to actually tell you is torture for me..

I look into your eyes..

wanting you to confess your love..

wanting you to finally make my dreams come true..

But in your eyes..

I see my reflection..

I see my pain..

I see me..

and I see my love for you..

But I can't see you..

Because you refuse to let me in, not matter how hard I tried..

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Take care..

My Say on the Shared Story (2)

2010-10-04T10:23:00.000-07:00

Dedicated to the brave lady.. and to #1 Anony :)

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First of all, I must say that it is very brave of you to write this. I hope you are feeling a little bit better.

Now, if there is one motto you should follow, it would be around the lines of: tomorrow is a new day, and yesterday is basically over. You should live your life day by day, and stop mourning about the past. Even though it's hard, and you feel like you're losing a part of your identity, but that phase will soon be over. You will be able to look back and be thankful for all the hardships that you went through because they helped shape the way you are now.

I won't focus on the part about your relationship with anyone, I will focus on you. You should try to sit down with yourself and discover who you really are, what you want, and just admit to yourself how you're feeling.

Sometimes people are just in denial, and they refuse to let go. When you say that you feel guilty because you feel like you are cheating on 3aziz, that is you in denial. You might be thinking that he will come back one day, but he isn't because he finally settled in the right place. He might be away from you, but you have to be sure that he happened for a reason, to make you a better person maybe, and he will always be a part of your past.

Your future now, has to involve you moving on. If you really love that guy, go for it, but try not to do it because you want to compensate for your lost love. Really think it through, maybe have a little time to yourself. If he loves you, he will always wait for you no matter what.

Be sure that your soul mate will "happen", whether you are expecting it or not. Try not to think about it and just enjoy yourself, and focus on emotionally recovering first.

I hope this helps .. :)

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Take care..

Shared Story (2)

2010-10-02T06:18:00.000-07:00

This is another story..
she wanted to share..
and I hope you guys offer her some advice..
w I will write my advice in the next post inshallah..

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I was 13 when I first fell inlove. I meet him from flickr and I regret that knw we stayed together for a year he was the perfect guy I lied about something and he found out so he broke up with me.

After a year I logged in my fb and found an inbox from this guy let's call him 3aziz. He was thanking me for accepting his request. We started chatting kna we chat the whole time. Awl mngoom tell we go back to sleep he asked me for my email I don't knw why I gave him I felt like I could trust him. After a week of chatting on msn he told me that he was falling for me and I felt the same way so we became a couple. We talked day and night. Itha knt mt'9ygaa I would go to him he would always be their for me. After 5 months the day before my life becomes black I was chatting with 3aziz.

me*fenyy el 9y7aa
3ziz* laiish 7yatyy shfeech
me* t5ylt my life bdoonk
3ziz* mb a5leech

The next day was his first day for uni w anaa knt fl bait w I woke up at 7 bs 3shaan I be the first to wish him luck on his first day. I talked with him tell he got to uni and I went back to sleep at 4 I woke up 7saayt glbyy kaan bwgf. I talked to 3aziz bs he wasn't answering so I thought maybe he's with his friend aw shyy. I was sitting in the living room I was checking my fb when I saw a guys status Allah yr7m 3ziz al flanii. It was the same name of 3ziz I freaked out 6rsht a msg 7g the guy asked him whts the name of the guys father. But he took a while to answer so I told my friend to call him. She did and she called me she told me that it was him. I broke down I stayed a 2 weeks nt in the mood to talk to anyone I would cry every once in a while. After a year I had this guy friend that I knew for 3 years he told me that he loved me. I told him that I can't. He said that he understand and now a7s I'm falling for him. I don't knw wht to do if I tell him a7s inaa I will feel bad lnaa a5oon 3aziz Allah yr7ma :(.

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I hope you are feeling better..

My Heart..

2010-09-29T09:24:00.001-07:00

Dedicated to Him..

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I love you, my heart would whisper every time you I see you...

You look at me, a hint of amusement in your eyes..

Did you hear that?

Of course not, because I have taught my heart the art of silence..

The art of thinking, but never talking aloud..

It betrays me sometimes, with a whisper escaping its closed chambers..

But you can't hear it..

Because my heart beats always manage to be louder..

Louder than its whispers,

louder than its sobs,

louder than its hopes..

My heart cries silently some more..

begging me to allow it to talk, to scream, to be heard..

It shivers as you get closer..

It begs me again..

It vows that it would be just one time..

Just one time, my heart would say,

It's just one time that it wants to be heard..

You stand in front of me..

I hold my breath..

For a moment, my heart stops beating..

My heart can hear you, you say..

My heart knows..

You place your hand on my heart,

You touched my heart..

You touched my soul..

You touched me..

And I can never forget that..

But you can..

and you already did..

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I will post the story whenever i'm free..
Im sorry walla.. adry maleetaw min the random posts..

My say on the shared story..

2010-09-25T01:42:00.000-07:00

This is dedicated to sara for being brave and sharing her story..
This is my advice to you..
Simply.. Follow your heart..

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From what I read, I don't think that a7mad is the one your heart is set upon. I see Fahad being the one you want to spend the rest of your life with. Now, whether you should pursue him or not, no you shouldn't. Fate will bring you together, and your love will blossom in the right way. If you ever do see him, maybe you should let him know that you do love him. Not directly, just try to get the message across subtly, 3ashan yadry ina you still want him to be part of your life. Give him the green light, but the rest is up to him.

If he did hurt you, forgive and forget. You are hurting yourself more by choosing not to forgive him. Everything can be fixed. If he cut right through your heart, it can be stitched again. Scars define us as human beings, and they make us more beautiful and real.

Whether you end up marrying him or not, w inshallah you will, be sure that your husband is the one for you. You will love him more than you loved anyone else, w after all your years together you will look back and think that you didn't love anyone else. You had feelings for people before, but your feelings for your husband will be surely different.

Should you tell your husband about the people you used to love? No, you shouldn't, and that is my alterable opinion. I haven't thought about this point thoroughly, but I think if I was in your place, I would leave that detail out of our conversation. If you were asked, you tell the truth of course. But otherwise, you don't need to bring the subject up.

Final Note: I am a firm believer in love. You will be united with your loved one, even if you didn't expect to spend the rest of your life with this person. If it's meant to be, then it will be.

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Hope this helped..

Shared Story

2010-09-24T06:42:00.000-07:00

Hello :)
So below is someone's story..
she would like to share it with you and just let it all out. .
please offer advice if you have any..
Otherwise.. it just helps to talk to someone who doesn't know you..
So i Guess this can be considered as part of the healing process..

*Names have been changed..

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i guess today was the day i decided to let go of it all!
I wonder when did I first learn to love?
At the age of 13 I made that decision to commit…
Not to any one, but a member of the royal family…was I that materialistic from a young age??!! Did the watches he gave me blind my eyes…was I charmed with his smile, did his light tan really make me love him??!!
But based on what did I think I’m in love…the smile I felt forming across my check bones, or the heartbeats I felt pumping in my chest?? Or was I simply trying to making every girl jealous by putting my hands on the new item that dropped in school??!!
I guess a7mad was overwhelmed with my beauty himself, I myself came from a high class well known family..i knew the standers I was expected to end up with and thus I aimed for.
You may say I’m the type of girl that get’s what she wants… I put my eyes on something, I work on getting it and yes you guessed it right I actually do get it…and like all of you, as soon as I get it I feel like I don’t need it anymore…
Stuff moved fast and the next thing you know, I had my first boyfriend…he’s just a year older than me..14 at the time…
We were the young sweet hearts….my friends would gather around us and smile at the image of us sitting next to each other…you’d hear one call out: ‘you’ll end up having gorgeous babies.’
After 2 weeks of passion, I was forced to leave a7mad…since my sister found out…she had no chose but to tell my mother…everyone at school was talking about us!
So we broke up…I guess that’s when I realized I really liked him…
No..the story doesn’t end here…it goes on…but not with Nasser…
I felt really lonely at this stage of my life, that’s when my friends grew closer to me…
But that’s when the unexpected happened….my friends ex-boyfriend claims he’s into me…
He’s no more than a brother…
We grew closer as we talked, he paid attention to what I said, he listened and respected me…he himself comes from a well known family.
I started to like him…I admit…
As I grew older I knew whats wrong and whats right, whats acceptable in our society and whats not, that’s when I backed out….
Long story short..i guess my so called friend, the hand that pulled me from the dead is the same that wants to spend his life with me!
I was shocked..but I left everything as it is and moved on…
After 5 years…this same person comes back..holding the same exact feeling for me..
But now is it love??
Im much grown, my brain can digest this all.
I know for a fact a friend of mine holds feelings for him…but she hurt me once…was I the kind of person to hurt her back?!
I sit with myself, and yes I saw a future for both of us…a possibility maybe
Until..he thought he knew me well…
That’s when I said goodbye…
Are those two men I know worth me?? I don’t think so..a7mad..oh my I guess bumping into you now will just decide if there was ever love…I admit I hate my self for thinking I loved you..you where a crush..nothing but that….why did I ruin my past with you…how can I ever stand in front of my husband and say yes I did have a boyfriend…or should I lie….everything is different now….
But you fahad…you knew so much….you knew about a7mad….you still took me as I am…but to use me to show yourself how much of a man you are then your wrong….im worth so much as I know it…I stood with my head high on graduation night, I looked in your fathers eyes thinking ill be part of your life one day…but sadly my fairy tale got shattered….
If I was to ask you something now I’d just ask if you really loved me?? was I really gonna be the mother of your children??
To be honest you’re the only man I felt warm as I talked to…you made me smile and feel upset…but hell yes you hurt me, you said what no one else had said…so as much as you wanted me to be yours I wanna make you stay away…
Ive always been know for being a strong person but I guess when I see you, I’ll know if what I did is the right thing or not..
Thankyou for reading…I feel so much better now, and knowing that all your readers might read this makes me smile…
I guess you were right opening up is what I really needed…am I alone?? No im not…ive got my family…and that’s enough..and you and your readers are for sure part of it.
Thankyou again
sara..

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Inshallah I will post soon..

My fairytale..

2010-09-21T11:55:00.000-07:00

Hello again :)
So I received emails from some people.. asking about my own love story..
So I decided to write this post,
and of course, since I am not that discrete, people are starting to 'discover' my identity ;p
So i decided to clear things up :)
Ya3ny im letting you, my lovely readers, in..

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My story..

a bit complicated,

yet very typical..

girl loves boy.. not sure if love is the word though..

Sometimes I feel like it's an understatement..

Boy (or man in my case since he is older - and let us just keep it at that) does not know about girl..

Maybe he does, but he's choosing to ignore?

I mean come on, sometimes I feel like "In love" is practically written on my forehead or something..

Or maybe he wants to do something about it but is waiting for the right time?

But then again, I think that's just my mind playing games..

Anyways..

So their paths cross sometimes..

Is it fate?

Or is he just trying to torture her?

Or is she over-analyzing everything to do with him?

All of the above maybe?

Who knows..

So she lives for the hope that she will see him..

She wakes up wishing that he will pass by today..

She fears losing him..

losing the hope for a future together..

They have nothing..

no history together..

a clean record when it comes to each other..

But in her heart.. he is all there is to her past and her future..

She loves him?

Again, is an understatement..

Does he?

Who knows..

Fine.. no he doesn't ..

but then again, he might..

Is it going to work out?

That is for all of us to find out..

Let us just hope that she finds the strength to wait patiently..

the power to watch silently..

and the heart to love secretly..

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So my dear readers.. what I write..
is a figment of my imagination, and I did mention this earlier..
it might be based on a glance, a word (not directed to me even), or simply from all the feelings that I have inside of me..

I know that some of you were thinking its a long, never-ending love story..

bas inshallah I am hoping that someday it will turn into one..
and we will love happily ever after :)

Feel free to share your stories too..

and if you want me to post about your story, then email it to me
shushuxd@gmail.com

and I will do just that!

Take care ;)

Tonight..

2010-09-19T09:39:00.000-07:00

Hello :)
madry shfeeny I'm posting a lot these days even though im really busy ;p
I guess I just have a lot of feelings bottled up inside of me..
Some are too sacred for me to share..
But some manage to escape the restrictions I have put for them..
I will leave you with the post..

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I beg you to come tonight..

Let us hold hands under the glowing moon..

Let us count the scattered stars..

Let us name all the trees..

Let us call out for the migrating birds..

Let us play with the wet sand..

Let us fight the cold ocean waves..

Let us fall on our backs..

Let us laugh at our silliness..

Let us pretend we're kings and queens..

Let us rule the world together..

Let us be the best of friends..

Let us be lovers..

Let us love and be loved..

Let us hug one time only..

Let us look into each other's eyes..

Let us fall asleep in each other's arms..

Let our innocent love bloom..

Come and visit me in my dreams once more..

I beg you to come tonight..

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Hope u liked it..
I will post a part for the story soon inshallah!! :)

Meant to Be (Part 41)

2010-09-18T02:03:00.000-07:00

Hiii :)
The part is finally written ;p
w why is the blogger world sleeeeeeping??!

This one is dedicated to:
Dont.Dwell, bint almeharir, madliar, A, and hano.Oshi

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----- M7ammad

Shai5a decided that she didn't want to go shopping anymore. It was the weekend so we had family gathering to attend, and so we were somewhat busy.

Ti7ajibat Shai5a on Saturday, a day before university.

"You look gorgeous.." I told her, kissing her forehead.

"La tjamilny.." She pouted.

"Walla 9ij you look beautiful.." I tried encouraging her, as I pushed her through the door.

"M7ammad.. I don't look nice.. please I don't want people to see me like this.." She said, trying to get back in.

"Yummaaaaaaa.. Shai5a ti7ajibat.. ta3alaw shoofoohaaaa!!" I screamed.

"M7ammaaaad!!" She hid her face.

We were interrupted by the camera flashes and screams of children. Everyone was excited and hyper, especially the little children because they loved her so much.

After all the congratulations and endless chitchats, we headed to our room at night.

"I really don't feel like going to uni tomorrow.." She complained after we were tucked in bed.

"You're going to love it.. don't worry.." I assured her.

"Bas my friends kilhum ra7aw engineering w one of them medicine w il bajee are studying abroad.. ya3ny no one is with me in English Lit.." She complained.

"Don't worry.. you'll do fine.." I laughed.

She sighed, worriedly.

"Good night.." I told her, smoothing her hair.

"Sweet Dreams.." She replied, smiling.

The next day was spent trying to calm Shai5a's nerves before she goes to university; I was going to drop her off before I go to work. So I spent all the way comforting her, even though she was not really paying attention to me, which meant she wasn't paying attention to the road. She was up for a surprise of course, and she was clueless.

I got to the university, opened the car's door, and walked her to the door.

"M7ammad.. hathy moo il jam3a!!" She said after a while of starring at the building.

"Imbala.. this is where you are going to be studying for the next 7 years.." I told her.

"M7ammad!!! Hathy kuliyat il 6ib!" She replied, dumbfounded.

"I know.. yalla you don't want to be late for your first lecture!" I laughed at her expression.

"Bas.." She trailed off, still shocked.

"Look.. I know that it's your dream to be a doctor, you told me so, and I asked my sisters more about it and all of them said so.. Therefore, I went to your father and told him that I want you to be a doctor so that we can understand each other more.. which is of course BS because we don't really need that.. anyways.. so he didn't mind.. fa sa7abt awragech min english literature, and now you are officially a medical student.." I explained.

"No way!" She said wide-eyed.

"Shai5a!! Yalla you're going to be late!!" I told her, pushing her inside.

"Umbaaaay!!" She said, finally realizing what was happening.

"Di5lay.." I laughed as I pointed to the door.

"Oh my god M7ammad.." She hugged me tightly.

I kissed her forehead, smiling, and pointed at the door when she let go of me.

"Ok.." She breathed, as she pushed the door and entered.

I smiled to myself, knowing that I did the right thing, and went to work, making a mental note to pick her up on time.

----- Shai5a

The time was going by really fast, and thankfully, I saw a couple of familiar faces so we walked together for the rest of the day. The professors seemed ok, and were just introduced to the program and the course outline.

It was time to leave so I said good-bye to my friends, and took some books and handouts that were handed out to us, and went outside looking for him.

He waved, as he got out of the car and took my books from me.

"La2.. 3adee ana asheelhum!" I told him.

"I got it!!" He said, carrying them, and putting them in the trunk.

I held his hand and excitedly chatted about my day, while he played with my fingers and listened intently.

"Ya3ny are you happy now?" He asked.

"More than happy.. ecstatic.. walla M7ammad you have no idea how grateful I am to you.. I love you.." I blabbered, but when I realized what I just said, I stopped and placed my hand on my mouth shutting it.

"Wayed wala shwaya?" He asked, teasing me.

I remained quiet, dumbfounded by how fast things were progressing.

"I love you too, you know.." He said, kissing my pinky.

The rest of the ride was silent of course, with my insides all churning and my heart basically running marathons.

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Getting Over you..

2010-09-15T08:35:00.000-07:00

Helloo..
I know I haven't been posting a lot..
bas school started and im extremely busy..
inshallah I will post very soon..

This one is for Him..

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I was trying to get over you..

but as usual you decided to interfere just before I end my anguish..

Just before I decide to forget about my long painful nights, you decide to show up..

You end my misery for a day,

but you end up opening up all the wounds..

today you are here, carefully mending them..

but tomorrow you aren't,

and I am left alone..

tired,

depressed,

confused,

and in pain,

waiting for you to come back..

because you are my doctor..

you are my savoir..

you have the magic spell to cure me ..

you can cast it..

and yet you won't..

you prefer to leave me hanging..

you prefer to leave me suffering..

you prefer knowing that I will always be in need for you..

I will always be waiting for you..

I will always love you..

But you forgot to consider that I am in deep pain..

Really deep pain..

Waiting for your love..

Waiting for you to caress me ..

waiting for your tender touch..

I love you, I would repeat every night..

with no answer..

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Take Care :)

A glimpse into the Future..

2010-09-11T17:07:00.000-07:00

Hellooooooo ;)
3eedkum Mbarak.. w sorry ina its late ;p
w I hope all of you are enjoying eid more than i am ;p

This post is "a glimpse into the future" of shaikha and m7ammad...

I felt like writing bas i dont have time for a whole post..

Dedicated to H..

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"Shaikha.." He called in a desperate voice.

"Shfeek?" I replied, mi5tar3a.

"aby abooooos!!" He screamed from behind the bathroom door.

"Moo min 9ijik M7ammad!" I said, rolling my eyes.

"Imbala min 9ijy.. yalla 6il3ay" He insisted.

"many 6al3a.." I said stubbornly.

"Shayoo5.. bala dala3.. walla aby aboos!!" He replied.

"No.." I stated.

"Tara walla akser il bab!!" He screamed crazily.

"M7ammad.. la t9eer maynoon! Il yahal tawhum naymeen tara!!" I exclaimed, opening the bathroom door.

"Ta3alaaaaaay.." He said with a goofy smile, as he pulled me towards him.

"Inzain.. one minute.. ilnas ma yboosoon 3ala 6ool.. they hug awal.. ba3dain.." I told him, trying to get away.

"Ok.. here you go.." He replied instantly.

He took both of my hands into his, and put them behind him, leaving them hanging on his waist. He pulled me even closer to him, and enclosed my body with his strong arms. He rubbed my back gently, making want to melt right there. Isn't this more romantic than a kiss, I thought to myself, sighing.

My answer was given to me almost automatically, as if he read my mind. Our lips met in the most perfect gesture, making me lose my breath right away. Nothing can beat this, the kiss screamed.

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Meant to Be (part 39)

2010-08-13T02:55:00.000-07:00

This one is dedicated to Nawarii, saron28, D E, Lulu..

W mbarak 3aleekum il shahar..

I feel guilty posting this b ramadan ;p
Bas you guys waited too long adry!!
Sorryyyyyyyyyyy.. walla I'm very very very busy!!

w hope you like it..

ma ra7 agool I will not post in this month..
la2ana in general I dont have time to post..

w this story has from 5-10 posts more.. w then it will finish!!

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----- M7ammad

"M7ammad.. 5ala9 moo lazem ta5eth ijaza.." She said after she closed the phone.

"Laish?" I asked.

"Bas.. aroo7 wiya umy il 9ib7.. I talked to her w galat ok.. w agdar aroo7 wiyak il 3a9er or with any of my cousins.." She replied.

"Ok.. kaifich.." I told her.

And for 4 days I would take her out every night, we would go to the mall, she would buy a few things, then we would watch a movie, have dinner, and then go back home.
One afternoon she told me that she wants to go with one of her cousins, and my sister Mariam will go with them too. I gave her the green light, and decided to take a nap as I waited for her to come back.

It was about 5 when they left, and when I woke up, it was 9.

Rubbing my eyes, I searched for my phone to call her. Her phone was switched off. I called my sister, her phone was switched off too. I went downstairs, literally hunting for something to eat since I was starving. Thankfully, I go there in time before they remove the dinner from the table.

After I finished, I sat with my mom and brother, w ba3dain 6ila3 ra7 il diwaniya. I waited and waited, I called her a few times but it was the same thing. The clock struck 11 and my mom went to sleep.

So I was left alone in the living room, thinking where the hell is she?

I went outside, and waited for her in the garden. I contemplated whether or not I should go to them, but then again I don't even know what mall she went to. Was I overreacting? It's almost 12, I looked at my watch angrily.

We came earlier than 12 every single night because I didn't like the kind of people that went to malls after that time, and that was when I was with her. Now they're girls, all alone, and they're still not back.

Why the hell did I agree to letting her go, I have no idea.

I paced in the driveway furiously, getting more and more impatient every second.
My watch beeped, indicating it was 12, which ticked me off. I called Shai5a and my sister one last time, before deciding to call Shai5a's mother.

I apologized and explained that shai5a is still not here, hoping that she would call her cousin or give me her number so I can at least know that she's ok.

After a couple of minutes her mom called saying that her cousin wasn't answering her phone.

I almost lost it right then if I didn't hear a car's engine really close. The car slowly approached the house, showing how hesitant the driver was.

Mariam stepped out first, and then Shai5a stuck to her. Her cousin left quickly, leaving the three of us standing alone.

I looked at my watch, 12:29. Silently I pointed to the door so they can go inside before me. They stood in the living room eyeing me nervously, but I left both of them shocked, making my way upstairs.

----- Shai5a

"He just went upstairs.. and he didn't say a word.. " I told Mariam.

"yimkin moo m3a9eb.." She said.

"Did you see his face?" I asked her irritated.

"You have a point.." She laughed.

"Waaaay.. Mariam, what am I supposed to do now??!" I freaked out.

"Madry.." She replied coolly.

"Please come upstairs with me.." I almost begged.

"yalla ok.." she agreed.

"Inzain.. please please di5lay gably.." I told her when we reached our room.

"Yalla 3ad Shai5a.." She opened the door and pushed me inside, then she ran downstairs.

I looked around, really scared, but he was not in the living room.

Slowly, I went inside the bedroom, and I saw him take his pillows and make his way to the couch.

He didn't even acknowledge my existence, not once did he look in my direction.
A lonely tear found its way to my cheek. I sat on the edge of the bed, thinking about what to do.

He'd never let me sleep if I'm mad at him. I should at least apologize, I thought to myself. I took a couple of minutes to gather up my courage, and then I sat on the couch facing him.

With his eyes still closed, he turned around, making me face his back instead of his face now.

This is not going to be easy, I rubbed my eyes, and sat on the floor next to the couch immediately.

"M7ammad.." I called, but he didn't reply.

I called him a couple of times, but he didn't reply, so I gave up.

"Ok.. don't talk to me.. but please just sleep on the bed.." I said sadly.

He ignored me again, so I went back to bed hopelessly. I knew he was not sleeping; he was too mad to be sleeping anyways. As much as his face was composed, his breathing wasn't and his muscles were tense and it showed.

I sighed as I got up to change, and closed the lights.

Of course, I couldn't sleep, I stayed for about 2 hours tossing in bed. I felt so lonely; I realized that I got used to him being close every night, hugging me, wishing me a good night softly. I just couldn't go to sleep without counting his heart beats and feeling his chest rise and fall against mine.

Walking slowly, I went next to the window, which was directly in front of the couch, and looked for the moon. It was nowhere to be found in the extreme darkness of the sky; automatically I felt even more depressed.

I sat on the floor next to his couch and hugged my knees closer to me.
"Laish moo nayma leel7een?" He asked.

"M7ammad?!" I said surprised; I thought he was asleep.

"T3alay yamy.." He said, scooting over.

I lied down beside him, but there was barely enough place for both of us to sleep on the couch. I was about to fall, but he moved me on top of him. Every single part of my body shivered when it touched his at first. Oddly, I felt comfortable. I felt safe, I felt home. My head was on his chest, and his heartbeats were more audible than ever.

I raised my head to look at him, and our eyes met. Mine started filling instantly, and his softened as he noticed my eyes brimming with tears.

"I'm sorry.." I managed to say, as I placed my head on his chest once more, eager to listen to his heartbeats that managed to calm me down once more.

"Wain kintaw?" He asked.

I explained the whole thing, how we went shopping, then we went to a dinner, then we saw a couple of friends and they practically forced us into going to a movie with them. It was about 11 when we left the movie theater, and when we went to our cars, they found that their car was not working. So we waited for a person to come and take a look at it; and take the car to the garage. After that, we took each one of them to their house and we came.

He was quiet for a couple of seconds.

"Marra thanya mako 6al3a wiya a7ad.." He said sternly.

"Inshallah.." I replied automatically not wanting him to get mad again.

He sighed and carried me to bed, and we stayed in the same position, with me on top of him, hugging him tightly.

"M7ammad.. za3lan?" I asked.

"Ee za3lan.." He said.

I pouted, thinking of a way to make it up to him. But really I didn't have to. He moved me, so I was now underneath him. He kissed me, devouring my lips first and then moving on to my neck.

He stopped there and looked at me, smiling.

"moo za3lan il7een" He stated cheekily.

I rolled my eyes, laughing at him.

That night, when he hugged me, I looked into his eyes and I saw all the love in them. I knew he was the one right then. I actually think I knew a long time ago.

"I love you.." I whispered.

"Shno?" He mumbled, really sleepy.

"Good night.." I said.

"Good night.." He replied smiling.

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One last time?

2010-07-21T01:19:00.000-07:00

Dedicated to H..

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I'm going to miss you.. akeed you'll ask why now?! why are you telling me this now?! well.. la2ana 5ala9 I'm going to block all your memories and delete you out of my life, my brain, maybe my heart too .. I loved you with my all .. bas 5ala9.. maleeeeeeeet.. it's hard .. it's painful.. it's confusing.. you make me feel 10 years older .. and at times you can make me feel 10 years younger ba3ad .. I wish I can have closure.. with you it's not possible.. damn it what am I saying .. what am I trying to do? I still love you.. I will love you for the rest of my life .. bas it's not meant to be.. It's not like we had anything.. it was a figment of my imagination based on thin strings that are almost invisible to the people around us.. but I saw them.. for some reason I saw them.. they were like the light at the end of the tunnel.. they were all my hopes and dreams.. they were everything .. and nothing in the same time.. I wish I can hate you .. I wish I can despise you instead of all the love I carry around for you.. sometimes your love is like a burden.. it gets so heavy.. it's almost impossible to carry.. but impossible to get rid of in the same time.. I have no idea why I'm so attached to you.. to the idea of you there forever and ever.. I love you I would repeat in my head.. I love you I would plead every single night.. I love you I would beg every single shooting star.. I love you I would cry helplessly over and over .. I love you.. I'm sick of those three beautiful words.. I wish you would wake up and realize that I am right here.. waiting for you to look up.. waiting for your eyes to smile with acknowledgment.. but you refuse to do that.. you refuse to be the reason for my happiness.. you refuse to let me in your life.. but what you don't know is that only the thought of you makes me get up in the morning.. the idea of having you close to me one day is the only reason I smile.. You are in every breath I take.. Your smile is reflected on every drop of water.. No matter how much you tried to deprive me from yourself.. I loved you more and more.. you fought me back with all your strength.. all you wanted to prove is that you are not the one for me.. but you were all along.. you still are.. and you will be for the rest of my being.. I'm tired of fighting for you.. you can have it your way if that's what you want.. if you want us to stay apart for the rest of our lives then you can have that.. if all you care about is for your path never to cross mine then you can have that too.. if you don't want me to know anything about you.. then I want you to know that you're being too harsh on me .. you're asking too much.. but I'm willing to give you even that.. I'm saying good-bye now and forever .. I want you to know that no farewell is ever going to be enough for me.. you were my strength one day.. and today you are my only weakness.. I love you one last time I will whisper to the darkness.. I love you..

It's hard to mourn over something you had.. but it's even harder to mourn over something you never had..

Meant to Be (Part 38)

2010-07-19T09:49:00.000-07:00

This post is dedicated to Unchained Melody and Mrs. Chuck Bass...
and I think it's the longest I ever wrote!!

and my email is
shushuxd@gmail.com

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----- m7ammad

Days passed and I got better. I had to go to work, b mustashfa il 3adan. Things were getting better between me and Shai5a.

"M7ammad.. aby aroo7 wiyak il dawam bacher.." She said one night.

"5air inshallah.." I told her as I hugged her and closed my eyes.

"M7ammad.. min 9ijy!!" She stated.

"Shno ya3ny tyeen wiyay il dawam?" I replied sleepily.

"Ya3ny il 9ib7 lamma agoom 3ashan atrayag wiyak.. ma ared dary w ag3ad bidoon sh'3l.. aroo7 wiyak instead.." She said.

"La2.." I told her simply.

"Laish la2?!" She asked.

"Bas.." I replied, not in the mood for discussing anything now.

"M7ammad.. ma y9eer chithy.. tgawimny il 9ib7 mbacher w ana ma 3ndy shay asawy.. w ma tir'6a aroo7 ashte'3el wala mukan.. w ga3da bl bait.. w malal.. w aby ayee wiyak!!" She complained.

"Ya3ny lee hal daraja t7ibeeny? Ma tigdereen tig3ideen bidoony wala digeega?" I teased her, hoping that it would make her stay quiet.

"Eee eee.. lee hal daraja a7ibik!!" She said to my surprise.

I opened one eye to look at her, and she was pouting and in no state to sleep. I laughed at I sat up and opened the lights.

"Intay shaklich moo nawya tnameen.." I yawned.

"Ee ma ra7 anam leeman tir'6a ta5ithny wiyak.." She sat up too.

" No way.." I shook my head.

"EE laish ya3ny??!" She asked, and she moved so she could face me.

"La2ana dawamy kila riyayeel w looya w ma abeech tit3ibeen wiyay.." I replied.

"M7ammad.. it's a hospital.. akeed ra7 ykoon feeha riyayeel w looya.. besides I want to stay in your room and see your patients.." She said stubbornly.

"Is this argument going to go on forever?" I laughed at her serious facial expressions.

"It will end as soon as you say 'yes' " She urged.

"Give me one good reason.." I told her.

"Because it's my dream.. to be a doctor.. and since I can't be one.. then please I just want to pretend to be one for one day only.." She held my squeezed my hands, and looked at me with her beautiful brown eyes compelling me to say yes.

"W mno gal you can't be a doctor?" I asked.

"Ubooy.." She said as she looked away.

"Bas ana il mas2ool 3anich il7een moo ubooch.." I told her.

"Hatha moo maw'6oo3na il7een.." She told me, blinking away the tears.

"3ayal shno maw'6oo3na?" I teased her.

"Wala shay .." She sighed and lied down avoiding eye contact.

"Ya3ny za3lana?" I asked as I peeked in her face.

"la2.. bas ti3abt w banam.." She said as she moved further away.

"Shda3wa ti3abtay.. 3ayal bacher shlon ra7 t9eereen doctor?" I asked her, moving closer.

"M7ammad.. bas maly 5ulg atna8ash.." She closed her eyes tightly.

"Ana ma aby atna8ash.. ana agool goomay 6al3ay hdoomich 7ag bacher 3ashan ma t2a5reeny il 9ib7.." I kissed her shoulder.

"Ya3ny ra7 ta5ithny??" She asked hesitantly.

"Ee ra7 a5thich wiyay.. bas la tit3awideen.." I laughed.

"Gool walla!!" She sat up excitedly.

"Shno li3ba .. ana gitlich shay ya3ny 5ala9.." I told her.

"Omg!! Thank youuuuuu.." She screamed as she jumped out of bed and ran to her closet.

I followed her and watched as she threw a couple of garments on the chair.

"6ayartay ilnoom min 3ainy.." I complained.

"Ay outfit a7san?!" She ignored my remark.

"Madry.. why does it matter anyways.." I said as I sat on the other chair.

"Are you seriously asking me this question?" She rolled her eyes.

"Ok.. I have a suggestion for you.." I said as I got up and dug into my closet to find the scrubs that I got a while ago. They were small but I didn't have time to return them. "There.." I said as I held them up when I found them.

"Brilliant.." She threw the black pants on the floor and took the scrubs from me carefully.

"You like?" I asked her, grinning.

"I love.." She smiled excitedly. "I'm going to try them on.." She said, running to the bathroom.

I rolled my eyes and waited for her. She opened the door after a while and peeked.

"This is too amazing!!" She said, stepping out. "A little too big though.." She continued.

The shirt was sort of baggy and it reached almost mid-thigh and the sleeves reached her elbows. The pants were a bit long.

"Awal shay.. you need a pin here.." I said pointing to the waistline. "Thany shay.. you look hot.." I winked.

"I am sooooo excited.. walla M7ammad .. thank you soooo much!!" She blabbered.

"Inzain.. yalla we need a good night sleep 3ashan you can rock the hospital tomorrow.." I told her as I went to bed.

"Ok.. I'm going to change and sleep.." She said as she went to the bathroom again.

I was too sleepy so I didn't bother to open my eyes when she came to bed, all I did was hug her when she came closer.

She mumbled something and we both drifted to sleep.

----- Shai5a

I woke up extra early the next morning, I don't think I slept properly a9lan. I took a shower, got dressed, and then woke M7ammad up.

I prepared quick breakfast as he took a shower and we left to work after breakfast. The ride to the hospital was quiet; I was too excited and he was sleepy as usual.
I sat next to him and pretended to be his assistant for the day. He rescheduled his surgeries because, according to him, there is no way I will be allowed in the operating room.

"Il7een my break.. ana baroo7 ayeebly something to drink.. and you stay here .. do you want anything?" he asked as he got up.

"water please.." I said as I smiled.

I sat on his chair and waited patiently for him to come back. I wanted to ask him about some of the cases and I didn't have a chance to do so earlier.

The door opened, and a really tall woman came in. I looked at her and smiled.

She frowned as she checked the room number and looked at me again.

"Dr. M7ammad will come back ba3ad shway.." I told her.

"Aha.. w intay mno?" She asked eyeing me.

"Ana.." I started, but stopped as he came inside the room.

"M7ammad!! There you are.." She beamed when she saw him.

She was almost as tall as him, I noticed. And she had a killer figure too. She's annoying me already I thought to myself.

"Oh.. hey there.." he replied as he came and sat next to me.

"Ma shiftik ilyoom.. fa gelt ayee ashoof shfeek.." she said as she glanced my way.

"Tislimeen.. ma feeny shay 3adee.." He told her.

"Ahaa.. w mno hathy?" She asked as she pointed at me.

3yoony 6la3at min mukanha when she said that. She talks as if I was an intruder or someone she hates.

He introduced us to each other. I was simply "Shai5a" not his wife or anything, and she was "Dr. Dana" and of course she didn't like the formal name, instead she wants him to call her "Dana" or maybe "Dandoon" she laughed.

I smiled politely even though I was burning from the inside.
She sat down and took off her coat, as if it was the most normal, routinic thing she ever did.

She talked to M7ammad mostly, actually all of the time. She would glance my way, in the most despicable manner and engage herself with M7ammad.

Thankfully, his break was over soon, and her cue was an elderly patient that knocked the door and entered tiredly.

He smiled at me sensing my discomfort, and I kept quiet and smiled at the old man in front of me.

Who was she anyways to barge in and talk to him like he was her best friend. I mean if she was his best friend, then why didn't he bother to tell me about her sooner. And why does it have to be her with those extremely long legs? And why can't she at least be polite to me?

I sighed as the patient left, and M7ammad went outside for a couple of seconds then locked the door on his way in.

"Shfeech?" He asked with a smile.

"Ma feeny shay" I replied coldly.

"3ayal laish mazajich ti'3ayar min awal ma d5alat Dana?" He asked again.

"Mno Dana? Gool Dandoon a7san.." I stared at him with my eyebrows raised.

He laughed out loud, and I got up but he caught my hand, still laughing.

"mako shay y'6a7ek tara.." I told him.

"Ya3ny intay m3a9ba 3ashan Dandoon il7een?" He asked, trying but failing to sound serious.

"Hid eedy M7ammad.." I said, feeling the anger rise when he called her Dandoon.

"5ala9 5ala9.. I'm sorry.." He looked at me sincerely.

"a9lan mno hathy?" I asked.

"Dandoon.. a89id Dr. Dana.." He said.

I stared at him for a while before deciding to let it go.

"W mno Dr. Dana inshallah?" I continued.

"Wa7da.. kil yoom tig3ad tsoolef wiyay.. my friends hate her and.." He started.

"walla ma aloomhum.." I interrupted him.

"and apparently so does my wife then.." He laughed.

"W why did you forget to mention that I'm your wife?" I fumed.

"La2ana mamnoooooooo3 .. ma y9eer intay tkooneen hny a9lan.. this is a hospital not a hotel.. w loo ana ma a3arf il mudeer w amoon 3alee chan ma ri'6a.." He explained.

I looked at him to check if he was saying the truth, and he looked sincere I concluded.

Someone tried the door and then knocked it.

"Leel7een za3lana?" He asked.

"Open the door.." I ignored his question.

"ma ra7 afta7 until you say 'no' " He laughed.

"M7ammad.." I pointed at the door.

"La2.. yalla goolay moo za3lana 3ashan afta7.. ti5ayilay a patient is in dire need now w intay ily m3a6lita!!" he said.

"Fine.. moo za3lana.. go open the door.." I said, smiling in spite of myself.

He blew me a kiss as he went to open the door, and a young guy entered with him.

----- M7ammad

After I examined him, I started writing the prescription after assuring him that nothing serious is going on.

I looked at him after finishing everything but he was too busy looking at something behind me. I looked around and there was Shai5a with her long hair strewn all over her back. She bent to pick up the elastic to adjust her hair into a ponytail once more.

I called his name angrily, gave him his paper and he left; of course not without casting another long glance on Shai5a.

She sat next to me again.

"Aby akalmich b maw'6oo3 lama nred il bait.." I told her trying to stop myself from running after the guy and punching him.

"Shfeek?" She asked concerned.

"Wala shay.." I said, gritting my teeth.

Another patient came in just in time, to take my mind off the ******************.

The rest of the day went by quickly, and we went home, ate lunch then went upstairs to rest.

"M7amad shno kint taby tgool?" She asked as she sat on the couch next to me.

"Aby as2alich su2al.." I started.

"Go ahead.." She smiled.

"Shrayech tit7ajibeen?" I asked carefully.

"Hmm.. ana mfakra soon inshallah.." She replied.

"How soon is soon?" I asked her.

"Ya3ny give me a month inshallah w y9eer 5air.." She said.

"A month wayed.. ana mabeech tid5ileen il jam3a w intay moo mit7ajba.." I told her.

"M7ammad!! min wain ayeeb hdoom.. lazem aroo7 il soog ashtery.. yabeely at least a month!!" She exclaimed.

"3adee.. ana a5eth ijaza.. w awadeech ilsoog kil yoom for a week bas tit7ajibeen gabel il jam3a!!" I insisted.

"Ya3ny laish?" She asked.

"Bas.. a7ib sha3rich w maby a7ad yshoofa '3airy.." I told her.

She looked at me, and smiled.

"5ala9 okay.." She said after a while.

"ya3ny ra7 tit7ajibeen?" I asked excitedly.

"Ee inshallah!" She grinned.

"Ya ba3ad 3umry walla.. fidaitich!!" I said.

"Wai3.." She said, laughing.

"Shno wai3?" I asked, confused.

"I hate the word 'fidaitich' " She said, chuckling.

"Ya salam.. kaifeeee.. fidaitich w fadeech w afdach w ra7 afdeech 6ool 7ayaty!!" I screamed as I picked her up and swirled her around.

"Inzain.. 5ala9 kaifik.." She said as she hugged me.

"Ee 3abaly ba3ad.." I winked, and threw myself on the bed, exhausted and happy.

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Hope you enjoyed ;)

Meant to be (part thirty seven)

2010-06-30T05:49:00.001-07:00

This one is 37.. sorry for the mix-up..
Important note: This is my blog.. so I follow my own rules here.. :)
Please people watch your language.. I don't know most of you.. and some of your comments are just Rude..
I do welcome constructive critisicm..
I don't mind if you say you don't like the post..
Bas use polite language please..
Respect is very important for me.. so If I see one more impolite comment.. the blog will be private min bacher..
w sorry I tried to ignore this, w moo awal marra w ana 6awwaft..
Bas Please respect me :)
w thank you.
w this is NOT for all of you.. sorry for those of you who had to read this w uhma 7adhum 3ajeebeeeeeeeeen :)

Dedicated to my 100th follower..

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----- M7ammad

I don't know what was going on. I don't know how long I was in bed. When I opened my eyes for the first time, I was in a white room, with my brother by my side.

----- Shai5a

Three days have passed, and I have no idea where he is or what he's doing.

His mother, father, sisters, brothers, everyone basically, would ask me about him; and I would simple shrug.

"Bl mazra3a.." I would reply, unsure.

I tried calling him, maybe 10 times in these 3 days, but he would not reply.

I was miserable.

I cried myself to sleep every night.

I waited for him, every night.

I hugged the pillow instead of him, every night.

I hated myself, every night.

I blamed myself for his weird behavior, but no matter how much I promised myself that I would be a better wife, better company, a loyal friend to him; he didn't come back, and he didn't answer his phone.

Three days, and he didn't bother to pick up or even send a message.

----- M7ammad

"Salamat!!" Fahad said, when I opened my eyes.

"Allah ysalmik.." I replied, closing my eyes again.

"Inta maynoon?!" He asked.

"Wain Shai5a?!" I asked him, ignoring his last remark.

"ib baitna maskeena.. 9arlaha 3 days '6ay3a.. ma tadry shno tsawy.." He said.

"Shlon yibtny hny?!" I asked as I rubbed my eyes.

"Mako.. umy 6arishatny ashoofik wainik.. w lamma shiftik walla 3abaly inik 5ala9 ri7t feeha.. bas ashwa iny la7agt 3aleek.." He replied.

"Inzain .. la ykoon gilt 7ag a7ad iny maree'6?" I said.

"La2.. ana ga3ed 3indik min il 9ib7.. w il7een greeb athan il ma'3reb.." He looked at his watch.

"Ee a7san.. la tgool 7ag a7ad.." I ordered.

He opened his mouth to say something, but changed his mind.

"3a6ny my phone.." I told him. He handed it to me, and I signaled to him to be quiet as I dialed her number.

"Aloo.." I said when she picked up.

"M7ammad!!!" She exclaimed.

"3yoona.." I replied, smiling.

She kept quiet.

"Shlonich?!" I asked after a while.

"Inta wainik?" She asked, her voice breaking.

"I'm coming tonight.." I replied.

"Shno inta b kaifik?! You have to stay here tonight.. " Fahad interrupted.

"Inta malik sh'3l.." I silenced him, and to her I said, "I'm coming.."

She didn't reply.

"M7ammad.." She started after a while.

"Hala.." I said, feeling tired again.

She didn't reply, but within her silence I could hear sadness.

"Lamma ayee ilyoom akalmich ok?" I asked.

"Ok.." She replied quietly.

"Bye.." I said.

"Bye.." She replied, and I hung up.

"Inta w ba3dain wiyak?" I screamed at him.

"Inta ily ba3dain wiyak!! Shno taby tithba7 roo7ik!! Ma chinnick doctor!" Fahad screamed back.

"Inta malik sh'3l.. yalla roo7 nad il doctor in charge 3ashan akalma.." I told him, annoyed.

The doctor came, and we discussed the whole thing. I know I should stay one more day at least, but I promised her that I will be back tonight.

After a lot of negotiations and arguments, I convinced him to discharge me tonight after taking a couple of shots, and promising him that I will be back tomorrow.

I left the hospital, with the help of Fahad because I could barely walk, and went home.

----- Shai5a

It was already 10 pm, and he did not show up.

I should probably forget it I thought to myself, as I wished 5alti a good-night and headed to my room.

----- M7ammad

I greeted my mother and she started interrogating me about my whereabouts.
I couldn't go up the stairs, so I decided to sleep in my old room on the ground floor.

I called Shai5a, but she didn't pick up.

I called her again and again; she picked up the fourth time.

"Wainich ma tredeen?" I asked, struggling to keep my eyes open.

"W 3alaykum il salam.." She replied.

"Il salam 3aleekum.. ta3alay ta7at .. I'm in my old room.." I told her.

"I already changed into my pajamas.. inta ta3al foog.." She said.

"Ma agdar.. ta3alay yalla.." I replied.

"M7ammad.. I'm not coming.." She stated.

"Inzain.. bye.." I said as I hung up and called Fahad to help me go up.

I knocked on the door and told her to cover up because Fahad will help me in. After I was settled on the bed and Fahad left, I called out for her.

She didn't look at me, went to the other side of the bed and closed the lights.

I scooted next to her and held her hand.

"M7ammad.. aby anam.." She said coldly.

"W ana mishtaglich .. abee akalmich shway.." I told her. "I miss you so much!" I continued as I reached out for her.

"Where were you when I called?" She replied as she moved away.

"Yalla 3ad.. tara walla ta3ban.. ta3alay" I tried to convince her.

"Itha ta3ban go to your side of the bed and sleep.." she said stubbornly.

"I will always be on your side.." I told her as I kissed her shoulder.

She sighed and covered her face.

I kissed her shoulder again, and hugged her from the back.

"I didn't know married life was this stressful.." She said, a few tears escaping from her eyes.

"I'm sorry.. it doesn't have to be stressful you know.." I told her.

"Where were you? three days.. la tis2al wala tred wala chinna I'm your wife.." She replied, her voice muffled from all the tears.

I hugged her closer, feeling exhausted already.

"I was sick.. I had a virus w ma kint abeech tit3adeen.." I explained reluctantly.

"You could've told me.." She said.

"Walla ma kint adry 3an roo7y .. a9lan ilyoom fita7t 3eeny w I was in the hospital.. and I have no idea how I got there.. Fahood uhwa ily wadany.." I continued.

"You were in the hospital!!" She turned around to face me.

"Awal shay la tjableeny.." I told her.

"La2 ra7 ajablik.. kafy iny madry 3anik 3 days.." She insisted.

"Itha 9irtay maree'6a la tit7al6imeen" I said as I laughed.

"3adee.." She replied.

"Yalla liffay!!" I told her sternly, and she did quickly.

I hugged her once more as I chuckled.

"Ya3ny laish ma tgool inik maree'6 3ashan ayeeblik medicine or something.." she complained.

"la2ana I believe in the power of my immune system.. I can heal by myself.." I replied.

"You're kidding me.. 9a7?" She told me.

"Nope.. it's one of those things.. they say doctors make the worst patients.. I don't like to be a patient at all!!" I said.

"Seriously.. wow!" She said ironically.

"Inzain.. I'm tired.. let's sleep" I told her.

"We're not done yet.." She replied.

"Bacher.." I said.

"M7ammad.." She started.

"Na3am ya 7abeebat M7ammad.. shtabeen?" I yawned.

"Marra thanya la tsawy chithee.. I want to be there for you.." She told me.

"Inshallah.." I said as I squeezed her hand.

"w Salamat.." she continued.

"Allah ysalmich w y5aleech lee" I told her.

"Good night.." she replied.

"Good night.." I replied as I dozed off immediately.

----- Shai5a

I enjoyed the closeness of his body and his warm breath on my back. I closed my eyes, and drifted to sleep with a smile on my face.

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Hope you enjoyed ;)

Meant to Be (part thirty six)

2010-06-29T07:00:00.000-07:00

Not that long..
bas next one is soon inshallah..
and people.. I always post once a week ;p
fa ya3ny get used to that! ;p

This one is dedicated to one of my best buddies (Juju)
salamat ;**

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----- M7ammad

I woke up the next morning; I was on the couch in an extremely uncomfortable position, my legs were dangling from the side, and my neck was stiff. I looked around, and Shai5a was nowhere to be seen. I felt grumpy, tired, and there was something else wrong with my system, something I couldn't figure out with my head throbbing this way.

I went to the bathroom, did my business, then I prayed. Then I sat on the couch for a while, trying to massage my head to get rid of the head-ache. It was really cold so I went to my room to get some covers. I heard a loud thud in the kitchen so I went to look.

Shai5a was there, preparing some cheese sandwiches. She smiled when she saw me, and I attempted to return the smile.

"Good morning" She said.

I sighed as I took a seat and covered my face with my hands.

"Shfeek?" She asked concerned.

"Nothing.." I replied.

"9ij.. M7ammad shfeek?" she asked again as she came closer.

"Bas headache.." I said.

"Salamat.. do you need tea, coffee, panadol?" She asked as she sat next to me.

"No.." I told her.

"Akeed?" She said, concerned.

I nodded and grabbed a sandwich from the table. I ate a couple of bites, but I felt sick so I didn't finish it.

"We're going back today.." I said.

"Ok.." She replied.

"I think I'll have someone come and pick you up.. I might stay a couple more days.." I continued.

"M7ammad.. what's wrong?" She insisted.

"Nothing!" I said crossly, as I went to my bedroom. I called the driver, and told him to come pick her up.

I closed my eyes, and I felt like a huge weight was placed on my chest. I couldn't breathe, I was tired.

She knocked the door, but I couldn't reply, I couldn't talk.

She came in, but I couldn't open my eyes to look at her, and I can feel her sitting beside me.

She tried calling my name, but she left after several attempts.

----- Shai5a

There is something wrong with him.

Za3lan minny? Bas ana ma saweet shay!

I paced in front of his room for a couple of minutes, and decided to wait until he wakes up.

I heard his phone ring a couple of times, but he didn't pick up. I peeked inside, but he was still asleep in the same position.

After a little while, my phone rang.

5alti, m7ammad's mother, was calling.

She said that the driver was outside, and that M7ammad was not picking up his phone for some reason.

I told her he was sleeping and that I will be back with the driver.

"Laish tredeen wiya il sayeg? Laish moo wiya M7ammad?" She asked.

"La2ana ana 3ndy sh'3l w uhwa yaby yig3ad cham yoom.." I replied, not sure what to say really.

----- M7ammad

I forced myself to pick up after a while, the driver was still calling.

"Raju.. mno ma3ak?" I asked him tiredly.

"Mako a7ad baba.." He replied.

"Laish moo yayeb wiyak Kumary?" I managed to ask.

"Inta mafy gool.." He said, scared.

Ma y9eer tred wiya il sayeg broo7ha I thought to myself.

"Yalla roo7 yeebha w ta3al 3ashan ta5thoon mama!" I said.

"Mama bl bait.." He told me.

"Rajuuuu!! Roo7.. w ta3al i5ith Shai5a bser3a!!" I replied.

"Inshallah baba.." He said quickly and hung up.

I tried to get up, but I couldn't. It was probably a one day thing I thought to myself as I covered myself.

----- Shai5a

I walked around, and I would check up on him every 15 minutes but he was still asleep.

I don't get him, I really don't, I thought to myself

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Hope you enjoyed..
CLiff-hanger?! ;p

Meant to Be (Part thirty-five)

2010-06-22T02:20:00.000-07:00

Hello ;)
The post was ready ams.. bas our internet was down..
Enjoy :D
This one is dedicated to Dr. 7awoora ;)
and to all the commenters and readers..

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----- M7ammad

It was dark outside, and we sat on one of the benches.

"Tara we're going to sleep outside today" I told her.

"Ok.. bas it's kind of hot here" She replied.

"3adee.. we'll have the fan working if it gets really hot" I said.

"Ok.. let's play truth or dare" She said excitedly.

"Fine.. you ask first .." I told her.

"No.. you ask first.. a9lan you don't even ask questions, you always copy my questions.. it's not fair!" She complained.

"Fine.. you want me to ask ya3ny?" I challenged her.

"Yup.." She replied, certain.

"Truth or dare?" I said laughing.

"Truth" She told me.

"Do you love me?" I asked, not missing a beat.

Her eyes, honey colored, rimmed with a dark, chocolate-brown shade, now widened in disbelief. She stared at me, and a blush started to find its way to her cheeks.

"You can't ask these kinds of questions!" She said.

"Laish inshallah?" I replied.

"Because you just can't!" She insisted.

"Yes, I can.." I told her.

"No.. M7ammad seriously.. you can't" She exclaimed.

"Fine.. I'll change the question alright?" I said.

"Ok.." She sighed, feeling relieved.

"How much do you love me?" I asked, smiling smugly.

Her face turned into deeper shades of red, as she huffed.

"Fine.. I don't want a truth 3ayal.. I want a dare.." She said.

"No.. you already said truth" I told her.

"And I want to change now!" She insisted again.

"Mit2akda?" I asked her.

"Yes!" She smiled, victoriously.

"I want you to dance like Shakira.. and you can put music if you want!" I told her.

"Ok that's it.. I'm not playing with you.." She declared as she got up.

I laughed as I caught her before she left.

"Wain inshallah? You can't just quit the game you know.." I said.

"Watch me.." She replied as she tried to free her hand from my grip.

"If you're not going to play fairly, don't play at all" I told her.

"Inta ma t3arf t6ale3 as2ila.." She replied, annoyed.

"Shayfatny intay.. tis2al what's your favorite color, your favorite food, your favorite computer, your favorite shoe, w ba3dain ya3ny... as2iltich intay malee8a.. my questions rock, honey" I stated coolly.

"Whatever.. let go of my hand.." She said, rolling her eyes.

"No way.. you can't just go about breaking all the rules and expect to just get away with it!" I exclaimed.

"Now what ya3ny?" She asked.

"Now is payback time sweetie.." I said.

"And what is payback exactly?" She asked, still trying to free her hands.

"Five minutes.." I replied.

"Five minutes of what?" She asked, looking at me.

"Of this.." I said as I kissed her, not waiting for her answer. It was gentle at first, I waited for her to get accommodated to my touch, then it was a bit more than the usual.

Her breathing was a bit uneven, so I stopped.

She looked at me, her expression dazed, her eyes had a new shine to them.

"I think you have two more minutes.." She stated with a slight smile.

"I think I have ten.." I said as I closed the gap between us once more.

----- Shai5a

Somehow, I was lying on my back and he was hovering on top of me. I held his hand and tried to stop mine from shaking.

"You're not ready.. it's ok" He said as he sat down and helped me up.

"I'm.. I'm.. I'm just.." I tried to say something, to say I'm sorry, but I couldn't.

"No its fine.. just breathe.." He ordered as he rubbed my back.

"I.." I started.

"I'm going to take a quick shower.." He said as he got up.

I searched for my phone, and called my best friend. I think I might need some advice after all.

"A7isa mit'6ayig" I told her miserably.

"Do you love him?" She asked after I told her what happened.

"Why are you asking me this question.. shfeekum 3ala hal as2ila il sa5eefa ilyoom!!" I screamed.

"Just answer me.." She replied calmly.

"Madry.. maybe.. it's too soon to tell.." I replied nervously.

"Are you happy with him?" She asked.

"Yes.." I said, smiling.

"Do you miss him when he's not around?" She asked this time.

"Well, we have been together for almost two months and there hasn't been a day where I didn't see him, so I didn't have the chance to experience that.." I answered.

"So, you want to have a day where there is no him?" She continued.

"No.. why would I want that!" I said.

"Do you enjoy talking to him?" She asked.

"I do.. he's understanding most of the time.. when he's not being silly at least" I answered, laughing.

"When you think about your future, is he a part of it?" She continued her interrogation.

"Well, of course ya3ny.. he's my husband!" I exclaimed.

"Are you two smiling, in your imagination, is it a happy future?" She asked.

"Yes, it is.. why wouldn't it be?" I said.

"What do you feel when you look into his eyes?" She ignored my question.

"Unbelievable.. its magic.. something else.." I tried to explain, but failed.

I only succeeded in getting the butterflies in my stomach in havoc, just by recalling his eyes.

"Go on.." She urged.

"Madry walla.. it's just that his eyes are beautiful.. I've never seen eyes so deep before.." I continued.

"Oh sure.. it has nothing to do with the fact that you are in fact falling for him!" She insisted.

"I am not!" I told her.

"Ok then.. why did you not answer his question.. why didn't you tell him: no, I hate you M7ammad" She asked.

"I do not hate him!!!!" I said.

"Then what's the feeling called.. when you don't hate someone?" She pushed.

"It's called being neutral.. just liking them.." I told her.

"Ok.. then you wouldn't mind if he looked around for someone that loves him, would you?" She said.

"WHAT! Of course I do, he's my husband!!" I screamed.

"So you're claiming him yours, but in the same time you don't want to admit that you have feelings for him?" She asked.

"He is mine.. he's my husband whether he likes it or not!" I stated.

"Do you like it?" She asked.

"I do.." I said, after a while.

"You love him.." She declared.

"I do not.." I said, not so sure myself.

"Then describe your feelings towards him.." She insisted.

"Madreeeeeee.. walla madry!!" I said.

"That's just denial.. because you are falling for him.. slowly.. just admit it, you're falling for him.." She screamed, happily.

"Ok.. fine.. I think I am falling for him.. slowly" I replied.

"Wonderful.. my work here is done .. go tell him.." She said.

"Ok.. thank you.. I love you!" I told her.

"You love him.." She stated once more.

"Bye.." I said, laughing.

I think the whole conversation took about an hour. But M7ammad still didn't come out. I went inside, looking for him, and there he was sitting on one of the couches, watching TV.

----- M7ammad

"Hey.." She smiled, as she sat beside me.

"Hey yourself.." I smiled back as I wrapped my arms around her.

"Kil hatha shower?" She asked, laughing.

" I went outside to check on you and you were talking on the phone, so I came here because I didn't want to bother you.." I told her.

"Yeah.. I was talking to my best friend.." She said, smiling.

"Some serious business you two were talking about.. you were so engrossed, you didn't even notice me coming" I joked.

"Yeah.. just catching up.." She said as she laughed.

"Soo.. shlonich ba3ad?" I asked, playing with her hair.

"You know.. I .. I think I might me falling for you.. maybe.. bas I don't really know if it's love yet.. I mean it's too soon right? Madree.. Bas I do have feelings for you I think.. Madree.." She said, nervously, as she kept her eyes on the TV.

"I am not asking for anything more.." I said as I kissed her forehead.

I let my lips linger for a while, before looking at her. She was smiling, satisfied, happy.

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Hope you enjoyed ;)

Meant to Be (Part 34)

2010-06-15T05:29:00.000-07:00

Long one!! ;D
Enjoy..

This one is dedicated to Abrar..
check out her blog...
http://the-optimum-of-beauty.blogspot.com/

and I am sooooooooo sorry for not replying to your comments..
I promise I will this post inshallah..
Thank you for all your comments..

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----- M7ammad

"Shai5aaaaaa" I called as I looked around for her.

I didn't find her, so I called her.

"Wainich?" I asked when she picked up.

"Kany.." She replied.

"Ee wain?" I asked again.

"Ma ra7 agoolik.. 3ashan you pull my hair like you did awal!" She said.

"Come on.. where are you seriously" I laughed.

"Ma ra7 agoolik.. you have to figure it out for yourself!!" She replied, laughing.

"Ok.. bas a5er marra agoolich.. it's just sincere advice for you, you know, tell me
where you are now.. because if I find, you are my hostage, and I can do whatever I want with you" I warned jokingly.

"As if I'm not your hostage now.." She mumbled.

"You're not, yet.. but you will be" I continued, looking around.

"Ok, but you have 5 minutes only, and if you don't find me, then you are my hostage" she replied laughing.

"15 minutes.." I said.

"5 minutes.." I replied.

"No, 15" I stated again.

"Fine, 10" she said.

"Done.. bye" I replied, as I thought of places she can be hiding in.

"Bye.." She said laughing.

I looked around, and tried to think of the places where she would hide in.

I looked under the table, behind the couches, in the chicken coop, behind the trees, I didn't find her.

7 minutes have passed and I still didn't find her.

I called her again.

"Where are you!!" I exclaimed.

"You are supposed to find out for yourself.. and you have what, 3 minutes left?" She said

"Ok.. give me a hint.." I told her.

"No.. no hints.." She replied.

"If I find you, it's not going to be good!!" I warned one last time.

"Bring it on.." she said, laughing.

"You asked for it!!" I replied as I closed the phone.

I looked around for 3 more minutes, then she called me.

"Your time is up!!!" She exclaimed.

"So where are you?!" I asked.

"I'm waiting for you outside.." She said.

I went outside, and saw her sitting on a bench, with a wide grin across her face.

"My hostage.. there you are!!" She said with a chuckle.

I ignored her and just stared.

----- Shai5a

"So, hostage.. give me 50 push-ups" I said as I laughed.

He raised an eyebrow, and dropped, skillfully doing 10 push-ups, like it was nothing.

Bad idea, I thought to myself, because he looked unreasonably hot while exercising.

He stopped after 25 push-ups.

"Hey, hey, hey.. you can't stop until you finish all 50!!" I said.

"I just want to take off my shirt.. do you mind?" He asked as he threw it on the
bench. "Tabeeny a3eed mn awal 7abeebty wala la2?" He asked challengingly.

"La2.. you can stop if you want to" I said, as I looked away.

"Noo.. 6alabatich awamer.. I can finish 25 more push-ups" He said with a wink, and he continued his push-ups.

I thought about taking a look, just one look at his toned back. That's it, just one look, I thought to myself. But I found myself staring at his perfectly sculpted back until he finished and looked at me with a smirk.

Of course, when he turned around my sanity was not getting any better. I blushed as I looked at his six-pack, more defined than I have ever seen in my life.

"Why are you staring?" He asked as he stretched.

"I'm not staring.." I said as I looked at my feet and decided to stare at them instead.

"Whatever you say.. so we're even now?" He asked.

"Yes we are.." I replied, not wanting to think of anything that might turn out against me after all.

"Good.." He said, as he went to the kitchen, brought a bottle of water. "What's next princess?" He asked.

"Shdarany?" I replied as I sat down.

"Table tennis?" He asked.

"Sure.. except you have to teach me.." I told him.

"Fine.. yalla ta3alay.." He replied as he led the way.

"Your shirt.." I said as I pointed to the shirt thrown in the bench.

"Why, don't you think my abs are hot?" He joked.

I rolled my eyes, and walked after him. I don't think I'm going to concentrate after all.

He took me to a room, in the back. I have never been there, but I heard that the guys brought all the equipment and put together a mini gym. I must admit I was kind of impressed. The place looked amazing.

The only things I can attempt to use though, are the treadmill, bicycle, and the table tennis equipment if M7ammad taught me how to play. The rest was all weight-lifting and scary looking machines that I would never go near.

----- M7ammad

"God.. I miss this place!!" I said as I took a look around, just checking on the machines.

"You did a good job putting this together!!" She told me with a smile.

"I love it in here" I replied, returning her smile.

"Yalla.. tennis?" She said, enthusiastically.

"Ok.." I replied as I looked for the rackets (or whatever they are called).

"Can I help?!" She asked coming after me.

"No.. not really.." I told her, as I looked on the shelves.

"Kaifik.." She said as she sat on one of the bouncing balls.

"I don't think we can play tennis .. I can't find the balls or the rackets.." I said. "Wait, let me call Fahad" I continued as I called him.

I talked to him, yelled at him, and closed the phone.

"We don't have to play tennis!" She said wide-eyed.

"You think I was yelling because I want to play tennis?" I asked disbelievingly.

"No.. madry.." She replied, baffled.

"I was yelling because half of the equipment that I bought is missing because they did not lock the room, and the kids were playing around with the machines and stuff! They have no idea how long it took me to put this place together.." I sighed.

"I'm sorry.. I'm sure you can find replacement easily.. we can go buy some now if you want to.." She said in a comforting way.

"No, it's fine.. I'll look for some later.." I said, as I looked around, checking on my machines.

"I can come with you if you want.." She offered.

"Ma7alat shabab.. intay shako tyeen?" I snapped at her.

She kept quiet, and just followed me around.

I stopped next to my favorite machine, I carried her and put her on the seat.

"Sorry.." I said as I kissed her forehead.

She smiled, and looked at me caringly.

"Are you ok now?" She asked.

"Yes" I assured her.

"Good.." She said with a breathtaking smile.

"You want to try this beauty?" I asked as I pointed to the machine.

"This is your definition of beauty?" She asked incredulously.

"Ee.. 3ayal shno bas intay il 7ilwa ya3ny?" I joked.

"La2.. bas ya3ny.. la2 maby " She replied laughing.

"Try it.. shno tabeen I start with one kg for you?" I asked mockingly.

"How about you do it first 3ashan ashoof ba3dain ana?" She said as she jumped off the seat quickly.

"Fine with me.." I said as I got on there. It wasn't really painful exercise, but it was effective, this machine especially. "Look, you just hug this piece and push it down.. this targets your lower abdominal area" I continued.

----- Shai5a

I stared at his back once more.

This is heaven, I thought to myself.

"Are you paying attention at all?" He asked.

"yeah, yeah.." I replied staring at his arms now.

Not a smart decision, I thought to myself.

Basically everything about this guy screamed macho.

"Your turn.." He said as he got up.

----- M7ammad

She sat on there and looked at me like she was lost.

"Come on.." I encouraged her.

"There is nothing wrong with my lower abdominal area, you know.." she replied as she pouted.

"There is nothing wrong with mine either.." I said as I winked.

"Fine.. I don't feel like it.." She told me.

"Try it.. 3ashany.. and I'll set it on one kg.. wait.." I said. "Ok.. you're good to go now.." I said as I fixed it.

"M7ammad.." She started.

"Hug it.. and push" I said.

She hugged it, and tried to push. I rolled my eyes because it wasn't moving at all.
Discretely, I pushed it down, helping her.

"Oh, this is kind of easy!" She said with a smile, and she tried again.

"Yeah.. shiftay.. it's simple.." I told her.. as I pushed it for her a second time.

"This is kind of cool" She replied, doing it again.

I pushed it for her one last time.

"Yalla 5ala9 goomay.. I don't want you all muscley for me now.." I said as I carried her off the seat.

"We should come here tomorrow too" She said with a wide grin.

"We will inshallah.." I replied as I closed the lights before locking the door.

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:)

meant to be (Part 33-B)

2010-06-12T08:31:00.000-07:00

Hiii ;p
short one again..
bas I promise there is going to be a long one soooooon..
ya3ny monday/tuesday..

and sorry I haven't replied to your comments on the last post..
but thank you all for commenting..
w sorry la2ana they're short...

But, believe it or not.. I am busy ;P

This is dedicated to the lovely person who does not understand arabic..
I think this one has no arabic at all (I think again ;p)

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----- Shai5a

We got there, and I wasn't really that nervous. I expected myself to be a wreck, but I guess I got used to him.

We cooked breakfast together, omelets that turned out to be more on the inedible side since he was so goofy. He would carry me around, try to flip the omelet and it would end up on the floor, drop random things in the pan, and just drive me crazy until I gave up on them. So we ended up just eating '5ubz w jibin'.

"So what do you feel like doing now?" He asked me.

"Hmm.. I don't really mind doing anything.." I replied with a smile.

"anything as in ANYTHING?" He asked with a smirk.

"No.. not really Anything.." I laughed.

"I thought so too.." He replied, laughing along.

We sat in outside on one of the benches, silently.

"How about we play a game.. and the winner has to decide the activities for the rest
of the day.." He said after a while.

"What game?" I asked.

"Rock-paper-scissors?" He suggested.

"No, I hate that game; it's so unfair!!!" I said immediately, and I started rambling
on and on about the incidents when people would cheat and I would always end up losing the game.

We talked some more about our childhood.

"I don't really remember you a lot.." I said as I tried to recall anything that reminds me of him.

"I only remember crashing your dress-up parties with mariam.. that was a loooot of fun!!" He said as he laughed.

"Hey!!! That was you.. you're soooo mean!!" I said as I pouted.

"Yeah.. me and fahad and your brothers.. those were our golden days!!" He said as he roared again.

"I am never ever talking to you again.." I said as I got up.

Of course I was just joking, but that was really mean. I remember crying for hours after they destroyed our palace made from scarves and pillows. They pulled our hair, and ruined everything there is to be ruined. I went inside, just to see what he would do.

It was kind of exhilarating, just anticipating what he was going to do and how he would react. M7ammad is so unpredictable, and I love it, sometimes.

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Meant to Be (Part 33 - A)

2010-06-10T08:05:00.000-07:00

I know its short..
sorry.. bas next part will be saturday or sunday..
This post is dedicated to Deema.. have a lovely trip ;)

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----- M7ammad

I woke up the next morning, took a quick shower, and prayed. I opened Shaikha's closet, randomly threw some more clothes into her bag, and I threw in some clothes for me too.

I ran down, kissed my mother good-bye and drove to her house.

I texted her when I was in front of her house.

"Wainich?! Oh and good morning ;)" I sent.

"I just woke up.. 9aba7 il 5air :)" she replied instantly.

"I'm waiting downstairs btw.. la ta5theen ra7tich wayed ya3ny ;p" I wrote

"Whaaaaat!! I'm not ready and I want to take a showeeeeer!! :O " She texted back.

"Yalla get ready.. ana anzel asalim 3ala 3amy w an6erich.." I sent.

"3ayal anzel aba6ilik il bab :D" She replied.

I laughed as left the car and made my way to their main door. The door opened slowly and she peeked, with a huge smile.

I got in, no one was there.

"Hala bl 7ilwa.. hala bily ma taby tnam 3nd rayilha.." I said as I gave her a huge
bear-hug.

"M7ammad... will you ever drop it?" She asked.

"Nope.. never" I chuckled as I let go of her.

"I think my parents are in the dining room" she told me.

"Are your brothers around?" I asked.

"I don't think so.. dawam I think.." she replied.

"And why are you still here??" I said

"Shno?" She replied confused.

"Goooo.. take a bath.. 5al9aaay.." I said as I pointed to the stairs.

"Fine fine.." She told me as she ran upstairs.

After a couple of seconds, her mom came and greeted me; my uncle followed her.

We sat together in the living room, and talked about several things, a lot of things actually, since Shai5a took more than an hour to get ready!

She came downstairs, b kil burood may I add, and smiled.

She was wearing a pink training-suit and her hair was swept to one side. She greeted
her parents and we excused ourselves.

"Tadreen ina ana il7een il7een ra7 aklich min kither ma ana yoo3aaaaaan!!" I exclaimed.

"W laish ma kaleet wiya ubooy?" She replied.

"La2ana abeech intay ily ti6bi5eely bl mazra3a.. w a9lan I didn't expect you to take that long!!" I said.

"I told you I wanted to take a shower!!" she replied.

"A shower.. does not take an hour.." I screamed.

"And why are you screaming?" She asked as she moved towards the door.

"Bas .. I got carried away I guess" I said as I laughed.

She rolled her eyes, and we spent the rest of the drive talking randomly.

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Meant to be (part thirty-two)

2010-06-03T08:32:00.000-07:00

Sorry to make you wait so long ;)..
This post is dedicated to my best friend, whose graduation was cancelled ams ;p
and to Bibi. since she's waiting for so long ;p

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----- M7ammad

I smiled as I read her message.

"Thank you ;***" It read.

"You do know that ;*** means lots and lots of kisses right? ;p " I replied, smiling.

"good night.." She replied ignoring my message.

"shlon good night w intay moo yamy :( ??" I sent her back.

"I am sorry.. a5er marra.." She sent.

":(" I replied, teasing her.

Incoming call: Shai5a

"Ilsalam 3alaikum.." She said when I picked up.

"w 3alaikum il salam.." I replied.

"Shlonik?" She asked carefully.

"Tabeen il 9ij?" I asked back.

"M7ammad.." She whined.

"Shno intay ily haddatny broo7y.." I replied.

"Ee 5ala9 I'm sorry.." She said.

"sorry w ana anam broo7y?" I asked her.

"M7ammad.." she said.

"Do you expect me to hug the pillow ya3ny?" I continued.

"M7ammaaad.." She said again.

"What if I want to kiss you? Should I kiss the pillow too?" I ignored her and continued.

"M7ammaaaaaaaad..." She almost screamed.

"La7'6a la7'6a.. w itha I need someone to talk to .. should I talk to the pillow or
the wall a7san 9a7?" I asked, trying my best to hold back my laugh.

"M7ammad.. 5ala9 ta3al i5ithny.. maby anam 3nd umy zain!!" She told me.

I couldn't hold my laughter anymore. I chuckled uncontrollably as she continued complaining about my attitude.

"Lee hal daraja you miss me?" I asked her, when she insisted that I come and take her.

"Just come M7ammad.." She said, sniffing.

"Yalla bala dala3.. roo7ay namay 3nd umich.. w ana bacher a5thich.." I told her.

We continued talking, arguing mostly, for about an hour.

"I can't wait to have you to myself tomorrow.." I told her, evilly.

"But it's not your own mazra3a.. akeed your family will come.." she said.

"No.. I asked them not to come.." I replied.

"But they might.." She said hopefully.

"Moo mushkila .. I will tell the 7ares not to let anyone in.." I told her.

"But why?" she asked, scared.

"I told you I want you all to myself.." I replied.

She kept quiet.

"Aren't you looking forward to it?" I asked her teasingly.

"How long are we staying again?" she said in reply.

"As long as you want.." I told her.

"One or two days would be good.." she said quickly.

"I was thinking around a week actually bas we'll see.." I replied.

"But I only packed clothes for two nights.." she said, trying to find a way out of
it.

"No problem.. I'll throw in some clothes into your bag.." I replied.

"Bas how will I shower?" She asked.

"There are bathrooms .. you've been there before, shfeech?" I laughed.

"But I don't like to shower there!!" She complained.

"Il7een adig 3aleehum, w I'll have them clean all the bathrooms.. besides I have my own room there and you can do whatever you want.. stop worrying.." I told her.

"Ok.." She said hesitantly.

"Do you want to call it a night?" I asked.

"I'm not really sleepy.. bas if you want to 5ala9 3adee.. I can call any of my friends now.." She replied.

"Tdigeen 3ala mno.. 3eeday?" I asked her, annoyed.

"My friends, 3adee.." She said.

"It's almost one.." I stated.

"Ee 3adee.. they're like my best friends.. w I text them first to see if they're awake.." She told me.

"No.. ma tdigeen 3ala a7ad il7een.." I said firmly.

"Laish?" She asked surprised.

"Bas.. ana ma ar'6a w 5ala9.." I said.

She kept quiet. I knew that she didn't like it; but that was just me.

"I'll call you in a bit.. ok?" I said.

"That's fine.. I think I might sleep.." She replied..

"Ok.. if you're sleeping you won't answer.. no big deal.." I told her.

"ok.. bye.." She replied.

"Bye.." I said as I grabbed my keys and left our house.

----- Shai5a

I wanted to call every single person on my contact list, bas 3nad.

Who is he anyways to talk to me like that?

We are married for less than a month, and already he wants to control me.

My dad didn't even enforce such rules on me.

Just when I start to actually like him, he has to ruin it for me.

I was really mad, but for some reason I didn't call anyone and I ignored the temptation to do so.

I opened Grey's anatomy, and looked for the episode with the guy covered in cement.
I watched and cried as soon as I saw the boy.

My phone rang after a while, it was M7ammad.

I wanted to ignore him, but I decided to pick up and tell him I'm busy watching a movie.

"Il7ilwa ma namat leel7een?" He asked when I picked up.

"La2.." I said quietly.

"Inzain nizlay ana na6rich ta7at.." He told me.

"Laish?" I asked, not wanting to see him.

"Bas.. nizlay now.." He said.

"maby aroo7 il mazra3a now M7ammad.." I replied.

"Ma ra7 nroo7 il7een.. bas nizaly shway.." He told me.

"Ok.. bye" I said.

"Bye.." he replied.

I wore my robe over my pajamas, washed my face, and went downstairs.

----- M7ammad

She came outside, and I was standing in their backyard. There was a fence around it, quite high, so no one could see us from outside.

As soon as she came I hugged her and lifted her.

"Za3lana?" I asked, still carrying her.

She didn't reply, but I can feel her hugging me back now.

"I'm sorry.. I just really don't like late night calls..ok?" I said.

She remained silent.

"5ala9 3ad.." I said, as I carried her to the two-seater swing.

I sat, while still holding her, and played with her hair.

"Shai5a 5ala9.. mala da3y il dala3.." I said.

"Moo dala3.." She sniffed.

"fine.. mala da3y il za3al.." I told her.

"w mala da3y you tell me what I can do and what I can't do.." She replied.

"Look.. I'm a guy, and whenever I see my friends talking at night on the phone, it's usually their girl/boy friend.. so I do not like late phone calls.. It's not a big deal.. and I don't think I'm asking a lot from you.." I stated.

"You could've said that from the beginning .." She said.

"You didn't ask for a reason.." I replied.

She sighed, and pulled away after a while.

"No.. you're staying here.." I told her.

"Bas aby ag3ad yammik.." She said.

She sat next to me, and she stared at the sky as I stared at her.

"Leel7een za3lana?" I asked after a while.

"La2.." She replied.

"Inzain.. yalla roo7ay namay la2ana I'm going to come bacher il9ib7 to pick you up, ok?" I told her.

"Ok.. awal shay bakamel Grey's Anatomy ba3dain anam.." She said as she got up.

"Ay 7al8a gam t6al3een?" I asked.

"Cement guy episode.. do you want to come watch it with me?" She replied.

"Hmm.. sure why not?" I said, as I scooped her and ran to the house. She laughed as she told me to be quiet because her parents were sleeping.

We watched the episode together, she cried, and I hugged her, trying to stop myself from laughing.

"Do you want your life to be like Grey's anatomy?" I asked her when the episode finished.

"Yes!! They have so many interesting cases!!!" She replied, excited.

"Do you want to live one of Meredith's experienced now ya3ny?" I asked her mischievously.

"I wish.." She said as she sighed.

"Ya3ny you want us to pretend ina you're meredith and I'm derrick, during one of their endless make-out sessions?" I asked.

"M7ammad!! I can't believe you.. we're in my parent's house.. omg.." She said as she got up.

"Fine.. good night then.. but don't say I didn't offer.." I laughed as I left and drove to our house.

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Help Her Fight Cancer

2010-06-02T02:21:00.001-07:00

Hii.. ;p
Not officially back yet..
Soon inshallah :)

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http://www.pray44me.com/

http://fourme.blogspot.com/

I admire her courage to speak up,

and how she would say "il7imdillah" at the end of her posts..

She is strong mashallah..

w inshallah she will be able to overcome it..

allah yashfeeha inshallah ..

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TC!

Meant to Be (Part thirty-one)

2010-05-13T09:37:00.001-07:00

Helloooo :)
thank you for all of you guys that comment.. it means a lot :)
this is a really long post..
bas unfortunately,, the bad news is.. I'm going to stop posting until we finish exams which is June 3rd..
sorry :P
bas I have to ya3ny..

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----- M7ammad

Our family was waiting for us when we arrived. I greeted everyone, and looked around to find Shaikha; I saw her hugging her mother tightly and crying.

Then I looked at my niece, who was now hugging me and crying. I laughed at how sensitive women can be and I briefly chatted with my brother before everyone went back to their cars to head home.

I drove her mom's car so that she can be with us, since Shai5a missed her so much. I watched her intently as described the shops that we went to, the malls, the bags, the shoes, everything. She explained even the tiniest details with passion.

She went on and on, and I wondered was she the same quiet person that travelled with me. She would even include me in the conversations sometimes, smiling and laughing normally. I enjoyed her presence more than ever because I felt like she was at ease.

When we got home, the females continued talking. It was about 7 o'clock but I was really tired. I decided not to go to the diwaniya that day.

I went upstairs, took a shower, locked both bedrooms, and sat in our small living room, watching TV.

The women left and soon Shai5a came, accompanied by my mother so she can show her the way to the room.

"il 7imdillah 3al salama.." I said as I smiled.

"Allah ysalmik.." She replied happily.

"Quick question, red and beige or green and pink?" I asked.

"Laish.." She replied.

"It's just a question.. answer me.." I told her.

"Hmm.. red and beige I guess.." She said hesitantly.

"Ok.. yalla 3ayal.." I replied as I led her to the bedroom, I unlocked it, and told
her to call me when she's changed.

I sat in the living room, waiting, then she called me after a long while.

I was almost sleeping by that time. I went there, plopped onto the bed, and slept after I mumbled good night.

Next morning, I woke up and found her still asleep next to me. I hugged her, and ruffled her hair. She opened her eyes lazily and smiled slightly as she rested her head on my chest.

"Good morning.." I said.

----- Shai5a

If there was anything that woke me up, it was his masculine voice. It was sleepy, rough, it was simply alluring. I hugged him closer instead of replying.

The sound of his heartbeats along with the laughter that rumbled in his chest sent butterflies in my stomach at such an early hour. I smiled and kept my eyes closed.

"Yalla shai5a goomay.." He said in his captivating voice.

I just shrugged; I was honestly too lazy. After he slept last night I took my time cleaning everything, and organizing my clothes in the closet.

"Shushu.. yalla.." He said, driving me crazy.

I really hope he didn't hear my heart beats accelerating as he said that.

I got up, embarrassed by the way I was overreacting to his simple gestures.

"Good morning.." I said as I stretched.

----- M7ammad

She was too cute, I honestly couldn't resist. I had to do something. I stared at her, thinking about the outcomes and contemplating if I want to do that now.

She got up in time, spoiling all my plans for the moment.

I used the other bathroom as she finished and we went downstairs together.

We joined my mother, and my brother Fahad and sister Mariam, for breakfast.
Random conversations were going on.

"Shai5a ma awa9eech ya murt u5ooy.. I want you to bake your famous chocolate cake for me.." said Fahad pleadingly.

"Inshallah.." she said as she laughed.

"Na3am na3am.. shno mako sh'3l .. ana murty ma ti6ba5 7ag a7ad '3eery.." I said trying to sound serious.

She blushed as she drank some orange juice, and Fahad laughed.

"5ala9 yumma.. zawjeeeeeeeeeeny... aby chocolate cake.." He screamed, as we laughed at his silliness.

"Yumma.. mino bl mazra3a il7een?" I asked.

"ma77ad.." She replied.

"Inzain.. ana w shai5a bacher binroo7.. and we are going to stay there for a couple of days.. goolay 7ag 5wany ma iyoon.." I told her.

Shai5a and Mariam were too busy talking about fashion, so I guess she didn't hear me.

----- Shai5a

After breakfast we went to my parents house, he stayed for a while then left to take care of some business.

At night, when he came to pick me up...

"M7ammad.. aby anam 3nd umy ilyoom.." I pleaded.

He seemed surprised from my request at first, and I felt guilty but I really missed her and our house.

"Laish.. feech shay?" He asked concerned.

"No.. I just miss her so much .. I want to stay with her tonight.." I replied, hoping he wouldn't get angry.

"No.. I can't sleep if you are not next to me.." He replied, and I let it go although I was kind of disappointed.

When we got to our room, he told me that we will be staying in their mazra3a for a couple of days, so I prepared my bag with all the things I need.

"Yalla did you finish?" He asked.

"Yeah.." I replied.

"Take your pjs for the night w ta3alay.." He told me.

"Laish?" I asked

"Bas.. just do it.." He said as he grabbed my pjs, stuffed them in my purse, and led me downstairs.

He dropped me off at my parents house. I honestly didn't expect him to do that. I looked at him, surprised, with a smile forming on my face in spite of me.

"A5er marra.. w be ready I'm going to pick you up tomorrow morning.. " He said as he waved good-bye.

"Thank you..." I said as I ran to the house.

And as soon as I closed the door, he sped off.

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Meant to Be (Part Thirty)

2010-05-08T05:41:00.000-07:00

Long post..
bas i wont be able to post until next weekend because im really busy this week..
This post is dedicated to the newly weds..
and Bibi

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---- M7ammad

The next couple of days went by quickly, we had fun, swimming lessons, cooking together, building sand castle competitions (I always cheated but not once did I win; we would send pictures to people without mentioning whose is which, and her castle would always have the tiniest beautiful details, so it always won). We spent time watching movies, talking, and basically just relaxing.

Today is our last day here, we were packing our stuff and getting ready to leave. I finished packing since I didn't bother much and just threw everything inside the bag and closed it.

I went to help her out. She was carefully folding every single piece of clothing and separating them according to the color. I rolled my eyes as I took a seat next to her and watched.

"Tara ma ra7 n5ale9 chithee.." I told her.

"Imbala.. ma buga shay.." she replied.

"Inzain.. why don't you finish quickly so we can have one last swim before we go.."
I asked her.

"Ok, inshallah.. why don't you help?" She said.

"I will just throw everything in, I don't have the patience to fold everything.." I told her.

"La2 5ala9.. I will do it on my own then.." She said quickly.

I laughed and continued watching her fold everything neatly.

As she was folding, I noticed a red thing in a plastic bag. Just out of curiosity, I
took it out. It was a swimming suit.

"Shai5a.." I said suspiciously. "Shno hatha?"

"Um... a swimming suit.." She gulped.

"W laish tgooleen ma 3ndich 3ayal?" I asked surprised.

"Bas.." She replied.

"Bas?.." I asked.

"M7ammad.. look at the swimming suit please.. it's so small.. doesn't cover anything.. ya3ny do you seriously expect me to wear this in front of you?" She said quickly, without looking at me.

She kept folding her clothes, until she finished. I put the swimming suit in the bed with my shorts and helped her close the bag.

"Yalla..let's go swim, we still have about two hours before the boat comes.." I told her. "Go change.." I told her as I threw the red swimming suit at her.

"I am not wearing this M7ammad!" She exclaimed.

"Yes you are.." I said as I took off my shirt and threw it on the bed.

She turned around, and I left to change into my shorts.

"Laish leel7een ma badaltay!!!" I asked when I came back, and saw her sitting on the
bed, with the swimming suit in her hand.

"Ma ra7 albesa.. and I already closed my bag and I'm not opening it again.. and I
don't feel like swimming.." She replied.

"It's our last day.. you are not going to swim again in god knows how many ages.. come on.." I said.

"M7amad.. I'm not going to wear this .." She said in reply.

"You are.. walla if I don't see you changed in two minutes.. tshoofeen.." I said as I left the room, trying not laugh.

Two minutes later she came out with a towel wrapped around her and she was wearing my shirt.

"First of all .. go take off my shirt because I will wear that to the airport.. and come back quickly..and I really hope you are wearing that swimming suit so I don't have to deal with you the hard way.. " I told her as I smiled.

She went to change.. and came back, holding the towel tightly with both hands.

We went outside, and I sat on the shore and she sat beside me.

"Whenever you are ready you know.." I said as I stared ahead.

"M7ammad.." She said, in a soft voice. I almost told her to go wear my shirt, do whatever she wanted, and come back. I actually never liked my name more. But she has to let go of some of her habits, ma y9eer tisti7y minny.

"Il7een intay laish moo 3ajbich?.. Don't you like the color red.. you said that it was your favorite color.. 3ayal what's the problem?" I asked.

"It's too revealing.." She said, on the verge of crying.

"It's not.. believe me.. I've seen worse!" I said sarcastically.

"Na3am??" She said, raising her eyebrows surprised with an angry expression.

"What?.. I studied in the States.. ya3ny basically whenever you go to the beach.. or whenever it's a hot day you see naked people everywhere.." I said.

She looked away, still annoyed.

"Ok.. why are you mad now?" I asked.

She still didn't look at me.

"It's not like I was purposely looking, they just walk in front of you.." I continued.

She stood up suddenly, threw her towel and started pacing in front of me, madly.

It was too much for me to handle, just too much.

"Ya3ny shno? They just walk in front of you.. chithee.." She said as she stood in front of me, crossing her arms angrily. "And then you look at them like this, like you are looking at me right now.. and you say you were not looking?" She said crossly.

I stood up and held her hand forcefully.

"I never looked at anyone the way I look at you.." I said.

I could feel all her anger evaporating as I looked into her eyes. She looked down embarrassed after a while.

"Are you ok?" I asked concerned, she was usually really calm. It was her first outburst really.

"Yeah.. sorry.." She replied quietly.

I hugged her, and she was shivering slightly. I hugged her closer and waited for her to get back to normal.

"Are you sure you are ok?" I asked again.

"yeah.. I guess" She replied.

"Do you want to tell me anything?" I said.

"Not really.. it's just .. nothing really.." She said as she blushed.

"Aha.. I get it.. no worries yalla.. I've seen worse.." I said.

She stared at me again.

"No no .. my bad .. I haven't seen worse walla.." I replied quickly.

She laughed as we made our way to the beach.

I stared at her, unbashful, as she pretended to look in the other direction.

Her swimming suit was red, as I already mentioned. It covered the chest area, but more than half of her back was showing. Her arms were showing, and almost all her thighs too. I should be okay with it, it should be nothing, I should not be affected.. I kept repeating in my head.

"Can you stop.. please.." She said after a while.

"No.. my eyes can't have enough of you.." I replied still looking.

She looked for her towel, but I caught her in time, stopping her from getting it.

"I am your husband you know.." I told her.

"yalla m7amaaaad.." She said as she hurried towards the water, pulling me with her.

We swam for about half an hour, then she stopped complaining that her back was
starting to burn from the sun and that she felt tired.

"What?.. we usually swim for two hours and you don't complain.." I said surprised.

"I'm just tired M7ammad.. w '6ahry y3awerny" She said as she pouted.

"Come here.." I said as I carried her.

Of course she threw a fit and asked me to put her down, and so on, but I ignored her as I made my way inside.

I threw a towel on the couch.

"Yalla namay 3ala ba6nich.." I told her.

"No way.." She replied.

"Yalla.." I said.

"Noo.." She said as she moved away from me.

"Ta3alay.." I said as I carried her and put her on the couch.

"M7ammad.. walla I'm not in the mood for any of this.." She said as she squirmed
under me.

"Intay namay 3ala ba6nich.. I swear you will like it.." I told her sincerely.

----- Shai5a

Hesitantly, I did.

He started massaging my back and I literally melted in my place, on the couch, and I think I even died.

Even though he was being totally professional, I couldn't help thinking about his
touch on my bare back.

I felt more relaxed and much better afterwards.

When he finished, he kissed my back softly.

"Yalla.. go change so we don't get late.." He said.

"Thank you.." I replied with a smile.

"Anytime.. as long as you are wearing a red swimming suit.." He winked, and left to change.

----- M7ammad

We went back, to the original hotel.

We were supposed to stay one week on the private island only. But it was not as bad as I thought, so I called my sisters a week ago and told them to extend our stay, and we ended up in the island the whole time.

After checking out and finalizing everything, we headed to the airport.
We were both equally tired, so the trip back to Kuwait was uneventful, we slept, watched some movies, chatted for a while.

Finally, we are back to Kuwait.

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Hope you enjoyed
:)

Meant to Be (Part twenty-nine)

2010-05-03T09:17:00.000-07:00

It's long.. as promised..
again fee shwaya "action" :P

This post is dedicated to "P0ach" (6ab3an you all know him) although he's not a reader..
Thank you for mentioning my blog on your BLOG :p ..

w aby agool for all the commenters.. thank you :)

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----- M7amad

I couldn't sleep, so I stayed awake, watching movies in bed for a while. I heard some footsteps, so I went to see what was happening.

I saw her holding her pillow closely, and looking around intently. She jumped when she saw me and muffled her scream.

"M7ammaaaaaad! you scared me!!!!!!!" She said after a while.

"What are you doing anyways?" I said as I chuckled.

"I don't know.. 3abaly kan fee 7aramy.. fa I was looking around.." She blabbed on and on.

"La7'6a la7'6a.. 3abalich fee 7aramy?" I said trying to keep a straight face.

"Ee.." She said, still looking around.

"Okaaaaaay.. w intay bl '6ab6 shno tabeen tsaween 7ag il 7aramy?" I asked

"Hmm.. I don't know.. I swear I heard sounds.. there was something opening and closing..and people were talking.." She continued.

"Okay.. come here.." I said as I led her towards my room. "Shoofay.." I said as I pointed at the TV.. "There is your thief right there.." I said as I laughed.

"Ohhhh.." She said embarrassed.

"Now what?" I said as I laughed loudly at her expression.

"Good night.." She said as she took small steps towards the door.

"You are welcome to stay you know.." I said.

"No thanks.." She said as she hurried outside.

"There can always be another thief around you know.." I replied.

"Really?" She said as she stopped abruptly.

"Yeah.." I replied, trying to sound convincing. "I suggest you stay here for the
night.." I continued.

"Bas.." She began, but the scream of the woman in TV interrupted her making her jump
and hide behind me.

"Oh my god.." she said as she grabbed my shirt.

"It's the lady on TV.. don't worry.." I said as I hugged her, trying my best to stop
myself from laughing.

"5ala9 5ala9 .. maby aroo7.. please let me stay.." She pleaded.

"Inzain.. just let me change the channel gabel ma y9eer feech shay.." I said as I laughed.

"M7ammad.. mako mukan 7agy.. you don't even have a couch.." She said quietly.

I didn't reply.

"Can you help me carry my bed from the other room?" She asked.

"No.." I replied simply.

"Fine.. I'll bring the couch in from the living room.." She said as she left.

She struggled for a while with the couch, as I stood watching her and laughing. Alone, she managed to move the couch a couple of inches only before plopping on it and declaring she was tired.

"Can you help me please.." She said after a while.

"Yalla da5el.." I replied, ignoring her question.

"Will y--" She began.

"I will take back my offer if you don't get in now.. " I warned.

"la2 5ala9 5ala9.." She said as she hurried inside.

"Pick your spot.." I told her.

"Ay spot.." She asked clueless.

"Which side of the bed do you want?" I asked, trying to push away all the thoughts
in my head.

"It doesn't matter.." She replied.

"You don't want me to choose believe me" I warned her.

"Right side.." she said automatically.

"Jump in.." I replied.

She slowly lied on her side of the bed and closed her eyes. I smiled as I went to
the other side.

She shivered slightly and covered herself with the blanket.

"Are you cold?" I asked.

"Yeah.. it's so cold here.." she replied slowly.

"Ta3alay yamy.." I told her as I pulled her next to me. "Ana adafeech.." I whispered.

She shivered again, and I laughed as I hugged her tightly and rubbed her arms and back, full of Goosebumps now.

----- Shai5a.

I shivered, but not because I was cold this time. His warm breath tickled my cheeks, it sent tiny butterflies awakening all my nerve cells and causing chaos in my system.

He hugged me closer to him, the closeness almost drugged me. I felt like he was in control. He had me right there, I was his.

"Do you really feel like sleeping?" He asked after a while, a while of pure bliss, being so close to him and feeling his heartbeats aroused feelings that I never knew
had existed in me.

"Not really.." I replied trying to focus.

----- M7ammad

"Do you want to watch a movie then?" I asked

"Madree.." she replied.

"How about we play the get to know you game now?" I asked.

"EEEEEEEEEEeee... yalla.." She said excitedly.

Reluctantly, I freed her from my hugging embrace and we sat down properly.

"Wait.. I need to find something.." She said as she looked around. "Do you have a pen or something?" She continued.

"Why do we need a pen?" I asked .

"So we can decide who asks and who answers.." She replied.

"We'll just take turns.. yalla ta3alay.." I replied, thinking of some questions.

"Ok.." She sat in front of me and smiled. "You start.." She said.

"no I'm new at this.. you start.." I replied.

"okay.. what is your life-long dream?" She asked.

"I don't have a specific dream.. too old to have one anyways.." I said.

"M7ammaaaaaaaad.. you're ruining the game.. you have to answer.." She complained.

"Fine.. My dream is to have tons of children, and that I can fill the role of the supportive loving father for them.. I always wanted to have a big family.." I rambled..

"Okay.." She smiled and blushed slightly.

"What's your dream?" I asked laughing.

"You can't use my question.." she replied.

"Ok.. just answer it while I think of another question.." I said.

"My dream was to be a doctor and save people's lives, and maybe have my own clinic.." She replied.

"Oh really?" I asked surprised.

"yeah.." I said.

"The semester will begin soon... did you get accepted in Kuwait Uni?" I asked.

" Yeah.. but I transferred to English literature studies instead.." She relied with
a slight frown.

"Why?" I asked surprised.

"My dad's decision I guess.." She replied quietly, with a sad face.

"Do you still want to study medicine?" I asked.

"It doesn't matter now.." She replied, as she looked around trying to distract herself.

"Just answer my question.." I said.

"Ya3ny if I had the opportunity .. yeah akeed.. bas 5ala9 I'm starting to accept the
fact that I won't be a doctor after all..." She replied.

"Ya3ny you're giving up on your dream.. b hal suhoola?" I asked her.

"No.. bas sometimes things just don't go the way you planned, and there is no point
in fighting back.." She replied. "Let's just change the subject.." She said.

"Fine.. your turn to ask .." I said..

"Nooo.. it's yours.." She almost screamed.

"I asked you if you were going to give up on your dream.. I asked you tons of
questions actually.. so now it's your turn.." I chuckled.

" Fine... okay okay.." She said as she started thinking. "What's your favorite place in the whole wide world?" She said enthusiastically after a couple of seconds.

"Mazra3atna.. I can't live without that place.." I told her.

"Yeah I like the place too.. its.. comforting.." She replied.

"It is.. I'll take you there sometime.. just you and me.." I said as I winked.

"It's your turn.." She said trying to change the subject as she blushed.

"Answer your question first.." I told her.

"Hmm.. I don't really have a favorite place, I love the sea though, anywhere,
anytime, I like being near the ocean.." She replied smiling.

"Okay.. let me think now.." I said as I scratched my goatee.. "How many children do
you want?" I asked wiggling my eyebrows.

"You call that a question.." she asked as she hid her face.

"Answer.. la t5arbeen il li3ba.." I replied as I laughed.

" three.." She said quickly.

"You mean three times four.." I replied laughing.

"What?!! No waaaaay.." She said with her eyes wide with disbelief.

"twelve, not more, not less.." I stated firmly.

"But.." She started.

"I think we should start.. 3ashan yamdeena.." I said, in a matter-of-fact tone.

"M7ammaaaaaaad.. good night okay.." She said as she covered herself with the blanket.

"Good night.." I said as I laughed.

I got closer and hugged her from the back.

"M7ammad.. you are on the left side.." She said as she tried to push me away.

"La2.. we're on the same side from now on honey.." I said sleepily.

"M7ammad.. go to your side.." She complained.

"This is my bed, I decide where to sleep.." I replied, yawning.

" Ok then.. I want to go to my bed.." She said stubbornly.

"If you can .. go ahead.." I said, tightening my grip on her.

"M7ammad.." She started to ramble.

I turned her, so she can face me, and pressed my lips against hers, shutting her up.

"Good night now.." I whispered as I closed my eyes.

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Hope you enjoyed..

Meant to Be (Part twenty-eight)

2010-04-28T07:39:00.000-07:00

Adreeeeee.. walla adry..
sorry ;P
This post ya3ny fee shwaya more action than usual,
fa ily ma yaby yigrah la yigrah :P
w please remember that they are married,
So I am in no way promoting anything ;P
This post is dedicated to Um 3abdulla.. inshallah ya3jibich il wa'63 ;p
and to the ba7rainy people :)

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----- M7ammad

Slowly, she backed away, shocked.

Just as she was about to run away, I pulled her back.

"Wain ray7a?" I asked with my eyebrows raised.

She stuttered, trying to form coherent words, but failing over and over again.

"Ya3ny il shay ily abee lazem a5tha broo7y?" I asked.

Again, her wide brown eyes stared at me. I was drawn into them.

Were her eyes not that appealing, I may have restrained myself. But her eyes were,
by far, the most beautiful mirrors I have ever looked into.

I saw myself in them, and I saw her soul there too. It was floating, both our souls were floating, trying to find each other.

I closed the distance between us, and our lips met for the first time. It was supposed to be a small peck, but the feel of her soft lips on mine made me want more.

I kissed her, keeping my lips lingering in their place every now and then.

I wanted to spend the night kissing her over and over again, but I had to stop.

I didn't want to push her too far, and it took all the strength in me to pull away.

I smiled as I watched her, standing there with her eyes still closed, her lips still parted.

I almost kissed her all over again, but instead I walked away after kissing her forehead.

"Good night sweetie .. " I said as I went to my bedroom.

I took a cold shower, trying to forget that she was in the next room. Just a few
steps away..

------ Shai5a

I touched my lips as I smiled in spite of myself. He just kissed me, and I actually enjoyed it.

I felt that I was really close to him for the first time.

Is it too soon, or am I really falling for him?

No way, it was just a kiss, I don't even know if he likes me.

I sighed as I entered my empty bedroom, while thinking about him, just a few steps
away from me.

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Adreeeeee.. 7adda short
bas better than nothing...
w 3ashan the ppl who decided not to read dont miss on a lot of things..
Hope you enjoyed..

Meant to Be (Part twenty-seven)

2010-04-18T09:32:00.001-07:00

helloo..
this is a long post, sorry for the delay :p
It's dedicated for the anony who didn't want to sleep ;p
i hope you did, and please saway nickname for urself :)
and also for Princess T, who is a pisces :p

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----- M7ammad

I hugged the soft pillow closer and as I inhaled deeply, taking in the smell of the sea.

"M7ammad.." called a soft, distant voice.

I did not reply because I was really tired.

"M7ammad.. I can't breathe.." Said the voice in a more distinct manner.

I opened my eyes slowly, and got up quickly when I saw that I was practically crushing her body.

"Oh... sorry" I mumbled as I lied on the sand.

"Laish ma tgoom tnam da5el?" She asked after a while.

"I'm too tired.." I said grumpily. I hate sleeping in the afternoon.

"Come on, I'll help you up.." She said as she offered her hand.

I took her hand and pulled her down with me.

"Ouch!" She cried

"Will you be quiet?" I said as I hugged her.

"3awartny!" She replied.

"Sorry.. now be quiet.." I asked her again.

"I don't like sleeping in the afternoon.." She mumbled.

"Shhhh.." I said.

"The sun is annoying.." She complained.

I ignored her.

"Can you let me go?" She asked.

"What part of be quiet don't you understand?" I said, sounding angry, when in
reality, I was enjoying her rambling.

She stayed quiet and didn't move after my remark. I didn't even feel her breathing.

"Shaikha.." I called, just to make sure.

"Na3am?" She replied in an inaudible voice.

"Let's play a game.." I said thoughtfully.

"Shno?" she asked questioningly.

"It's a get to know the other person kind of game.." I said, trying to think of a good game quickly.

"Ya3ny shno.. truth or dare?" She said excitedly.

"yeah, kind of.." I said, laughing.

"Ok.. let's start then!!" She said, almost clapping her hands.

I laughed as I watched her get up and walk around trying to think of questions. She stopped and smiled a few times as new ideas popped into her heads I guess.

The sun was beginning to set, and different shades of colors were mixing in the sky, creating a splendid combination.

"Shai5a.. ta3alay gi3day shoofay il sunset.." I told her.

She came quickly and sat next to me, and I moved closer to her, enveloping her in a side-hug. To my surprise, she leaned in and put her head on my shoulders as she stared at the sky with a dreamy look on her face.

"It's beautiful isn't it?" I said after a while.

"yeah.. it is.." She whispered.

"It's almost as beautiful as you.." I continued, as I watched her lips curving to form a small smile, and her cheeks turning bright red.

I kissed her cheeks and pointed to my laps.

"Gi3day.." I told her.

Again, she surprised me by actually sitting without any complaints. I hugged her closer, and I smiled at how she seemed more comfortable with my presence these days.

We sat like that for a long while, until it was dark outside.

"I'm hungry.." I said as my stomach growled.

"I am too.." She said, not moving.

"Ya3ny shno il7een?" I said.

"Madry.." She replied simply.

"Goomaaaaaaaaay... yalla sawweely 3asha.." I said as I got up, pulling her with me.

"Inshallah, inshallah.." She said as she ran to the kitchen.

----- Shai5a

He followed me and sat on a stool, just watching.

"You know that you look hot right?" He said after a while.

I ignored him and turned around, trying to focus on the lettuce that I was cutting.

"Tadreen shno a7la shay bl dinya?" He asked seriously.

"Shno?" I said as I looked at him.

"The thought of a woman cooking..so hot.." He said as he winked.

I rolled my eyes as I continued to cut the lettuce, and moved on to the cucumbers.

"What are you doing?" He asked as he peeked.

"A salad.." I said.

"WHAT!! Nooo.. Agoolich I'm hungry!! Tgooleely salad?" He complained.

"W fee sandwiches ba3ad .." I said as I laughed.

"Itha ma shiba3t I'm going to eat you.." He threatened as he got closer.

"5alaaaaaa9.. asaweelik desert ba3ad.. bas I have to see what is in the fridge
first.." I said as I ran away.

"If you need anything, I can just call the people in charge and they will bring
it.." He said.

"Madry.. look in there and see what do we have.." I replied.

"The fridge is full.." He replied after a while, "I think you can manage to make
anything from what we have.." He continued as he took a seat.

"I'll take a look later.." I said distractedly.

"Do you need help madame?" He asked.

"Mademoiselle.." I replied involuntarily, and bit my tongue afterwards.

He mumbled something which I didn't hear and left.

I cursed myself over and over for being so stupid, and worked quickly. I finished
the salad with a side dip and the sandwiches, and washed my hands.

"M7ammad!" I called as I looked around.

He came in after a while, as I was setting the table, and helped me. We sat down in
silence, as he helped himself to some salad. I munched slowly, thinking of a way to break the ice.

I looked at him, and he was too busy thinking, with his plate left almost untouched.

"Did you not like the food?" I asked worried.

"No.. it's delicious, tislam eedich.." He replied as he ate.

"Allah ysalmik.. why don't you eat some sandwiches if you are hungry?" I said.

He kept quiet as he finished the salad on his plate and got up.

"Il 7imdillah.." He said as he disappeared into the house.

I was surprised, if there is anything that I learned about him these few days, it
was that he had a great appetite, mashallah. I felt guilty, and put some sandwiches on the plate and went to find him. He was sitting outside, absorbed in the movement of the waves in front of him.

I sat down beside him and handed him the plate. He refused to take it, claiming that
he was not hungry anymore.

I took a sandwich and brought it closer to his mouth.

"Min eedy.." I said.

He smiled a weak smile, and reached for the sandwich.

"La2.. open your mouth.." I said as I laughed.

He raised his eyebrows, and looked at me questioningly. A7isa ygool sh6ary 3aleeha.
He ate silently and I offered him another sandwich, and he ate it too.

"Tara you still have to make the dessert if that is what you are trying to run away
from.." He said as he finished the last one.

"Inzain.." I said, as I laughed and got up.

"a7la meal min a7la eed.." He said as he grabbed my hand and kissed it.

I ran to the kitchen and did my quick recipe for fried ice-cream.

"m7ammaaaaaaad..." I said as I ran outside, "yalla fried ice-cream!" I said, but I didn't find him.

I went to the kitchen, to find him already there, helping himself.

" Ta3alay thoogay il dessert mal murty.." He said.

"Mashallah 3aleeha ..she's really talented.. " I said as I tasted the dessert.

"6al3a 3alay.." He chuckled.

I ignored him, and we continued to eat from the same plate silently.

"Abeech intay twakleeny.." He said, more like demanded.

I obeyed, just as the spoon touched his lips, he screamed.

"Aaaaaaaaay.." He said as he jumped.

"Shno??" I asked scared.

"7iragteeny!!" He said as he licked his lips.

"Oh my god.. I'm so sorry walla ma knt adry!!" I said as I brought some water.

"La2.. water is not good for these kinds of burns.." He replied.

"3ayal shno?" I asked confused.

"Ta3alay.. do just as I tell you.." He said in a commanding way.

"Okay.." I replied obediently.

"Come closer.." He ordered.

I did.

"Closer.." He said again.

I did again.

"Blow on it slightly.." He said.

I did, not realizing his intentions. My face was a few inches away from his, as I blew softly, worrying about him.

"Kiss me.." He said with his eyes closed.

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Meant to Be (Part Twenty-six)

2010-04-10T04:05:00.000-07:00

Hello :)
extra long post, I think..
Dedicated to the anony who doesn't understand arabic, but is reading anyways..
I tried to include as much english as I can!!

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---- M7ammad

"Come oooooooon!!" I shouted.

She came still fiddling with the shirt and trying to make it smaller so that it can
fit her.

"M7am..." She trailed off when she looked in my direction.

She looked down quickly, and blushed deeply. I chuckled as I got up and went to her.

"Na3am Shai..." I said imitating her.

"Nothing.. yalla lets go.." She said, still not looking up.

"Wait .." I said as I pulled her closer to me.

She was wearing my shirt with shorts that almost covered her knees. I rolled up her sleeves, and tied the sides of the shirt in a knot so that it seemed more fitting.

"I'm an expert, right" I said as I admired my work, or maybe I was eyeing her figure, I don't really know.

"Yalla.." She said, running away from me.

"Where do you want to swim, in the pool or the ocean?" I asked.

"Ocean of course!!" She said excitedly.

"Wait here so I can check out the place first" I told her.

"Why?" She replied questioningly.

"I want to check if anyone can see us from here" I said, not realizing how stupid I sounded.

"It's a private island!" She replied confused.

"Fine.. I need to check if it's safe first, Just stay here .." I said as I headed to the shore.

I felt silly, but I had to look around first. The island was small, basically a house, two huts, a pool, something that looks like a dock, and the shore. The other islands were far away, almost invisible, and the water was clear.

I went back to get her.

"Yalla.. the coast is clear" I said laughing. She rolled her eyes and tried to get past me. "No way you are going anywhere without me.." I said as I carried her on my back and ran to the water.

"M7ammaaaaad!!" She screamed as she held on tighter.

"Do you know how to swim?" I asked as we got closer to the water.

"Don't throw me.." She replied scared.

"Just answer me.. do you?" I asked again.

"I don't know.. it's been more than 3 years since I last swam.." she replied.

"Ok then.. I'm going to test your swimming skills" I said as I prepared to throw her.

"No no no no.. " She said, holding on with a strength I didn't think she had in her.

I turned her body so that she was facing me, with her still holding on to my neck.
She had her eyes closed tightly, and lips pursed in a cute way.

"Shai5a.." I said holding my laugh.

"Noooo.." She replied, burying her face in my chest.

I sat down, with her still hugging me; she involuntarily wrapped her legs around my
torso securing herself. I muffled my laugh and waited for her to realize that I'm not going to throw her.

After a while, she opened her eyes and looked around dazed.

"Did you throw me in the water?" She asked surprised.

I chuckled at her awed face.

"No I didn't.." I said as I looked at her squinting her eyes.

"Oh.." She said, as she looked at me, and almost jumped off embarrassed from the position she was in.

I laughed as I pulled her up.

"Show me your skills.." I said as we got in the water.

"What skills?" She asked confused.

"Kissing skills of course" I said, teasingly.

She looked around, wanting to run away somehow.

"Shai5a.. swim for god's sake.." I said, rolling my eyes.

She swam, quite skillfully, but she needed more practice. Her legs would go up to high sometimes, and she needed to stop to breath because she couldn't do it properly while swimming.

"I sucked, right?" She asked when she came back.

"No.. you were great .. watch me now.." I said as I plunged.

----- Shai5a

His strong muscled fought the waves with such a skill, that I felt ashamed from my swimming skills. Even when he was swimming I can see his muscles bulging with every movement.

He wasn't one of those huge, bulky guys that looked ugly; he was perfectly sculpted.
He swam around me, splashing water everywhere. He tickled my legs while he was underwater, and I laughed as I dived to annoy him too. Neither one of us was wearing the swimming goggles, so we came up quickly rubbing our eyes.

I opened my eyes and looked around, and he was still rubbing his eyes. Water droplets were leaving his hair rapidly, and falling on his manly shoulders. There was something about him, that was cute today. Maybe it was the contrast between his muscular arms and the way he was rubbing his eyes like a child that just got shampoo in them.

"There is something in my eye.." He complained as he rubbed harder.

"It's just water.. stop rubbing it, it's not good.." I said.

"No it's not water.. take a look.." He said as he came closer.

"Ma ashoof.." I said, standing on my tiptoes but still not being able to look into his eyes properly.

He glanced down at me, and chuckled as he leaned down.

"It's not funny.. just stay still.." I said as I looked into his eyes, his big black eyes.

How long I took to break the spell that they had on me is still a mystery. I was lost, so close, yet so far away in reality. With trembling fingers, I rubbed his eyes gently, causing the eyelash that was caught in there to appear.

"It's an eyelash.." I said quietly, not wanting him to move away.

"Thank god.. I thought you were lost on the way or something.. you took ages.." He said ironically. "And it's still bothering me" He complained again.

"Well, put your fingers, and take it out!" I said.

"You do it.." He said.

"A5af.." I replied.

"Just do it.. please!" He said, almost almost almost, pouting.

"Fine.." I said.

Gently, I took it out, and showed it to him.

"You're my savior!" He said as he hugged me and twirled me around.

I laughed and felt like hugging him back, but decided against it.

"Time for swimming lessons.." He said as he put me down.

"Am I that bad?" I said, pretending to look hurt.

"No, but I want you to be a professional swimmer.." He said.

"Where did you learn how to swim anyways.." I asked.

"Well, I used to go swimming in our chalet every weekend before I travelled abroad, and in the States I used to go swimming in my gym a lot, and I go diving sometimes
too.." He replied.

"You go to the gym?" I said involuntarily, and felt stupid almost directly afterwards.

"Isn't it obvious?" He said as he pointed at his chiseled abs.

"Let's swim.." I said, trying to change the subject.

"Lie on your stomach.. ya3ny float on the water" He said, and I obeyed.

He placed his hands on my stomach, and I jumped again, scared.

"What?" He asked confused.

"You scared me!" I replied.

"Shai5a.. come on.. I'm being serious.." He said, looking serious and hot in the same time, as he knit his eyebrows, trying to focus.

"Okay, okay.." I replied as I floated again, and looked at him sideways.

"Now first of all, you have to relax all your muscles and keep you back straight" He said, he ran his fingers up and down my body, and pointed at area, as he
repeated, "Relax."

How am I supposed to relax I thought to myself, while the only thing I can focus on is his touch.

"Come on Shai5a!" He urged, and I tried my best to do so. "Much better!" He said with an approving smile, that caused the butterflies in my stomach to dance around crazily.

"What's next?" I asked.

"Now show me how you move your hands?" He asked.

I moved them, as if I was swimming.

"Push with more force, and don't move them back this much, just stop here.." He said as he pointed at my waist.

I obeyed, and was rewarded with another breathtaking smile.

"Perfect.." He said, and I blushed.

"It's really hot!" I said, 3ashan arage3.

"Now your legs.." He replied, laughing.
I moved them, and he held me with one hand, while he used the other as a pointer so I would not kick so high in the air. He removed his hand, and concluded that we were almost done.

"Now one more thing, and it's the hardest thing. Show me how you breath while swimming.." He said.

"That.. I'm clueless in" I replied.

"Then we'll keep it for tomorrow.." He said as he carried me into deeper waters.

"Ma a7ib il 3amee8.." I said.

"I'm with you.." He said as he went on effortlessly.

"Stop, please.." I almost begged.

" Ok.. 5ala9.." He said as he stopped, with the water almost touching his chin.

"I can't touch the ground.. please don't leave me here.." I pleaded.

"You are going to race me back.." He replied.

"No no no.. maby" I said as I held on to him tighter.

"Ok them, I'm going to hold you while you swim shwaya.. and then we will race
together.." He said.

"No.." I refused again.

"Then I'm just going to leave you here.." He replied coolly.

"M7ammad.. " I said with tears stinging my eyes.

" I promise you I will hold you until we get to more shallow waters.. I will not let
you drown okay.." He said seriously.

I looked into his eyes and found all the reassurance I needed there. Slowly I let go
and he straightened my back, preparing me for swimming.

"Ready?" He said.

"Don't let me drown please.." I said one more time.

"You're a great swimmer, don't worry you will be fine.." He told me.

"Go.." He said, and he kept his promise by staying next to me and lifting my body
every time it started going lower.

He stopped me mid-way.

"See.. nothing happened.. you were great" He said with a smile. "Race time.." He
added.

" I need a break.." I said, breathing.

"Oh come on.. don't be lazy!!" He said.

"I'm tired!!" I said defensively.

"Fine.." He said, pretending to be bored.

"One, two, three.." I said quickly, and swam as fast as possible.

"Cheater!!" I heard him say, before diving and getting to the shore before me.

"You're too fast it's not even fair!!" I said when I got to him.

"That'll teach you not to cheat again!" He said laughing.

"I'm tired!!" I said as I laid down on the sand.

He laid down beside me, and held my hand. He moved closer to me, and placed his head on my shoulder.

"li3bay b sha3ry.." He said lazily.

I obeyed, and after a couple of minutes I glanced at his face, to see him fast asleep, with a smile across his beautiful face.

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Hope you enjoyed :)

Meant to Be (part twenty-five)

2010-04-02T07:18:00.001-07:00

Hello!!
sorry adry 7addee 6awwalt..
bas I have exams w next week killa I cant post..
this is a quick one dedicated to Mrs. Chuck (samar)
Happy birthday and sorry I couldn't post ams!!

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------ M7ammad

From the minute we got there, she was fidgeting around nervously. It was cute, bas 7aseet ina ra7 y9eer feeha shay soon if she didn't calm down.

"Shfeech?!" I asked her calmly.

"Nothing!!" She replied, lying.

"Fine.. inzain what do you have in mind for today?" I asked her.

"Madry!!" She said.

"I think we should just lie in bed together all day, what do you think!!" I said, expecting a more enthusiastic reaction from her this time.

"Ha.. la2 we can swim, the weather is great!!!" She replied quickly.

"Ok then.. swimming it is.." I said chuckling.

She relaxed a bit, and sat more comfortably on the coach.

"Ta3alay gi3day yamy!" I said.

"Laish?!" She said, nervous again.

"Bas murty w abeech yammy!!" I said in a matter-of-fact way.

"Bas ana mirta7a mukany!" She replied, refusing to get up.

Even though she tried to sound tough, her voice quavered, revealing how scared she was.

"5ala9 3ayal.. ana za3alt.. w don't expect me to talk to you or accompany you in any of your activities today!" I said, of course I was just pretending.

I got up and explored the beach house, and was very thankful that there we two bedrooms, so I can stay in one while she has the other.

I threw myself in bed and covered myself. I switched on the TV and watched the Olympics.

I think I slept, but was woken up by the sound of my phone, notifying me that I had a message. We were supposed to go swimming, I thought as I stretches, but I guess I'll just stay in my room waiting for her. I looked at my watch, and it has been about 3 hours since I left her. She will come sooner or later I thought as I flipped through the channels.

I heard a soft knock on the door.

"Na3am.." I replied.

"3adee ad5al?" She asked quietly.

"Shda3wa lamma agoolich shay you listen to me.." I replied, smiling to myself, before she came in.

"Tara ra7 ad5al.." She said, as she opened the door slowly and peeked in.

I didn't look in her direction, and kept flipping through the channels.

"M7ammad.." she said, as she stood beside the bed.

I kept silent.

"M7ammad.."She said again.

"Oh you're talking to me now?" I asked her, feigning surprise.

"Laish za3lan?" She said, pouting.

"Si2lay nafsich.." I said.

"Im sorry.." She said, almost in tears.

"Laish intay shsaweetay?" I asked her.

She turned around, wanting to leave, but I grabbed her hand in time.

"Ta3alay yamy I told her.." as I scooted.

She sat beside me hugging her knees and trying not to cry.

"Namay.." I told her, and she did lie beside me.

I hugged her closer, as I traced her features with my fingers, and wiped a few tears that have unwillingly escaped from her eyes.

"Why are you crying now?" I asked her.

She didn't reply, but I felt her moving closer to me.

I held on to her tighter.

"Shai5a.. moo 3ala kil shay tabcheen.. it's not good for you" I told her gently.

"I'm an emotional person, ya3ny shasawy?" She said.

I looked at her for a while,

"I like emotional people.." I told her, as I kissed her nose.

She stared at the wall, and I stared at her.

"M7ammad.." She broke the silence. "When are we going to swim?" She asked.

"After you answer this question.." I replied.

"Shno?!"

"Laish lamma gitlich gi3day yammy awwal marra you refused? And you have to say the
truth, or else ma ra7 we'll stay in bed together all day" I told her, winking.

"Bas.. chithee.." She replied with the nervous attitude again.

"Ya3ny shno.. bas stubbornness?" I asked raising an eyebrow.

"Eee.." She said as she laughed.

"Ya salam.." I said, as I hovered on top of her now, trapping her by placing both of my arms around her. "Mit2akda?" I asked challengingly.

"La2.." She said quickly.

"Akeeeeed?" I asked again as I lowered my body, almost crashing hers.

"Eee" She said, gulping.

"3ayal shno il sibab?" I asked, looking at her lips and then her eyes that were as wide as an owl's now.

"M7ammad.. tara walla a5af.." She said with her eyes filling up now.

"Ok.. now you're talking!" I said as plopped myself beside her again. "Laish 5ayfa?" I asked.

"Bas.. a5af.. ok.. a5af minnik.. inzain.." She said in an incoherent way.

"Shai5a.." I started seriously, but she was still dazed, trying to catch her breath or something.

I waited for her until she calmed down.

"Shai5a.. I'm your husband.. ya3ny ma y9eer t5afeen minny!! You are supposed to
depend on me to keep you safe!" I said.

She didn't reply, and stared at the ceiling.

I kissed her cheeks, demanding her attention, and I got what I wanted immediately.

"Min ilyoom w raye7.. ma t5afeen minny okay?!" I ordered her, smiling warmly.

"Ok.." She said, smiling back.

"Yalla swimming!!" I said enthusiastically.

"Yeeeeeeeees!!" She replied with equal excitement, as we both laughed.

She went to her room to change, but was back in minutes.

"M7ammad!" She said as she pouted.

"Shfeech?" I asked worried.

"I don't have anything to wear!" She told me with a frown.

"3adee.. libsay ay T-shirt w 6il3ay.." I told her.

"Bas ma a7ib.." she replied.

"Here.." I threw one of my t-shirts in her direction. "Go wear this, and it will be good!" I said.

"But.." She started.

"No buts.. just go.." I told her.

Unwillingly, she went to dress. I took out one of my shorts, wore them, and decided that it was too warm for me to put on a shirt. So I waited for her in the living room.

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Hope you enjoyed!! :)
TC!

Meant to Be (Part Twenty-Four)

2010-03-24T10:39:00.000-07:00

Short post again bas better than nothing ;p

Dedicated toooooooooo..
Q8BOY..
i liked his comment on last post and this post too :)

Oh.. and i get my pics from other blogs.. sorry if I dont mention the source!

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----- M7ammad

The week passed by quickly; in Sydney we went to all the tours that were booked for us, and had an amazing time. I tried my best not to tease her, and we got along well, most of the time.

In Gold Coast we basically did nothing other than shopping, going to amusement parks and so on.

Our next stop was Bora Bora, which we both equally dreaded.

"M7ammad what did they have planned for us here?" Shaikha asked just as we checked
in the hotel.

"Nothing.." I told her.

"Shno ya3ny nothing?" She asked surprised.

"Ya3ny, we have a cruise early morning tomorrow, then we're going to stay in a private beach for a week!" I said, quickly.

"A week!!" She replied, shocked.

"Yeah.." I grinned, knowing that I'll have tons of time to do all the things in my mind.

She seemed lost in her thoughts for a while.

"Inzain ma y9eer ma nroo7?" She asked with hope echoing in her voice.

"T3arfeen Dalal w Mariam 9a7?" I asked her.

"Ee.." She replied, losing all the hope she had.

"Ya3ny akeed t3arfeen il jawab.." I replied chuckling, as she nodded absent-mindedly.

"Good.." I replied, as I plopped myself onto the coach.

"The second week, we have two other cruises, three days of spa, one day with nothing to do, and then we have to start packing.." I said, as I read the rest of the message. "Wow they really did plan this well.." I continued.

"Ahaa.." She replied, still engrossed in her thoughts.

"What's wrong?" I asked her.

"Nothing .." She replied nervously.

"Really?" I asked.

"Yeah.." She replied quickly.

"Fine.. la tjawbeen.. I have a whole week with you on a private beach, away from everyone else, just me and you.. ALONE.. and then we'll see if you'll answer or not!" I replied, not being able to stop myself from teasing her a little.

She gulped and pretended that she didn't hear what I said.

It was going to be a long week after all, I thought to myself, but I'm looking
forward to it.

----- Shai5a

I went to get some sleep, and thank god M7ammad didn't try anything silly tonight. I should be used to him by now, but for some reason, the more I like him, the more I'm afraid of him, the more I feel shy when I'm around him.

It's weird, I feel like it's too soon to like him, let alone love him. But my feelings are strong, that's all I know.

I stayed in bed all night, with sleep refusing to cross my path. I was very nervous about tomorrow and the private beach thing.

I don't know what he has in mind, but I do know that I will not like it, because the way his eyes sparkled when he told me about it, was not promising at all.

After hours of failed attempts to sleep, the clock rang, and I could hear M7ammad grumpily throwing the clock to the side and asking it to shut up. I smiled as I imagined his sleepy eyes and messy hair, but quickly ran to the bathroom and washed my face before any other absurd ideas came to my mind.

After I dressed and prayed, I went outside to find him flipping through the channels, while rubbing his eyes.

"Good morning" I said as I took a seat.

"ta3alay.." he said as he patted the seat on the coach next to him.

He looked innocent with his eyes half open, so I went and sat next to him. He pulled me closer to him, and rested his head on my shoulders.

Many emotions electrocuted me at once, maybe it was because he looked exceptionally hot, or because he had his hands on my waist, or because he mumbled incoherently, causing his breath to gently tickle my neck. Whatever the reason was, I felt happy, comfortable; I felt like I belonged there.

"Moo lazem ngoom 9a7?" He said snuggling even closer.

"Laa2!!!" I said excitedly.

"a7san ba3ad.." He said. "And then my sisters would bury us alive here, and end of story, right?!" He said with a breathtakingly beautiful smile, the crooked one that drove me crazy all the time.

"Exactly!" I said as I sunk in to coach more, inviting him to stay in this position forever.

And just like they heard us, we both received a message warning us and threatening us if we do miss the cruise meant to take us to our private beach.

Unwillingly we both got up, making our way to the door.

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I think cliff-hanger..
I wanted it to be one ;p
hope you enjoyed!!

Meant to be (Part Twenty-three)

2010-03-19T03:17:00.001-07:00

Adree 7addeeeeeee 6awalt.. and I'm so sorry!!
This one is dedicated to my best friend..
and the most creative commentor dedication goes to: Nada :)

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------ M7ammad

We went to the market and I was trying to decide what we were going to have for dinner.

"Shai5a shno mishtaHya takleen?" I asked her.

"Ay shay.." She replied

"W ba3dain ya3ny.. I want a direct answer!" I said.

"Walla I don't care.. ay shay .. 3adee.." She replied indifferently.

"Shno ay shay ya3ny?!" I asked her, with my patience running out with this woman.

"Anything.. ily inta tabee.." She replied, looking somewhere else.

"Ya3ny you want to have me for dinner mathalan?" I asked with a grin. "Ok.. let's
go, your wish is granted." I said as I pulled her hand and led her outside.

"M7ammad.." She said scared. I didn't reply and kept dragging her behind me. "Ma shareet shay!" She replied with her voice trembling.

"Intay ma jawabtay.. so I figured that you wanted me, bas you were too embarrassed to say so. But don't worry, I understand, and you'll get exactly what you want" I
said with a wink.

She kept quiet, but I had to pull her with more force now, because her footsteps were getting more reluctant as we got closer to our hotel.

We got to the hotel, and waited for the escalator to come.

"I need to use the bathroom" She said nervously.

"OK.. il7een noo9al our room.." I replied, laughing.

"Ee bas ana aby aroo7 mal il reception 3ala ma yoo9al the elevator" She replied fidgeting.

Ding. The elevator door opened, and again I had to drag her inside.

"You don't have to wait long, go to the bathroom lamma noo9al, ba3dain ta3alay and you will get your wish!" I said mischievously.

As soon as I opened the suite's door, she literally fled to the bathroom. I chuckled, as I waited for you to get out, knowing that she probably preferred sleeping in there.

----- Shai5a

Madree shlon wi9alt il 7ammam.. bas wi9alt, and I closed the door, locked it once, twice, and tried to do it three times bas it didn't work.

What was that all about, I thought to myself. What did I do 3ashan he assumes I wanted that!

I washed my face, and sat on the floor, trying to think of a way to get out of this mess.

Involuntarily, tears rushed to my cheeks, caressing the inflamed skin with their warmness.

I think I sat there too long in there, because I heard a light tap on the door.

"Na3am.." I said in an inaudible voice.

"Shai5a.." He called in a tender voice.

"Na3am.." I said more loudly, bas I doubt he heard me.

"Open the door.. walla I just want to talk to you!" He said softly.

I got up and slowly opened the door. He stood there with the most caring eyes I have ever encountered. I stood there struggling with all the emotions that were hitting me like storms.

"Ta3alay.."he said as he took my hand and led me to the one-seat couch. Just as I turned wanting to sit on the bigger one, he pulled me onto his lap. "Shfeech?!" he asked caringly.

I didn't reply, and looked in the other direction looking for something to distract me. He pulled me closer and rested my head on his chest, as he possessively wrapped his arms around me.

I don't know if it was his manly smell, his strong arms, or his tender touch, but I was lost in him and within him.

I sniffed, trying my best to prevent my tears from ruining his shirt.

----- M7ammad

Seeing her in tears would get to me every time. Everytime I see her beautiful eyes fighting against the powerful rainfalls threatning them, I feel more and more attached to her.

"5ala9 walla ra7 a36eech 3asha bas la tabcheen.." I said, trying to lighten the mood.

A slight smile formed beautifully on her face, brightening her teary eyes.

"Mabee 3asha walla .." She said quietly.

"Ee adry.. fahamna ina tabeeny ana bidal il 3asha 5ala9!" I said as I wiggled my eyebrows in a silly way.

Her face was shocked and red again, and she almost jumped off of my lap.

"In KIDDING!" I laughed at her.

"Inzain 5ala9 baroo7 anam.." she said quickly.

"Ok .. bas awal shay you have to answer one question" I told her

"Shno?" she replied.

"Laish kintay tabcheen?" I asked her earnestly.

She remained silent, as though thinking.

"If you don't feel like answering now, 3ala ra7tich, bas you have to promise me ina ra7 tgoolee gabel ma nred il kuwait" I told her, not wanting to push her further.

"Ok.." she replied hesitantly.

"Shai5a I'm your husband ya3ny what bothers you, bothers me" I told her.

She nodded silently.

"Ok good night .." I told her as I stood up, carrying her with me.

"M7ammad!!!" She almost screamed. "Put me down!"

Ignoring her, I walked to her bedroom, put her on the bed, leaned in for a kiss, but seeing her terrified expression, I backed off, and left with a wink.

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Hope you enjoyed!!
:)

Advice

2010-03-08T00:42:00.000-08:00

Hello :)
ok.. so there is a person who emailed me,
and she needs advice.
I already told her my opinion,
but after taking he approval,
I would like you guys to give her advice on her situation..
So please .. 6al3aw all the wisdom you have hidden in you ;p
and give her some advice..

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She is a normal girl,
in highschool,
she's in love with someone,,
ya3ny he will finish college this year..
The thing is they bump into each other a lot!
They used to talk to each other..
as friends only,,
But when he suggested that they date..
she stopped talking to him!
For several reasons: religion, her family, w sum3atha..
Il muhem, he did hint ina he wants to marry her,
w He's a good guy..
So the thing is .. what does she do now?!
She misses him A LOT!!
But they are not talking,
and she sees him everywhere..
w I personally think that she's wonderful
w brave w amazing for refusing to talk to him..

6ab3an that's the story mithel ma ana fahamt..
w I omitted some details 3ashan yimkin she doesn't want to be known..

She wants to know your opinions so please share them :)
and thank you :)

Meant to Be (Part Twenty-two)

2010-03-03T09:11:00.000-08:00

As promised :p

ok awal shay.. I would like you to know ina I have an email bas 7ag the blogger stuff ;p and its on my profile il mafroo'6 fa if you need anything you can get it from there.. (anony)

thany shay.. most of you guys do put nicknames and I really appreciate that.. for those of you who don't ya3ny please do ;p

number three.. from now on the decications of the post will go to someone I know personally, and for the most creative comment on the previous post..
So this time., The dedications go to "H" whom I dearly miss.. and to
BLUELILIES for the most creative comment on last post..
"m7amad iyanin;* i dont want to eat his food abii aklaa ohwaa!;) ;p"

Thank you all for commenting.. whether you get the decication wala la2.. It's really appreciated..

ok the post.. adry wayed giragt..;p

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----- M7amad

Shai5a went to get ready, as I sat in the living room waiting for her.
I decided to call my Dalal (my sister) since I was feeling guilty about what happened earlier.

After apologizing for what seemed like a year, she agreed to let it go, of course with countless conditions, one of them being that I have to buy her some kind of bag.

After a while, Shai5a came out, dressed in a pink ruffled top and jeans. She looked kinda cute I guess.

Well, she looked simply beautiful actually la2ana I stared at her for a while before I realized that I was staring and pretended to look at the painting behind her.
She talked to Dalal for a while, mostly about shopping, bags, clothes, shopping, and shopping, then shopping.

I sat there, bored to death, before I decided to grab the phone from her.

"Ya3ny shno ma astanes wiya zoojty b our honeymoon?! Yalla BYE!" I said as I closed the line.

"M7amad!!" Dalal looked shocked.

"Na3am ..." I said, imitating her tone.

She stared at me disbelievingly.

"Laish sadeeta?!" She asked.

"Kaify.. murty.. w aby ag3ad ma3ach.. wala 7aram?" I asked her, raising my eyebrows.
She looked away.

"Jawbay.." I insisted.

"La2 moo 7aram.." She said quietly.

"Ee.. 3abaly ba3ad.." I said as I laughed. "Wain tabeen troo7een ilyoom?"

"Kaifik.." She replied, not interested.

"Shno ya3ny kaify? Lazem ykoon 3ndich ray.. where do you want to go?" I asked her again.

"Madry.." She replied.

"Tabeen shopping?" I asked, for some crazy reason.

"9ij!!" She replied excited.

"La2 bas chithee.." I said sarcastically.

She sunk in her chair again.

" 9ij 9ij.. yalla goomay.. ba3ad shinsawy?" I replied wana at7al6am.

"Really?!" She asked with her huge eyes full of hope.

"Yeah really.." I told her with a smile.

"Yalla!" She got up, all excited.

----- Shai5a

He followed me reluctantly at first. But as we hit the shops, he seemed more curious.

He would watch my every move, literally.

I entered almost every shop they had there, but I didn't buy anything. First of all, because I didn't want him to pay for anything, and I'm sure her won't let me use my
credit card. And because Dalal told me that the shops are much better in Sydney and Gold Coast. So I was going to wait.

"Shai5a.. WAIT!" M7ammad called as I was about to enter a shop.

"Shno.." I asked, distracted.

"Ana bafham shay.. you entered every single shop on this floor.. and you didn't buy one thing?!" He asked.

"Yeah.. because I'm waiting for Sydney and Gold Coast la2ana Dalal told me that the shops are much better there." I replied coolly.

"You better be kidding me.. 7abeebty mako shopping after today!" He exclaimed.

"LAISH?!" I asked, shocked.

"Because it's a waste of time if you're not buying anything." He said.

"La2 5ala9.. I'll buy walla.." I quickly said.

"Inzain .. yalla.." He said as he followed me.
We entered the shop, and I found two cute dresses that I liked, so I decided to try them on.

----- M7amad

She disappeared into one of the changing rooms.

"Shai5a.." I called.

"In the changing room.." She replied.

"Ay wa7ed?" I asked.

"The first one.."

I knocked on the door.

She opened the door shwaya.. ya3ny only so she can be able to peek outside.

"What?" She asked.

"Fit7ay il bab.." I told her.

"Laish?!" She asked, scared.

"Bashoof il dress.." I laughed at her reaction.

"Bas ana leel7een ma libasta.." She said.

"Shno ya3ny.. moo zoojich?" I asked her, trying to sound serious.

"M7ammad.." She replied shocked.

"5ala9.. I promise I will close my eyes until you're dressed!" I told her.

"M7ammad!!" She said in a louder voice.

"Walla no peeking, don't worry." I said, as I covered my eyes.

"M7ammaaaaaaaad!" She whined.

"Fine.. lamma t5al9een, aby ashoof the dress!" I told her as I took a seat on one of the chairs.

After a while, she opened the door.

"La ti6li3een.." I almost screamed.

"Laish?!" She asked, afraid.

"Ya3ny ma tshoofeen il mukan matroos riyayeel?" I asked her, annoyed.

I stood in front of the door, blocking the view of the people who passed by.

"Sorry.." She said in a low voice.

"You look hot" I said as I eyed her.

The dress was long, sleeveless, and it showed some of her back. Most importantly, it hugged her in all the right places.

"Inzain.. i want to try the next one please.." She said, blushing.

"Don't you need help?" I asked wiggling my eyebrows.

"La2.." She said, as she played with her long hair, bringing it all to the right side, keeping the left side bare with a unique mole there.

"3ndich shama.." I said as I laughed.

"3ala '6ahree? yeah I know.." She said as she examined herself in the mirror. "Oh my god.. '6ahree killa 6ali3!!.. M7ammad OUT!" She said as she pushed me out quickly.

"I like it.." I said.."The mole I mean." I told her, but she didn't reply.

She tried on the next dress, but it wasn't nearly as interesting as the first one.

"Di5lay Di5lay Bser3a!" I said as I got into the dressing room with her and locked the door after me.

"Shno?!" She asked terrified.

"Wala shay.. bas hatha il dress moo 3ajibny!" I told her.

"Inzain.. ana 3ajibny!!" She said.

"Bas ana moo 3ajibny!" I said, as I took one step forward, and my body was glued to hers now, since the dressing room was small.

"Ok .. 5ala9.." She said, wanting to get away.

"You have to stand up for yourself you know.." I told her.

"Ok.." She said nervously.

The hugged her closer to me as I undid the first button from the dress. All the buttons were from the back, so I couldn't see her expression as I did that.

"You know unless you start to stand up for yourself, I'm going to go on to the rest.

I felt her body stiffen as I went on to the second one, then the third one.

"Yalla badlay..w 6il3ay.." I said as I left the room, because I realized that she was too gullible for this. She wasn't going to say a word and I knew it. Maybe she was too scared or embarrased.

She needs a course on life, I thought to myself.

Minutes later, she came out holding the two dresses, with her face flushed. She said that she didn't like them that much, but I insisted on buying both of them, so I did, and then we went to the supermarket to buy some things for the dinner tonight.

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Hope you enjoyed!
:)

Meant to Be (Part Twenty One)

2010-02-23T10:21:00.000-08:00

Hello!!
I hope ina ma 6awalt wayed this time.. ;p
anyways.. this post is dedicated to Um 3abdullah il daloo3a ;p
w I would like to thank the people who comment on my blog waaayed..
and especially "Um flfola" :)

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----- M7ammad

I woke up, and stretched. I opened one eye only and glanced at my watch.

"Crap!" I said as I got up quickly, we were already late for the tour and I'm sure that my sisters will ask about every single detail when we get back. This can't be good I mumbled as I got up.

I almost ran to the bathroom, but before I closed the door, I went to wake up Shai5a first so she can get ready too.

I knocked the door, once, twice, three times, mako fayda.

I opened the door slowly, and peaked inside.

No one!

I panicked, I knocked the bathroom door.

No one again!

I paced around, furious! Hathy wain ra7at.

About half an hour has passed, with me waiting, and she still hasn't shown up.
I called the reception asking them if anyone had left a message or something, or if any young ladies were sitting in the reception.

Again, nothing!

I stared at my phone for a while, as I realized that I don't even have her phone number! How am I supposed to contact her now.

Without thinking, I called my sister, Dalal. I didn't even think about the time in kuwait.

"3a6eeny ra8am Shai5a.." I said as soon as she picked, not even bothering to greet her.

"laish wainha!!" She asked, shocked.

"Ana shdarrany!!" I screamed. "Moo intaw ily zawajtoony iyaha w bilashtoony! Il7een wainha.. ana wain algaha balla.. 3a6eeny ra8amha yalla 5al9eeny!" I asked, with rage burning in me.

She gave me the number quickly, w saddeeta and called Shaikha.

I waited for her to pick up, but she didn't.

Seconds after that, she I heard the door click and she came in.

I kept quiet, I didn't say a word, I just clenched my fists and stared at her.

"9aba7 il 5air" She said as she played with her phone.

"Wain kntay" I replied, without any emotions.

"Ri7t il grocery store 3ashan ashtery ashya2 for breakfast la2ana the reception guy told me ina they don't provide breakfast" She replied coolly.

"La walla!" I asked as I raised my eyebrows. "Shno shayfatny jiddamich?! 3abalich ana ahbal ya3ny! Ray7a il grocery store w ma beedich wala cheesa!" I asked. "A5er mara as2al WAIN KINTAY?" I screamed.

She looked at me shocked.

"Ma tjawbeen!" I asked angrily again.

Without a word, she walked away and to say she pissed me off was an understatement.

"Shai5a!!" I screamed 9ij this time. "Ana moo yahel jiddamich! Lamma a7acheech, ma tamsheen 3any fahma!" I told her.

She turned around, with her beautiful, round eyes full of tears. At that same instant, all the anger building up in me disappeared.

The innocence in her eyes made me regret being angry at her, regret not being her "husband" and regret ever thinking that she wasn't the one.

Just as she was about to speak, someone knocked the door, and I went to see who it was.

The concierge (I think hatha isma ;p) brought some bags, left them on the kitchen counter and left.

----- Shai5a

"They were heavy!" I told him as I tried to control my tears.

I walked away, but again, he called my name, but this time in a different tone.

"Shai5a.." He called with emotions that can be mistaken for love.

Something made me stop, and I felt weaker and weaker as he came closer.

"I'm sorry.." He whispered as he hugged me.

Every cell in my brain ordered me to move away, but there was that magical force that just pulled me closer and closer to him.

I hugged him back as I cried my heart out. I cried for my future that was lost. I cried for my dreams that were shattered. I cried for everything and nothing. But
most importantly I cried, because he would always lead me on to nothing.

"Sam7eeny.." He said again as he rubbed my back.

I continued crying as I held on to his shirt even more.

"5ala9.. walla sorry.." He said in a sad voice. "Inzain intay laish 6ila3tay bidoon ma tga3deeny? Walla I was so worried about you.. w ba3dain I didn't have your phone number.. w ba3dain you didn't answer your phone.. ya3ny shtabeeny asawy?" He continued.

"Awal shay.. Dalal told me, on our wedding day, as a piece of advice, never to wake you up early if I didn't want to be killed.. and I'm not a child, I can manage on my own, w ana ma ared 3ala ar8am '3areeba.." I told him coldly.

"Awal shay.." He started, chuckling. "Yes, I do tend to get grumpy when people wake me up early, bas intay '3air.. intay zoojty w 7abeebty.. ma a3a9eb 3aleech.. wala niseena ams shgiltay?!" He asked, wiggling his eyebrows as my face was starting to turn to its, now normal, shade of red.

I tried to pull away, but he held me even tighter.

"La7'6a ma 5alla9t kalamy.. ana ma gilt ina you're a child.. I simply said ina I was worried about you,,w ba3dain ya3ny intay ma tadreen ina il 3a9abiya wiratha bl 3ayla.." He laughed. "And give me your phone" He said as he grabbed it and punched some keys.."Okay 5ala9, my number is saved now.. no excuses!" He smiled widely. "Bas il 9ara7a ya3ny ana ma tiwa8a3tich t7ibeeny chithee.. 7atta in your phone msamyatny 7abeeby.." He said as he winked.

"Ashwa ina tawwa you saved your number!" I replied, rolling my eyes.

"La2 you did.. don't try to deny it .. ilmuhem, ana yoo3aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan! Aby akel!" He screamed.

"Inshallah.. Inshallah!!" I said as I hurried to the kitchen.

"Bser3a tara walla ma 3ndy mane3 aklich for breakfast!" He chuckled.

"Inzain.. inta roo7 baddel 3ala ma a5ali9.." I said, distracted.

"La2.. bag3ad ajablich w intay tsaweely ryoog.." He smiled as he sat on the stool and watched.

----- M7ammad

There was something in the way she moved, mixed with the smell of food that made me want to go crazy. I knew that it wasn't a good idea watching her, so I went to wash up and change as she finished.

When I got back, she was already done. She had some omelets, perfectly done, cheese, olives, bread, and hot milk ready on the table.

"Ohhhhhhhhh... Tislam eedich ya murty il 3azeeza.." I said as I sat down and ate excitedly, savoring every bit of food.

I noticed that she wasn't eating a lot. Just sipping her milk and playing with the omelet.

"Laish ma takleen?!" I asked.

"I'm eating.." She simply replied.

"Hatha moo isma akel.. wala tabeeny awaklich min eedy w mista7ya?!" I asked her, holding back my smile.

"I'm eating walla!!!" She exclaimed, as she ate with fake enthusiasm.

"Ee 3abaly ba3ad.." I said as I laughed.

I finished my food, and stared at her as she ate.

"Shno?! Ako ketchup, mayonnaise?" She said as she looked for a tissue.

"Il7een intay mita kaleetay ketchup w min wain mayonnaise balla?!" I replied as I laughed.

"Shdarrany.. 3ayal why are you staring at me?!" She replied confused.

"La2annich 7ilwa.." I said sincerely as I kissed her hand. "Tislam eedich 7abeebty.." I told her as she blushed Again. "When will you ever stop blushing?!" I chuckled.

She ignored me and got up to clean the table. I helped her clear it off and clean everything and told her to get ready so we can go out.

"W bacher.. la tsaween ryoog.." I added.

"Laish?" She asked surprised.

"La2ana ana ily ra7 asawy ryoog.."

----- Shai5a

"La2 9ij..laish? " I asked again.

"Walla ana basawy ryoog shfeech?" He asked.

"Madry.." I replied shocked, la2ana none of my brothers ever thought about cooking anything.

"Tadreen shloon.. ilyoom ma ra7 nit3asha barra ba3ad.. I will cook dinner for you since you seem to doubt my talent." He told me sarcastically.

"Fine.." I replied, still shocked.

Allah yaster, was my only thought.

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Hope you enjoyed!!
:)

Meant to Be (Part Twenty)

2010-02-16T10:40:00.000-08:00

IM BACK!!!!
w adry walla adry ina im a horrible blogger..
bas 9ij ams my laptop rija3 bl salama ;p
so im really really really sorry..
w inshallah ya3jibkum il post..
w I hope everyone had a lovely break ..

w this post is dedicated to alllll my lovely readers and the people who comment :)

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----- M7ammad

We took our time, waited for everyone to leave the airplane, then we left. Each one of us was lost in their own thoughts. The cold wind was refreshing, and I smiled welcoming it.

I looked at her rubbing her arms, almost trembling. She wasn't wearing anything suitable for this kind of weather, neither was I, but I was used to it.

I took off my sweater and offered it to her.

"La2 3adee" She said.

"Take it or else I will hug you.." I warned her.

She took it quickly as I laughed at her facial expressions.

"Thanks" She said quietly.

"No problem.." I replied chuckling. "Yalla this way.." I said leading the way.
We arrived at the hotel at around midnight in their time. We checked in, of course my sisters were the ones that chose the rooms and everything, since they organized the whole honeymoon for us as a wedding gift.

The suite was very sophisticated; I can say I liked it. However, the problem was there was only one bedroom. There was a very large living room though, and two bathrooms. I plopped on one of the couches and sighed miserably when I saw that it wasn't comfortable at all.

"Shai5aa.." I called her, since she was somewhere exploring the suite.

"Na3am.." she replied as she got out from the bathroom.

"Roo7ay namay la2ana we have a tour booked for us bacher il 9b7.." I told her.

"Ok.. " She said, as she took off my sweater, folded it, and put it in front of me. "Thank you" She added.

" No problem, yalla good night" I told her as I closed my eyes.

As soon as she closed the bedroom door, I got up and went to take a shower.

After a looooooooooong relaxing shower, I went out, looking for my bag so I can change. I ran to it since it was exceptionally cold, I could almost feel the water turn to ice on my shoulders. 6alla3t malabsy bser3a, I contemplated on whether to change in the bathroom or here, bas I decided to change in the bathroom.

I prayed, and switched on my phone, to find many messages, countless congratulating me, and some from my sisters and brothers asking if we had arrived.

I decided to call my mother, I talked to her for a bit.

Sima3t shwayya mu7a'6arat minha.. walla ana madry shai5a shimsawya b umy.. sometimes I feel like she's her child moo ana..

My mom insisted to talk to her.

"Walla Shai5a nayma.." I told her for the millionth time.

"Ya3ny shno nayma?! Inta moo yamha.. Kil hatha ma g3idat?! M7ammad yalla 3a6ny shai5a bakallimha.. M7ammad!!!!!!!!!!!!! La ykoooooooon ma 5atheetha wiyak??! walla tsaweeha!!" She exclaimed.

"Hahaha.. shlon ma a5ithha ya3ny ?! 5ala9 ra7 aga3idha 3ashan tit2akideen .. la7'6a shway" I told her.

I opened the door slowly, and I saw her brushing her hair carefully. Startled, she jumped when she saw me.

"Shno?!" She asked mi5tar3a.

"Umy illa tabee t7acheech" I whispered as I held back my laugh.

"Ok 3a6ny 5al a7acheeha.. " She said as she smiled genuinely.

She swept her hair to one side as she continued brushing it while talking to my mother.

I went over to the other side of the bed and took the brush from her hand - and don't ask me why I did that.

She looked at me with questioning eyes as I smiled innocently.

"Aby amashi6 sha3rich.. shno ma y9eer?!" I asked her as I started brushing a strand of her soft hair.

I hugged her closer to me and she shivered when I did.

"Cham marra agoolich libsay 3adel.." I asked her in a whisper as I pointed on her bare arms and legs.

Her face turned into several shades of red, as she stuttered when she answered my mother's countless questions.

"Inshallah 5altee.. ok kahu M7ammad.." She said after a while as she handed me the phone and got off the bed quickly.

My dad was sleeping, so I didn't talk to him, and I decided I would call my siblings tomorrow. Shai5a was rummaging through her bag, looking for something or nothing I guessed.

"Shno tdawreen ur comb?" I asked her as I waved it in front of her.

"Ha.. La2.." She replied.

"Inzain ana ma 5alla9t.. lazem amashi6 sha3rich.." I told her.

"Um.. la2 moo zain wayed amashe6 sha3ry.." She replied nervously.

"Bas ana aby amashe6 sha3rech shlon ya3ny?!" I asked her, trying my best to keep the humor out of my voice.

"K-Kaifik.." Her voice quivered as she replied.

"ta3alay.." I ordered.

She stood up and approached me without removing her eyes from the floor.

"Ma tabeen t7acheen ummich?!" I asked her.

"Kallamtha gabel shway.." She said quietly.

"Mita?!" I asked surprised.

"Awal ma ri7t il '3urfa.." she replied.

"W ma tnadeeny a7acheeha.. asalem 3aleeha.. asoolif wiyaha.. 9ij na7eesa!" I laughed.

"Inta kint nayem!" She defended herself.

"Ee 9a7 9a7... 5ala9 goolay ma tabeeny akallim ummich w 5ala9.." I asked her teasingly.

"La2 walla ana 3abaly inta nayem!" She exclaimed.

" Moo lazem trag3een 5ala9" I continued teasing.

"Wallaaaa!!" She insisted.

"Inzain 5ala9 9addagtich!!" I replied, chuckling. "Tabeen shay?" I asked her.

"La2... i mean salamtik" She replied.

" Allah ysalmich" I said. "W y5aleech LEE .." I said with a wink.

----- Shaikha

" Allah ysalmich" He replied. "W y5aleech LEE .." He added in his hypnotizing voice, of course emphasizing the "Lee" part. And in adding to that he winked.

I blushed like crazy, and turned around to pretend to look for something, but he caught my hand just before I do.

"Shai5a.." He said seriously.

"Na3am .." I gulped.

"Ma radeetay 3alay.." He said, raising his eyebrows.

"3ala shno?" I asked.

"Ana gitlich.. allah y5aleech lee.. w ma radeetay.." He said, trying to hide his smile.

"Thank you..??" I replied stuttering.

"Haha.. la2 ygooloon.. w allah y5aleek lee ya 7abeeby.." He said trying to sound serious.

I stared at him disbelievingly. I AM NOT GOING TO SAY THAT!

"Ok.. ignore the first part.. just say.. ya 7abeeby.." He asked me challengingly.

My expression changed into an even more horrified one, while he seemed to enjoy the fireworks that were exploding inside me.

"FINE.. yalla just say the first part..." He waited for a while. "Tara walla ma ra7 ahiddich until you say it.. yalla.." He said stubbornly.

I decided to give in before he comes up with even crazier phrases. I said the sentence quickly, hoping that he would let go.

"Ma simaaaaaa3t.." He said.

"W Allah y5aleek lee" I said quietly, blushing more with every syllable.

And of course, he didn't let go.

"M7ammad.. can you let go of my hand now?" I asked him quietly.

"Hmm.. give me a valid reason." He said.

"la2any ta3bana w aby anam.." I replied.

"Ya3ny shno ta3bana.. tabeeny asheelich ya3ny?!" He asked, and before I can reply he
scooped me effortlessly and headed towards the bed.

"M7ammad!!" I almost screamed as I grabbed held on to his neck, hugging him closer, afraid that he will let go of me any second.

----- M7ammad

I didn't expect her to act this way. Ya3ny scream, okay expected. Hit me, okay moo shay yideed 3al banat lamma yi5tar3oon.

Bas I didn't expect her to hug me. I stopped and she hugged me tighter, and realized how small her body was compared mine. I hugged her closer, wanting to protect her, to be her savior.

"Shfeech ma ra7 ahiddich.." I whispered.

"La t6ayi7ny.." She replied scared, hugging me even tighter. I laughed because I didn't think that she had that strength in her.

"Ma ra7 a6ay7ich walla.." I assured her, but as I felt her loosen her grip, I told her "yimkin a6ay7ich.. madry.."

because I liked the way she hugged me. I didn't want it to end, I confessed, mostly to myself.

I walked towards the bed and gently put her on the side. She seemed to be catching her breath. After a while she looked at me.

"Yallah namay.." I told her chuckling.

"OK... ... inta ba3ad roo7 nam.." She said.

"Intay awwal.. yalla tuck yourself in." He said. She covered herself with the duvet.

"Good night" She peeked at me from under the covers.

"Wain wain.. leel7een ma 5alla9na.." I told her mischievously.

"Shno?" she said as her eyes widened.

" Leel7een ma gilteely ya 7abeeby.." I told her.

She covered her head completely and gave me her back. I lied down beside her and hugged her close to me.

"You know I'll be sleeping here, in this position, until you say it" I told her as I yawned.

"M7ammad please!" She said.

"3yoon M7ammad.. just say it w ana aroo7" I told her

----- Shai5a

"3yoon M7ammad.. just say it w ana aroo7" he said.

There was something about the way that he said that, something that made me want to tell him the word.

"M7ammad.. when the time is right.. please.." I replied, trying to find a way out.

"I'm not telling you to confess your love, although I don't mind if you want to, I just want you to call me that way from now on.. I'm your husband after all.. and if
I didn't think that it was a wise step, then I wouldn't have taken it.." He rambled. "tara in 5 seconds, I'm going to sleep, w 5ala9.."

"M7mmaaaaaad!" I whined.

"Iffffffff... say it." He replied sleepingly.

He moved even closer, and kissed my hand,

"Say it" He said in a warning voice.

He kissed my cheek.

"Last warning.. say it!!" He told me.

"7abeeb-b" I mumbled quickly before he does something even crazier!

"Sima3tich.. ma giltay 7abeeby,, giltay 7abeeb" He said.

"7abeeby.." I said quietly, quickly, w madry shlon.

"Na3am ya 7abeebat M7ammad.. tabeen tnameen il7een?!" He asked victoriously.

"Ee.." I replied somehow.

"good night 3ayal" He said as he jumped out of bed and got out, closing the door
behind him.

----- M7ammad

7abeeby.. 7abeeby.. 7abeeby..

Her voice kept ringing in my ears as I put my head on the coach, trying to sleep.

----- Shai5a

When he closed the door, I stared into space, trying to take in what just happened.

I looked around, grabbed the closest pillow, and screamed, screamed, screamed, and screamed.

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Hope you enjoyed!!

Meant to Be (Part Nineteen)

2010-01-11T10:25:00.000-08:00

Hey there! :)
I know I haven't posted for a while..
but exams are coming so I need to start preparing for them and stuff..
so this will be my last official posts until after the exams..
and good luck to all of you out there..
inshallah you pass all your exams and they turn out really easy!!
anyways.. ma a6awel 3aleekum :p
this post is dedicated to all my lovely followers (50 now!! WOW!! I never expected that!!) and all the people who take the time to comment on my blog.. thank you :)

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----- M7ammad

I tried my best to sleep but I couldn't; I was too distracted by what just happened.

I waited for her to come back, after a while, she came, trying her best to look distracted. I decided to pretend to be asleep for a while.

One thing I learned from studying medicine and being on call through the night is to feel everything around me even if I was sleeping. Like sometimes I would be in deep slumber but would automatically wake up if someone entered the room to call me or if my phone even vibrated. So as I said, I can sense things around me very easily.

I kept pretending to be asleep until I felt her close enough. If I was not mistaken she was in front of me now. She stopped for some reason. I stayed still for a while...

"Booooo.." I screamed, not loud enough to wake the people around me, but enough to get her to jump.

----- Shaikha

After a while, I decided to go back to my seat. Slowly, I opened the bathroom's door and l pretended to look at the passengers as I got closer to my seat. But thankfully, he was asleep when I got there.

I stood in front of him, trying to memorize his features. From the day we were married, I haven't properly looked at his face. I decided to savor the moment, as I admired his chiseled features. He was what most people consider handsome, but he was really attractive. His face radiated machoism, from his perfectly arched eyebrows to his define jaw. Of course I am judging his appearance while disregarding his body, the six-pack, the toned arms, and the admirably long legs. I didn't even want to go there, I thought to myself as I decided to return to my seat before he wakes up.

"Booooooooooo.." He screamed making me jump and land on the arm chair between the two seats.

"Ouch!!!" I cried as my bottom hit the arm chair forcefully.

"Hahahaha.." was his only response. He laughed heartily as I watched him, wanting to be annoyed without being capable of pretending.

I sat in my seat and looked out the window as I suppressed my laugh.

"I can see you smiling by the way" he said and continued laughing.

"I wasn't laughing, laish a'67ak 3ala shay sa5eef?" I asked him, not being able to hide my smile.

"Moo sa5eef.. Hilarious would be more like it" He said as he continued laughing.

"Fine .. whatever.. laugh all you want.. I will get back at you.." I said as I stared at him, well not really stared, I didn't have the courage to do so while he
was awake, it was more like glanced.

"Ohhh.. chithee ya3ny?" He said challengingly.

"Yup.. you started it.." I said, automatically regretting my sentence. It was too childish I thought to myself.

"Hmm.. fine with me.. bring it on!" He said with a wink.

"Ladies and gentlemen please fasten your seatbelts........ We will arrive in Melbourne, Australia in about 15 minutes" Announced the pilot interrupting our conversation.

"How long are we going to stay in Melbourne?" I asked him, glad to be somewhere where there were a lot of tourist attractions to distract me.

"Well, according to my papers, about 3 days, and then we will stay in Sydney for 3 days, and then Gold Coast for 5 days, and then finally, in the islands of Bora Bora for two weeks" He said emphasizing the two weeks, as he read the letter written by his sisters.

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Hope you enjoyed :)

Two in One

2010-01-04T11:20:00.000-08:00

Two mini posts..
in one ya3ny :p
both posts dedicated to H
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Inspiration Gone Wrong

I love you.

I miss you.

You were my inspiration, you were my motivation.

But that's just the thing.

You were wrong for me, and I knew it; but I wanted you nonetheless.

H it was you who set me off in the wrong path.

You told me to be happy no matter how sad I was.

Didn't you realize back then that this will require all the energy I have?

Didn't you know that no matter how much I pretended to be a grown-up, I was just a child?

Didn't you know that I will hold on to everything you said?

Didn't you know that I was in no shape to handle that, and I am still in no shape to handle it?

I ran in the direction you pointed to without looking back, but now that I'm on my own, I realized that the right path only became longer.

Crying

Washing away worries

trying to diminish my pains..

but they are only intensifying ..

what did I ever do, I thought to myself

Each tear holds a memory

I tried to keep them in..

wanted to hold on to as much of them..

but in the same time, trying to forget the brutal ones..

they keep flowing nonetheless

like imprisoned raindrops that just escaped their cloud

how can love do this?

they say it's good, all the crying..

but so far.. I'm experiencing nothing but more heartbreak and anguish

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I will probably post the part 19 by the end of this week..inshallah!
But no promises, la2ana I don't see myself recovering from my depressed mood soon enough!

It's Someone's Birthday Today

2010-01-03T03:18:00.000-08:00

It's "someone's" birthday today
January 3, 2010
It's his birthday ..
and I'm feeling like sh*t ..
The age difference is technically one year more today
and I will reply to all your comments for the previous post later inshallah!

of Course this post is dedicated to Him

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H,

Happy Birthday
May all your days be filled with joy and happiness
May you find the person who makes your heart flutter the way you make mine
May you fall in love again with the person you are meant to be with
May god brighten your path and grant you his precious blessings
May you live life to its fullest

I love you
No matter what happened
I love you.
No matter what I say
I love you.
as much as I pretend you are invisible
I love you.
as much as I ignore your presence
I love you.

No matter how many times I vow not to think about you,
my brain walks along the familiar path every day,
the path where you dominate everything,
the path filled with memories that I will cherish for the rest of my life,
the path filled with red roses, that provided me with all the love I needed in the beginning
But are now hurting me with their myriad thorns,
and even though I'm bleeding, I'm thankful
because they assure me that you were not just a figment of my imagination
You were real,
Our love was real.

You may think that I forgot about you,
you may assume that I no longer care,
But believe me you are wrong,
you mean the world to me
always and forever
I love you ..
and even as I say that, I feel like I'm not expressing myself enough.

I wish I can wish you a happy birthday properly.

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Madry mita the story :S

Meant to Be (Part Eighteen)

2010-01-02T02:55:00.000-08:00

Warning.. this is an extra long post ;P
in fact, I think this is the longest post I have ever written..
And sorry,, I still didn't try to follow the suggestion, but I will!
Dedicated to all my lovely followers and readers
and to my AMAZING cousin, Shooga!
Please yeebeely the pictures :P

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----- M7ammad

As the captain ordered everyone to put on their seatbelts because the plane was about to depart, I saw her knuckles get white as she clutched the arm rest and squeezed her eyes shut. I stared at her surprised that she was scared from planes. I knew for a fact that my uncle loved travelling and he took his children with him almost everywhere.

She seemed to be mumbling something, as she tried her best to hide her terrified expression.

"Shai5a" I tried calling her, but she didn't seem to hear me. "SHAI5A!" I called in a louder voice which made her jump a bit. But she still didn't open her eyes.

"Shfeech?" I asked her, thinking about just how stupid my question was.

"A5af .." She replied in a quivery voice.

"Give me your hand" I told her softly. "There is nothing to be afraid of"

"A5af.." She said again, on the verge of crying.

"la t5afeen wana wiyach" I told her as I freed her fingers from their position and made her hold my hands.

I looked at her small hands, and I felt her cold delicate skin against mine. She seemed to contrast me in many ways, which made me take some sort of interest in her.
I rubbed her hands to warm them up a bit, and assured her that nothing is wrong. She kept her eyes closed tightly until the captain confirmed that the plane is stable and flying now. Slowly, she opened one of her eyes, and then the other. She stayed silent, and I thought she was in some sort of shock.

"Shai5a.." I called, wanting to make sure that she was okay.

" Na3am .." She replied, still in a daze. She looked at me incredulously, and her cheeks started to turn red as she stared at her hands clutching mine.

"Sorry.." She said, embarrassed.

"Laish sorry?" I asked her.

"Madry.. I know I can freak out in airplanes sometimes." She replied looking in the other direction.

"I enjoyed it" I told her with a chuckle.

She shot me a glare, and I felt like she wanted to say something but she refrained herself.

"la2 goolay.." I said challengingly.

"Tara ma y'6a7ek.. shno you enjoyed it? Shayifny comedy show jiddamik? I was really scared you know, and you shouldn't make fun of me for that!" She said angrily.

It took me a while to absorb what she just said. First of all because it was the first time I see her really mad, and she looked cute while she was. And also because that wasn't my intention at all, to make fun of her.

"Why do you always interpret things the wrong way?" I asked her with shock.
She kept quiet and stared in the other direction.

"Look, I am going to give you one more chance. And if you ignore me again, I am going to ignore you for the rest of the flight, you know what I will ignore you for the rest of the week." I told her with an attitude.

She stared at me disbelievingly.

"What do you want from me?" She asked.

I looked at her for a while, searching for the right answer. I avoided looking into her eyes, not wanting to get lost there again.

"I want you to respect me. Didn't you ever hear of the phrase "treat others like you want to be treated." Do you want me to treat you the way you are treating me right now? You know the silent treatment would be very easy for me, but I'm trying my best here. I am Trying to make you happy, but you are just indifferent to everything I do, so I don't see the point in me trying" I told her, wanting her to give me a break from all the drama.

We both stayed quiet for a while, then I continued: "You know that you are my wife right?" I asked her.

I looked at her waiting for an answer, but she stayed quiet again.

"Ana tawny shgayel? Laish t6ansheeny?!" I asked her angrily.

"What?" She asked me calmly.

"I just gave you a speech and you ignored me, then I asked you a question and you ignored me again." I told her disbelievingly.

"I didn't think you want an answer. Ya3ny it's a silly question. Am I your wife? Yes, of course I'm your wife according to papers" She told me.

"Yes you are right! According to papers, and according to papers only. But you see, I'm sick of that. I want you to fulfill your duties as a wife" I demanded.
She looked like she was just electrocuted. She stayed quiet for a while, her shocked expression not changing.

"what do you say?" I asked her, wanting her to give me a definite answer.

"What do you mean?" She asked quietly.

"I mean are you able to fulfill your role as a wife?" I asked. "Or is it too challenging for you?" I added.

"What do you mean by my role as a wife? Ya3ny what do you expect from me, as your 'wife'?" She asked again.

"Ya3ny I want you to treat me like other wives treat their husbands. Ya3ny I don't want to talk to the wall the whole time I am with you. Ya3ny I want us to get to know each other properly like all engaged people do... and from there we can decide whether we want to take our relationship to the next level, whether we want to live the rest of our lives as friends, brothers, strangers, or husband and wife. We can't just give up from the beginning. I know that our marriage isn't a typical one; both of us didn't know a thing about the other when we got engaged. But we can always try our best, so after a while, if things didn't work out we won't feel guilty and we won't regret not trying" I explained to her.

"Ok.." she said looking in the other direction.

"Oh.. and your duty as a wife includes not looking away every time I talk to you" I told her sarcastically.

"Inshallah.." She said with a slight smile. "Oh.. and why didn't we discuss your duties as a husband?" She asked while cocking one of her eyebrows at me.

"Sure .. why not? Go ahead.." I replied her confidently.

"Hmm.. let's see.." She started. "Well I can't think of something now, but as soon as I do, I will let you know." She said.

"Sure thing.." I replied, smiling.

She started watching a movie, and I decided to take a small nap, but being intrigued by the creature beside me, I stayed up, watching her expression change, as the movie progressed. From curiosity, to delight, to sadness, to crying now. I covered my face, trying to hold in my laugh, but I couldn't, which made her get mad and cover her face too.

"I'm sorry.." I apologized sincerely.

She got up, and before she can walk away, I lifted my leg, creating a bridge. She gave me her back as she tried to wipe away all her tears. At that point, I felt guilty for laughing at her. I am used to my sisters crying in movies, and they would usually throw pillows in our faces when we laugh at them. But she was in a weaker position right now, and so I thought I will keep all the laughing for later, when she can take her revenge.

I got up and hugged her from the back.

"It's just a movie.." I told her, trying to make her feel better.

She didn't respond, but she tried to free herself from my grip.

"Fine, it's not just a movie.. what happened?" I asked her, as I turned her body, so that I can hug her properly.

Her tiny frame fit perfectly in my arms. I felt like her savior, her protector, her hero, and I didn't want to let go of her fragile body.

"He..he.." She sniffed.

"He died?" I asked her.

"Noooooo!!!" She almost shouted.

"3ayal?" I asked her, trying to see her hidden face.

"He left her.." She said, as I hugged her closer.

"It's okay.. maybe they're not meant to be.." I told her.

"Yes they are.. the movie is not over, they will get back together" She told me.

"Then why are you crying?" I asked her.

"Because.. it's sad" She cried.

"Okay.. 5ala9.. don't cry" I tried comforting her.

I kept her in my arms, until all her tears dried away, then I smiled for her.

"M7amad.." She sighed.

"Hmm.." I replied, hating the fact that I will have to let go of her soon.

"Can you let go of me now?" She asked hesitantly.

"If you give me a valid reason" I told her, hugging her more tightly.

"I really need to go to the bathroom" She said in a low voice.

I freed her, but not before I made her promise not to cry there.

I watched her go safely, then I went to my seat to get a quick nap before the airplane lands. I lifted my legs, got into a comfortable position, and closed my eyes wanting to rest. It was a hug, but what emotions did it leave, I asked myself.

-----Shai5a

As the plane started to depart, I felt my hysteric reactions coming soon, so I clutched the arm rest and started repeating some holy phrases that I had memorized. I don't really know what happened, just that when I opened my eyes, I was holding M7amad's hands instead of the arm rest.

"Sorry.." I said, embarrassed.

"Laish sorry?" He asked me.

"Madry.. I know I can freak out in airplanes sometimes." I replied as my cheeks felt hot.

"I enjoyed it" He replied, laughing.

I looked at him incredulously, as I felt the anger rise in me. Why does he have to make fun of me, I thought? I felt like telling him to shut up or something, but decided not to.

"la2 goolay.." He said, sarcastically.

"Tara ma y'6a7ek.. shno you enjoyed it? Shayifny comedy show jiddamik? I was really scared you know, and you shouldn't make fun of me for that!" I said, honestly, I don't even know what I said. I was just mad.

"Why do you always interpret things the wrong way?" He asked, and maskeen, he looked shocked. I didn't answer him, and just looked away.

"Look, I am going to give you one more chance. And if you ignore me again, I am going to ignore you for the rest of the flight, you know what I will ignore you for the rest of the week." He told me b nafsiya.

"What do you want from me?" I replied, not really wanting to continue this conversation. But in the same time, not wanting him to be mad at me.

"I want you to respect me. Didn't you ever hear of the phrase "treat others like you want to be treated." Do you want me to treat you the way you are treating me right now? You know the silent treatment would be very easy for me, but I'm trying my best here. I am Trying to make you happy, but you are just indifferent to everything I do, so I don't see the point in me trying" He said quickly, and it took me a while to try to figure out what he wanted, with no success.

We both stayed quiet for a while, then he said: "You know that you are my wife right?"

That's obvious isn't it? I thought to myself, Unless he's in denial then that would be a different case.

"Ana tawny shgayel? Laish t6ansheeny?!" He asked, with his temper starting to flare.

"What?" I replied, not wanting to agitate him more.

"I just gave you a speech and you ignored me, then I asked you a question and you
ignored me again." He exclaimed.

"I didn't think you want an answer. Ya3ny it's a silly question. Am I your wife? Yes, of course I'm your wife according to papers" I answered, looking away, with tears in my eyes.

"Yes you are right! According to papers, and according to papers only. But you see, I'm sick of that. I want you to fulfill your duties as a wife" He said sternly.

To say I was shocked was an understatement. All sorts of scary thoughts started finding their way to me, and I was about to throw myself from the airplane, in order to escape.

"what do you say?" He asked me.

"What do you mean?" I replied, expecting the worst.

"I mean are you able to fulfill your role as a wife?" He replied. "Or is it too challenging for you?" He said with a smirk

"What do you mean by my role as a wife? Ya3ny what do you expect from me, as your 'wife'?" I asked again, wanting him to clarify things better.

"Ya3ny I want you to treat me like other wives treat their husbands. Ya3ny I don't want to talk to the wall the whole time I am with you. Ya3ny I want us to get to know each other properly like all engaged people do... and from there we can decide whether we want to take our relationship to the next level, whether we want to live the rest of our lives as friends, brothers, strangers, or husband and wife. We can't just give up from the beginning. I know that our marriage isn't a typical one; both of us didn't know a thing about the other when we got engaged. But we can always try our best, so after a while, if things didn't work out we won't feel guilty and we won't regret not trying" He said.

"Ok.." I replied quickly looking away, before he adds more 'stuff' to the list.

"Oh.. and your duty as a wife includes not looking away every time I talk to you" He added.

"Inshallah.." I said with a smile of relief . "Oh.. and why didn't we discuss your duties as a husband?" I asked him, feeling better.

"Sure .. why not? Go ahead.." He said, confidently.

"Hmm.. let's see.." I began. "Well I can't think of something now, but as soon as I do, I will let you know." I told him.

"Sure thing.." He replied with a smile.

He adjusted his position to sleep, so I decided to watch a movie. After flipping through the channels, I decided to go with "The Devil Wears Prada" even though I have seen before. I started crying when she left Nate. I thought that they were really cute together, and cried even more. And what made it worse, was that the mr. besides me started laughing.

"I'm sorry.." He apologized, trying to sound sincere.

I got up angrily, wanting to go to the bathroom to finish my crying there without anyone making fun of me. He lifted his leg, preventing me from walking away. So I just turned around, not wanting him to see me cry.

I felt him hugging me from the back as I cried.

"It's just a movie.." He stated, thinking it was a wise thing to say.

I tried to move away, but he was way stronger than me.

"Fine, it's not just a movie.. what happened?" He asked, as he shifted my position so that he was hugging me properly now. I felt much better just being in his arms. I felt as though my soul got lost somewhere in his grasp. I felt safe and secure.

"He..he.." I tried to explain.

"He died?" He asked.

"Noooooo!!!" I replied quickly.

"3ayal?" He inquired.

"He left her.." I said, and he hugged me tighter. At that moment, I wanted to stay there forever, in his arms, where nothing can harm me.

"It's okay.. maybe they're not meant to be.." He said.

"Yes they are.. the movie is not over, they will get back together" I told him.

"Then why are you crying?" He asked, confused.

"Because.. it's just sad" I told him, crying.

"Okay.. 5ala9.. don't cry" He comforted me, not knowing that just his embrace was enough for me to forget all the worries I have.

He held me until I stopped crying, then he smiled a genuine smile, and held on to me again.

"M7amad.." I started, not wanting him to let go.

"Hmm.." He replied lazily.

"Can you let go of me now?" I asked, hating myself for doing so.

"If you give me a valid reason" He told me as he held me even tighter.

"I really need to go to the bathroom" I replied embarrassed.

He let me go. And I reluctantly walked away feeling like something was missing.

Was it my heart? I thought to myself as I leaned on the bathroom door. Could he have got to me that fast? Surprisingly, my emotional side didn't take over, and I convinced myself that it was just a hug, and nothing more.

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I honestly thought it was really long
w min kither ma long, boring :P
bas I hope you enjoyed!
TC!

Happy New Year

2009-12-31T13:49:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE OUT THERE!!

Inshallah the new year will be full of wonderful surprises for everyone..

W I hope that you change to the better and acheive all your goals..

Now about that :P What are your new year resolutions?

Personally, I don't really remember my resolutions except in December and January..

But just the thought of being a better person counts..

In 2010..

I hope that I will be a more reasonable person

a less emotional person

I hope that I will do really well in school

and I wish that I would get over my blog addiction

I will try my best not to think about H

and I will try my very best to be a good friend for everyone

w Inshallah I will manage my time more wisely and I will post more! :P

I wish that I will be the person I want to be.. the person that sometimes gets lost from all the drama and chaos

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Meant to Be (part seventeen)

2009-12-28T08:26:00.000-08:00

Just as I promised..
a post :):)
bas its extra short..
I will try to post another one soon..
bas this time 9ij no promises :P

anyways.. I have an important question..
one of the readers suggested something..
and I want to know if all of you guys agree..
then I'm going to give it a try maybe..
She suggested:
" bedal ma u write everything that happend with mohammed then everything again in shaikas way u could just write one long post and color there thoughts"
what do u thinK?

and lastly.. gabel ma tigroon il post..
I would like to dedicate it to Um 3abdallah!
Thank you for being such a wonderful and amazing friend!

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----- M7ammad

"Which seat do you want?" I asked her when the flight attendant showed us to our place.

"It doesn't matter" She replied staring at the floor.

"T7ibeen you look outside or do you feel nauseous?" I asked her, hoping for some kind of clear response.

"3adee" She replied indifferently again. Something inside me just ticked; it's something I inherited from my dad's side of the family. When things don't go the way I planned, or when I'm really frustrated, I just lose it. However, for some weird reason my reaction was way calmer than I thought it would be.

One thing that annoyed me the most was people not returning my passion. I mean I know that I didn't actually confess my love or anything, but I'm trying to be nice here. I'm offering her the seat that me and my sisters usually fight for, and she's just not giving me any importance.

"Ya3ny ana bas aby afham.. intay killa 3adee?" I said in a low voice, aiming to control my temper.

When she didn't answer, I lifted her chin and made her look me in the eye. For a couple of seconds I got lost there, in her eyes, in the depth of their emotions. They told me so many different things, and yet the most clear and vivid emotion expressed there was fear. It saddened me, how naive she was, how young her soul was, and how much she was tormented from the decision that her family took on her behalf and mine.

"Go take the seat you want." I told her as I looked away.

Quietly, she went and took the seat beside the window. She opened it and stared. I watched her reflection, and how hard she tried to control her expressions. She was strong and I admired her for that, but after all, there is only so much burden such a young heart can carry.

I searched her face again. Trying to understand her. She closed her eyes for a bit and rested her head on the seat. Don't close your eyes I almost said.

Her eyes, I thought to myself, and how much I wish that I didn't look into her eyes.

----- Shai5a

"Which seat do you want?" M7ammad asked me as we approached our seats.

I want the one beside the window, I thought to myself.

"It doesn't matter" I replied to him.

"T7ibeen you look outside or do you feel nauseous?" He asked me again.

Does he honestly think I'm a kid? Why would I feel nauseous? It's true I'm a little scared from the takeoffs and the landing, but it's nothing I can't handle on my own.

"3adee" I replied, not really in the mood to talk to him.

"Ya3ny ana bas aby afham.. intay killa 3adee?" He asked me, seeming to get impatient.

I kept quiet, not wanting him to snap at me, because I honestly didn't think that I could handle it. I continued imagining different faces and shapes painted on the floor, until he forced me to look up.

He lifted my chin, and my eyes caught his as soon as I looked up. He caught me by surprise, and I just looked into his eyes. Those eyes weren't the eyes of a mean person. In them I saw kindness, gentleness, compassion, and another thing. Something I couldn't put my finger on, it seemed like the thing they always described in movies. Love? Was it? No, it was the possibility of love that I saw. Could it be? I thought to myself as I took the seat next to the window. Or am I just imagining things now?

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Hope u enjoyed :P
and next post you will know their honeymoon ra7 ykoon wain :P

Meant to Be (part sixteen)

2009-12-26T06:50:00.000-08:00

This post is dedicated to all my followers
ESPECIALLY: "Roman6i8"!
Thank you for being such a sweet and dedicated follower :)
w I posted TODAY ba3ad :p
i know its a short post.. bas another one coming soon (hopefully) :P

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----- M7ammad

We left our house after saying good-bye to everyone. I kept Shaikha close to me when we walked towards my cousins because I saw Aisha eyeing her.

"Smile 3ashan t7irreenha" I whispered into her ears, chuckling.

She nervously giggled and I could see that Aisha was jealous. Grow up, I thought to myself as we passed by them quickly because we were seriously late.

Fahad, my brother, was waiting for us outside so he can drop us off. But none of the ladies came with us because the 3azeema wasn't over yet.

She walked nervously beside me as we approached the car. Fahad greeted her and they chatted for a while in the car. It was surprising for me because I usually didn't get to see her talking.

"Fahad a7na wain binroo7?" She asked him.

"Il ma6ar, ya3ny wain?" He replied sarcastically.

"La2, bas ana moo yayba jan6ity!" She replied, scared.

"La t5afeen.. ana yayeb kil shay.. intaw bas roo7aw w istansaw.. w take good care of my brother .. ma awa9eech 3alee" He told her. "Tara he has a tendency to get lost" He added, laughing.

Her face got red as she mumbled a "inshallah"

"a7na wain ra7 nroo7?" I asked Fahad.

"7amood, Shfeek inta w murtik? IL MA6AR.. The airport!" He screamed.

"NOOO!! La tista3be6.. ya3ny where are we travelling to?" I asked him, chuckling at his reaction.

I can see her eyes getting wide as she absorbed what I just said.

"You don't know where we're going to?!" She asked incredulously, but in a low voice.

"Zain kalamteeny.. walla 3abaly I'm invisible" I replied sarcastically.

Fahad shot me a glare. Walla agool 7ag umy, his eyes humorously warned. My mom wa9atny 3aleeha malyoon marra gabel la ni6la3, and I didn't want to upset her. I knew that she would probably cry if she knew that we're not get along.

" La2 I don't know where we are going.. it's a surprise.. all planned by my sisters" I replied. "So expect the unexpected" I told her as I laughed at her freaked out expression.

"The unexpected w bas?" Fahad added laughing.

After a couple of minutes, we got to the airport. Since we were late, we finished everything quickly, and we got to the airplane just a couple of minutes before it's departure.

-----Shai5a

I kissed everyone good-bye, making sure not to look them in the eye so I don't cry.
As I finished from my family, we got closer to his cousins. I saw Aisha giving me the: "I will not lose this battle" look, so I ignored her.

Thankfully, M7ammad drew mw closer to him and announced that we are really late and there is no more time for good-byes.

"Smile 3ashan t7irreenha" He whispered in my ear, as he evilly laughed.

I laughed, enjoying the fact that she was had the jealous look on her face already.

As we walked to the car, we saw Fahad waiting for us. I was really glad to see him, because I didn't want to endure another painfully silent drive with M7amad again.

"Shlonich Shai5a?" He asked me cheerfully.

"Tamam.. inta shlonik?!" I replied with a smile.

"B5eer allah ysalmich" He replied. And to both of us he said, "Yalla 3ashan ma nit2a5ar."

On our way, we chatted a bit about my brother, who happens to be one of Fahad's best friends. I felt comfortable, and I didn't even mind M7amad's presence.

"Fahad a7na wain binroo7?" I asked him wonderingly.

"Il ma6ar, ya3ny wain?" He replied in that annoying sarcastic voice.

"La2, bas ana moo yayba jan6ity!" I replied shocked.

"La t5afeen.. ana yayeb kil shay.. intaw bas roo7aw w istansaw.. w take good care of my brother .. ma awa9eech 3alee" He told me caringly. "Tara he has a tendency to get lost" He added, while laughing his head off.

I quickly pretended to be scrutinizing the road as I said inshallah, avoiding further discussion in this topic.

Fahad and M7amad had a loud conversation which I didn't really catch. But I heard the last part, and I was shocked.

"You don't know where we're going to?!" I blurted quickly.

"Zain kalamteeny.. walla 3abaly I'm invisible" M7ammad replied ironically.
I didn't reply to his comment, but I felt like just running away. I didn't want to spend my honeymoon with him. He didn't love me, he doesn't even like me, I thought to myself.

" La2 I don't know where we are going.. it's a surprise.. all planned by my sisters" He replied. "So expect the unexpected" He added laughing.

I freaked out a bit, because I knew just how creative my cousins can be. It's cute when they plan romantic things for their husbands, but it's not even funny when I'm involved.

"The unexpected w bas?" Fahad added chuckling, which didn't help my situation at all.

When we arrived at the hotel, everything was a rush. M7ammad took care of everything quickly, as I stood by admiring his efficiency in everything he does. I noticed that he was always smiling for strangers, and he treated everyone in a very respectful way, even the humble workers there. Before I knew it, we were already on the airplane as it was getting ready for departure.

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Hope you enjoyed :)

Analogy

2009-12-16T09:23:00.000-08:00

Random Post.. :)
Enjoy your break while you can everyone :):)
Special Dedications to "H"
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You know when you wake up and it's really really late at night..

everything around you is dark and still..

it's an extremely cold night..

and you didn't have enough sleep yet..

you don't want to leave your bed, and yet you have to..

because unfortunately you need to go to the bathroom :P

you delay leaving your bed as much as you can

hoping that your body will just neglect its needs for a while so you can sleep..

but after a while you realize that you HAVE to get up immediately or else (... fill in the blank ... ) :P

so you remorsefully leave your bed and finish your business in the bathroom quickly..

and on your way back you focus on one thing and one thing only.. your bed

and even though it's really dark, you find your way back without any complications..

you jump in bed quickly with a smile forming on your sleepy face..

you dive into the comfort of your warm, cozy bed..

you cover yourself up and all..

and stay awake for a while just savoring your reunion with your beloved bed..

you smile one more time just before you drift to the land where you are the princess..

That feeling, when you get back to bed..

That is how it feels when I'm in his arms.

And how I long to be in his arms.

He is my bed.. the one made just for me..

and I LOVE my bed!

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Hope you enjoyed :)

Meant to be (part fifteen)

2009-12-14T05:12:00.000-08:00

At last..
the long awaited post :P
w inshallah another one will be coming up this weekend!
bas its short shwaya :P
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----- M7ammad

I actually enjoyed hugging her, okay maybe I got carried away with the hug but she didn't seem to mind at all.

The rest of the night went by quickly, but of course not action less.

I was chatting with my sister with my hand still around Shai5a, when my cousin, whom I don't really like, came. Her name was Aisha, and she had a crush on me from when we were teenagers but she didn't really appeal to me, and I made that clear to her several times, but I guess she is slow when it comes to these kinds of things. She flipped her hair, and shot Shai5a a look as she greeted me.

Here we go, I thought to myself, the drama queen is about to start.

"Shlonik 7amoood?" She asked in her bratty voice.

"Tamam .. intay shlonich?" I asked her, just out of politeness.

"Shai5a.. hathy bnt 5alty Aisha.. t3arfeenha 9a7?" My sister Dalal interrupted.

Just as Shai5a was about to reply, Aisha rudely interrupted her.

"Eee.. shlon ma t3arefny? Ana ily knt aby asawy awragha 7ag kuliyat il 6ib.. bas ubooha ma ri'6a .. 9a7?" She asked in an evil way.

Shai5a's face was pale for a couple of seconds, and I could feel her body stiffen.

"La2.. bas allah moo kateb..." Shai5a replied after a while, when she saw that Aisha was gazing at her, waiting for an answer.

"Ee w a9lan ma atwa8a3 7amood ra7 yir'6a murta t'6aye3 wagtha bil dirasa" She said as she winked in my direction.

Tears were starting to form in Shai5a's eyes, and I could sense that I was missing a big piece in the puzzle. I decided that I will deal with that later, as I defended her.

"Mno gal?! Ana murty tsawy ily taby.. she can pursue her dreams wherever they are and I will always follow her and support her" I said confidently.
I took most of my audience with surprise, from Aisha, to Dalal, to Shai5a, and to my mother who was apparently listening for some reason.

Aisha had a puzzled look on her face, and I knew that she will not close the subject unless she makes someone really upset, which is one of the things I hate about her. She never gives up when she is on a mission to serve the devil.

"Ahaa... well I guess your young (emphasizing that word) wife, must have given you a better perspective on life... la2ana from what I know about you, you think that women are better as domestic wives" She replied.

"whoever told you that my wife is not domestic? She bakes the best cakes in the world! Made me fall in love with her right then!" I replied, now definitely gob smacking everyone listening. "And besides I don't prefer domestic women, I like independent women with some brain tissues, so I'm guessing you don't know me well, now do you?" I replied.

"Yes I do know you... wala you forgot all the nights in the mazra3a and the chalet?" She said in an aggressively-crazy way as she gave me her back and left before I said anything else.

Again, everyone was looking at me with curious eyes, especially Shai5a. I met Dalal's gaze and she rolled her eyes because she knew that Aisha was just trying to create drama.

I looked at Shai5a but she looked away quickly.

"We need to talk" I whispered as she hesitantly nodded her head.

"Our first husband and wife talk.. how would you like that?" I continued as I kissed her cheek.

She looked at me astonished at first, but she quickly blushed and looked away. I chuckled at her reaction, and looked at my watch. After 10 minutes exactly, we will have to leave to catch our plane.

----- Shai5a

I was really comfortable while in his warm embrace, and so I decided not to talk so I don't ruin the moment. But the moment lasted for a long, and very happy while, until someone I don't really like came.

She walked with an air of confidence which I can be easily passed on to be arrogance.

I smiled in her direction, but she shot me a look in return and didn't acknowledge my existence as M7amad's wife.

"Shlonik 7amoood?" She said, trying desperately to sound feminine, but only sounding like a spoiled brat. Shtaby hathy, I thought to myself as I tried not to look at her disgustingly.

" Tamam .. intay shlonich?" M7amad replied, in a cold way.

"Shai5a.. hathy bnt 5alty Aisha.. t3arfeenha 9a7?" Asked Dalal, in a way to make Aisha realize that I'm his wife here, and she shouldn't get carried away.
How can I not know her? She is the only person who doesn't seem to welcome me from M7amad's mother's side of the family.

"Eee.. shlon ma t3arefny? Ana ily knt aby asawy awragha 7ag kuliyat il 6ib.. bas ubooha ma ri'6a .. 9a7?" Aisha replied in sarcastic way.

I felt my throat getting dry and I leaned back a bit, because I honestly didn't think that she would get that low. I mean I don't even know her. Why does she have to expose me and remind me of something I really wanted to forget? She specifically knew that it was a sensitive subject for me.

"La2.. bas allah moo kateb..." I tried my best to reply as I felt her gaze burning through me.

"Ee w a9lan ma atwa8a3 7amood (in a way she thinks is dala3 but I think is plain ugliness) ra7 yir'6a murta t'6aye3 wagtha bil dirasa" She added in a victorious tone as she winked in M7amad's direction.

What the h*ll, I thought to myself. Who is she to insult me and then wink in my husband's direction? I honestly felt like slapping her but I couldn't obviously, and so tears involuntarily started to form in my eyes.

"Mno gal?! Ana murty tsawy ily taby.. she can pursue her dreams wherever they are and I will always follow her and support her" M7amad said in such a loving way. I looked at him surprised, but he only squeezed my shoulder in response.

"Ahaa... well I guess your young (emphasizing that word) wife, must have given you a better perspective on life... la2ana from what I know about you, you think that women are better as domestic wives" She shot back, not willing to give up.

"whoever told you that my wife was not domestic? She bakes the best cakes in the world! Made me fall in love with her right then!" He replied enthusiastically as he rubbed his stomach, and to say that I was shocked from his statement was an understatement. I looked at Dalal and she had a shocked-happy-confused look on her face. "And besides I don't prefer domestic women, I like independent women with some brain tissues, so I'm guessing you don't know me well, now do you?" He concluded in a confidently victorious way.

"Yes I do know you... wala you forgot all the nights in the mazra3a and the chalet?" Aisha said as a concluding statement, and walked away. Such a coward, I thought to myself!

I didn't really care about what she said because I knew from other sources that she was delirious and she had a crush on M7amad which bothered me, a lot!
I was looking at him, trying to get some answers about what just happened by reading his face, but he caught me in the act, so I quickly busied myself with something else.

"We need to talk" He whispered into my ear, making me have goose-bumps everywhere. I nodded and looked away again.

"Our first husband and wife talk.. how would you like that?" He asked me in a low (very attractive if I may add) voice, and kissed my cheek.

He took me by surprise, so I stared at him for a while, but then blushed and looked away. He chuckled at my reaction as usual, and after a while, he told me that we have to leave to the airport.

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Hope you enjoyed :)

Tagged :)

2009-12-12T01:29:00.000-08:00

I know ina 7adda tawinnas :P
bas I was tagged by one of the most amazing bloggers .. "7awoory"
thank you very much :)
and I answered the questions :P

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1- Whats ur fav Disney movie of all time?Enchanted .. love it and love McDreamy :P

2-Your favorite Disney song?
Hmm.. madry.. I guess I don't have one

3- Your top 3 favorite things to watch as a kid?
I dont remember watching a lot of "kids" movies because I usually watched more grown up movies with my dad and uncles even as a child.. but the things that I do remember watching were about 4, and I reaaaaally LOVE them!!
*Beauty and the Beast .. it's still one of my favorites :P
*Tom and Jerry .. I guess it was funny to me :P
*Pocahontas .. I loved the fact they were so different and yet they fell in love .. I still cry at the scene where she doesn't let her father kill him.. and I loved her long hair!!!!
*Little Mermaid .. I loved her hair!! and I loved the ocean!!!

4- Your funniest badliya?
Madry :P..
I have a looooooooot of badliyas :P
one which my friends think is very funny is .. "daftary" as in my notebook..
and lots more :P

5- The most creative way you can say "salam":
I don't get creative.. I just say "il salam 3aleekum" ..
that's it .. and I want to keep it that way..
and usually if i dont feel like talking which is very often I just nod in the persons direction :P

6- If you had to call your baby boy & girl American names, what would you choose?
guy... Max and don't ask me why :P
girl.. Anne or Sara since it's both American and Arabic

7- Your favorite teen actor and actress?
I hate teenagers for some reason :P
bas I like Emma Roberts
and Taylor Swift even though she's not an actress ..
no guys I guess ..

8- Top 4 visited websites
www.p0ach.com .. simply addicting!
www.hotmail.com .. im addicted to my email as many ppl already know :P
www.facebook.com .. just checking out ppl's profiles :P
www.touch-my-soul-with-passion.blogspot.com .. so I can see who posted from my blog roll list :P

9- The youtube video you recommend the most?
umm.....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I5ALIL7T764&feature=related
couldn't think of anything better ;P

10- Do you say Shakar or Shakir?
I say sugar 3ashan ma a3awer rasy :P

11- Do you play a musical instrument & what is it?
Noooo!!
I hate music classes and playing musical instruments!
I used to ditch music class all the time :P
bas I would reaaaaaally like to learn how to play the piano!

12- Who is the person you'd want to meet the most?
I don't know!!
bas if i change the question to who would you like to see the most now..
it would be my unlce, H, and my best friend

13- Your most prized possession:
My laptop and my flash disks :P

14- The word " scrumptious" makes you feel?
hungry..
makes me feel like eating ice-cream :P

15- The song that reminds you of summer the most is?
Madry again :P

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W adry iny ma9a5tHa :P
I promise a post 3an the story THIS WEEK!!!

Theory about People

2009-12-06T09:16:00.001-08:00

I know I can be such an emotional person..
this post is the last post about the BF issue.. I hope so :P
and the next post is going to be the story inshallah :)

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My theory about people is that they are weird,
they analyze things the way they want to,
they manipulate everything so they can understand it the way they want, even if it's not true
they are arrogant but they think its confidence,
they are selfish but they claim that they just love themselves,
they are stupid but refuse to admit it,
they destroy their most valuable relationships in the name of dignity,
they know nothing about the true meaning of life, and they don't even realize it.

PEOPLE!
Sometimes you may feel like you have the right to be mad at someone,
you might take one small action and overanalyze it,
you might take things personally, even if they are not meant to offend you,
you might think that you are the only victim in the situation,
you might let your emotions take over,
and the logical voice inside your head just disappears,
think think think think think before you make decisions,
and it's not wrong or fashla to take someone's advice,
and thank you to all the people who replied to my last post and gave me advice!
you are truly wonderful people :)

* My best friend is my best friend after all and this is dedicated to her..

There are good people in this world,
there are people who make the world a better place by just being in it,
there are people who never fail to make you smile,
there are people who are truly genuine ,
there are people who you never lose hope from,
there are best friends,
there are people like you..
I LOVE YOU! :**

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I will post this weekend probably :)

Confused...

2009-12-03T08:46:00.000-08:00

She is downstairs!
She is downstairs right now!
Ya3ny if I scream she can hear me!
I am literally shivering right now!
We are in the same house!
But of course she didn't come to my room..
and she won't..
and YES.. I am talking about my best friend here..
What do I do?!
WHAT am I supposed to do?!
How am I supposed to act!?
I have never been in a situation like this one before!
It's hard enough already, why does she have to come?!
Why can't everything return to normal?
I miss her..
and I'm willing to forget everything..
But I don't have the courage to confront her..
I just saw her..
well just a quick glance..
I think she saw me..
but I'm not sure..
should I go talk to her?!!
Or should I just continue pretending that she never existed?!

My best Friend?

2009-11-29T02:52:00.000-08:00

This is just a random post.. but its one of the most personal and painful posts I've written..

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The day when your best friend becomes a stranger,
you can't and you won't describe her as your enemy because your loyalty to her remains,
but what she said is something you never imagined coming out from her,
how she acted is something you will never comprehend.

Why did all of this happen?
What happened to the unbreakable bond between you two?
What happened to the inseparable nature of your existence?

Will you break the ice?
Or will she do it?
Or will you let the distance between you grow and grow,
until there is no going back.
Did you and can you imagine your future without her?
Isn't she supposed to be the one cheering for you on your graduation day?
Isn't she the one who will get you through the long college years?
Isn't she the one who will help you pick your wedding dress?
Isn't she the one who will help you take care of your children and hers?
Isn't she your guide through life?
Doesn't she make your problems seem smaller and your joys even more delightful?
Then how can you plan everything again, without her?

What did you feel that day?
Why is it that your eyes never got dry?
Why is it that all your senses got numb?
Why is it that you are still in denial?
Why can't you realize that maybe, just maybe, you don't have a best friend anymore.

She's gone.
And a piece of my existence disappeared with her.
She was the glue that held all the pieces of my life together.
She made sense of everything around me.
She fit in the picture perfectly.
And now she's gone.

** Personal Message to Everyone out there:

There was a phase in my life where teachers and relatives would continually say that you shouldn't tell everyone your secrets.
Many students, teenagers, mostly 15 year olds, disagreed and said that you should tell your best friends everything. I agreed of course, because at that time, my best friend meant the world to me really.
But I have learned in the past month or so that they are right.
And I hate that feeling, when you wish you listened to someone older and supposedly wiser.
Now I agree with what they say, but for completely different reasons.
They told me not to tell my best friend everything because we may fall out and then she would uncover my secrets.
However, that is not why I think you shouldn't tell one person all your secrets.
That person whom you call your best friend can disappear.
That person, must be very dear to you, what would you feel like if she is just not your bff anymore?
With every secret you two share, your bond grows stronger.
And how strong will your bond be when you tell her all your secrets?
More importantly, you will feel like you need her to remind you of who you really are, and to remind you of the reason behind your existence.
What will you do alone, without her?
You will try to remold yourself into the person you are without her.
Keeping your own secrets gives you an air of confidence and a sense of independence.
It makes you feel like you are your own boss, and that you don't need anyone.

My new motto in life is to keep your distance from people.
People are just weird and complicated.

Those past few days were the worst in my life.
I may've lost my best friend,
but I'm too shocked from the situation to do anything.
I may take things too personally, I may be too sensitive,
but this time I just think it may be over.

HAPPY EID :)

2009-11-27T02:06:00.000-08:00

AT LAST!!
I've been waiting for this day since FOREVER!

Happy Eid to all of you :)

3eedkum Mbarak!

w ta8abal allah 6a3atkum

w kil 3am w intaw b 5eer :)

w have fun and enjoy every single moment of this day and the upsoming non-school, non-working days ! :)

Meant to Be (Part fourteen)

2009-11-26T04:33:00.000-08:00

Hello :)
I hope everyone did well in their exams!
W sorry for the late post :P
3eedkum Mbarak Mu8adaman :)
This post is dedicated to Um 3abdallah.. "fee the word you can't pronounce :P"
w Fa6oom.. "I miss youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!"
w to all my friends and lovely readers :)
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----- M7ammad

I don't know why the lady's comment bothered me. Maybe because I didn't want to hear the bitter truth from another person. If only she knew that we were forced into this marriage, what would she say then?

I wanted to go to our mazra3a; I missed the place. I missed the serenity and peace there. However, I knew that I would never make it back in time if I went there.

I went to my parents' house and entered from the back door because I didn't feel like talking to anybody. I went to my room and watched TV for about an hour or two. They had "The Doctors" on and I listened to their debate about vaccines for a while, before dozing off.

I woke up startled as I looked at my watch. Sh*t, I thought to myself; I was late! I don't think I will have time to pick her up, and get to the 3azeema in time.

I ran downstairs but stopped when I heard the laughs of women; again I cursed myself for being late. I tried calling my sisters but they didn't answer. But then Mariam, my youngest sister, came with a tray in her hand. She looked mad when she saw me and motioned for me to wait until she comes.

"M7amad min 9ijik!!" She said angrily when she came back.

"Shno?!" I asked surprised.

"Laish ma ri7t 5atheet murtek? Inta tadry ina i5itha ihya ily yabatha? ya3ny lazem tfashilna min awal shay? Don't you know that you have to enter together?" She said quickly, literally fuming.

"Inzain bas 5ala9!" I told her annoyed.

"W ba3ad moo mbadel!" She screamed.

"5ala9 gilna!" I told her. "Il7een abadel w anzel!"

I went upstairs quickly, changed, and hurried downstairs. I found Dalal and Mariam waiting for me, both looked annoyed. I rolled my eyes, because I knew that they will not let this pass by. Dalal told the women that I was going to come in, so they can cover up if they needed to.

I entered and the room was packed with women wearing all sorts of color but all of them had the same eager, curious expression. I greeted all my relatives, and kissed my mom's head and I can see that she wasn't very happy.

Beside my mother, my 'wife' was sitting. She didn't even bother to glance me way. But I knew that if I ignored her my sisters will kill me, and my mother would probably be very mad.

My mom is a really sweet person; she always made sure that my brothers treated their wives with respect and love, since she sort of didn't have that kind of relationship with my father. He was almost always a cold person, and he only cared about his opinion. Therefore, my mother didn't want anyone to go through what she went through. Even though she does love my dad, their relationship just lacks equality. My father always had the upper hand, and even I didn't want to be like him in that way.

I sat beside her and smiled as I took her hand in mine.

Just seconds later, my niece, Sara, came with her camera and started taking pictures excitedly. I laughed at how serious she was, made some funny faces to get her annoyed, and then hugged Shai5a closer to me for a good picture.

----- Shai5a

After he dropped me off, I went in to find my sister and mother waiting for me. They hugged me, and I cried, which made my mother cry, and my sister follow her.

Then I went to get ready for the 3azeema. I found my bag ready for the honeymoon which I was dreading. So, I basically sat, waiting for M7ammad to come.

My sister and mom finished getting ready for the 3azeema also, and M7ammad still hasn't shown up.

"Diggay 3alee" My mother told me, while adjusting her brooch.

"No way" I replied.

" Shai5a bala dala3.. he's your husband.. ya3ny you shouldn't have any formalities between you..

il mafroo'6 ma tisti7een minna" Said my sister.

"In case you didn't notice, this is not a typical marriage. Besides I don't even have his number" I said coolly.

My mother and sister exchanged looks, and they decided to take me with them to the 3azeema even thought I should really enter with my husband.

We went there and the place was packed with women, half of them were family, and the other half, I didn't even recognize, but had to greet anyways.

When I came in, I noticed some of my cousins' faces change.

"Shai5a .. wain M7ammad?" asked me all of my sisters-in-law; and to all of them I replied saying that I had no idea really.

My mother-in-law who is an exceptionally sweet woman, hugged me and told me that

M7ammad will change once he really knows me. She seemed embarrassed that he didn't come and get me; I kissed her head and assured her that everything is alright and that he probably forgot about the whole thing.

I sat for a while, chatting with some of my cousins, and trying to find a way to stop some of the women from staring at me.

I wasn't nervous until Dalal, my cousin and my sister-in-law, announced that M7amad was going to come in. I stared at my lap, as my cousin told me what he was doing. She kept saying who he was greeting and what he was saying, as if I really wanted to know. I felt him beside me, and I knew that he was greeting his mother.

I tried focusing on one of my younger cousins sitting across the room, so he wouldn't come next to me. However, to my surprise, my cousin who was sitting beside me disappeared suddenly, and he sat in her place. He held my hand in his, and my heart started malfunctioning as soon as he did so.

I looked the other way, and after a couple of seconds, Sara, M7amad's nephew, and a really sweet girl, came hurriedly, and started taking pictures.

I laughed at her expressions, and then at M7amad's silly faces. Sometimes, when I see him with his family, and I see the love in his eyes for them, I thank god that he is my husband. Maybe, just maybe, he isn't so bad.

Just as that thought crossed my mind, he hugged me closer to him. A myriad of different emotions went through me as my body was glued to his, and a million envious eyes watched us. If you only knew, I thought to myself, as enjoyed some of the rare moments in which he really acts like my husband.

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Hope you enjoyed !! :)

Meant to Be (Part Thirteen)

2009-11-14T05:40:00.000-08:00

At last .. the story!!!!!
this is an extra- long post :)

Dedicated to my 30 followers.. sorry to keep you waiting..
and the people who comment on my blog .. thank you :)
and to all the bloggers who post daily :Pp
to all my friends who support me.. thank you..
to my bf.. I miss you..
my cousin.. I love you and J :P
and H

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----- M7ammad

I saw her sitting there in the corner with her bag beside her. She lifted her head and stared with a shocked expression on her face.

"Shno?" I asked her, amazed by her expression.

She quickly turned her head, and started rummaging through her bag. She took something out and headed to the door. I followed her.

"Wain inshallah?" I asked her, with my temper starting to flare from her strange behavior.

"Ummm.. " She stuttered as I waited for her to reply. "Aby anzel shway" she replied in an almost inaudible voice.

"Inzain ni6ray shwaya, I'll just change and come down with you" I told her. I didn't want her to go alone because the reception is probably crowded with men right now.

She stood there, with her hand on the door handle, refusing to get in the room.

" I told my sister that I would go to her now" She said.

" W wain i5tich?" I asked her.

"Bitmurny ba3ad shway" she said while biting her nails.

" W laish tmurich?" I said, now really annoyed.

"3ashan ta5ithny" She replied, on the verge of crying.

"Mala da3y.. digay 3aleeha w tell her that I will drop you off, w ba3dain tara fee 3azeema in our house before we head to the airport at night.." I told her.

"Laish? 3adee ihya tyee.." She said quickly.

"Laish ihya tyee?! Ya3ny ana moo tares 3ainich?! Wala ma ti3tarfeen iny zoojich?" I yelled at her. The thing is I can be very sympathetic, but I have a temper, which I can't control most of the time.

She started crying, and I felt guilty.

"Listen, I'm your husband now. I know we both had no hand in this, but I'm responsible for you now. If you want something, you come to me. If you need someone, I will be there, because it's my duty as your husband to provide for you" I told her trying to explain my point of view.

"It's not your duty to do anything. I am not a kid, and you are not responsible for me. I can manage on my own, thank you very much" She said, with an angry tone, which I found really cute. She was short, and you can say petite, so she didn't look scary at all.

"Jiddamy." I told her firmly, wanting to stop this conversation right now.

She didn't move, so I glared at her, pretending that I was angry, while I was just enjoying her constantly changing expressions. She went from a crying girl, to an angry one, to a stubborn one, and now to a scared one.

I held her hand an led her to the bed. "Gi3day" I ordered.

She sat down obediently. "Il7een aby ashoof shlon you go against my word. Ana gilt I am responsible for you, which means I will be responsible for you. And you will sit here until I change, ba3dain I will drop you off at your parent's house, and I will come after a couple of hours so we can go to the 3azeema."

I took my clothes and went into the extremely small dressing room which was occupied by her humongous dress. I really don't understand why it has to be so long and huge. Since there was no place for me to change, I took my clothes and went to the bathroom to change, after I checked on her. And she was in the exact same position I left her in, just like I expected.
I changed quickly, prayed, and then I was good to go. I took my bag, and went to her.

"Yalla misheena" I told her, as I took her bag.

"Mala da3ee I can carry it" She said.

"roo7ay i5thay your dress" I told her.

She went to the dressing room, and I waited, and waited..

"Umm.. M7amad.." She called me hesitantly. Awal marra tgool ismy I thought to myself. Ya3ny ashwa at least she knows my name.

"What's wrong?" I asked

"The dress.. it's too huge.." She told me.

I left the bag, and went there, only to see holding it above her head, with most of the tail still touching the floor. I couldn't see her face from the dress, but the scene was hilarious.

"Mno galich tishtireen gown hal kubur?" I asked her sarcastically.

She lowered the dress as she glared at me, then held it back up and attempted to walk. She took a step, while kicking the tail so she could move, but then she stumbled back because the fabric was still on the floor. I laughed at her, and waited for a while, just to see what she would come up with. She kept on stumbling and huffing and puffing, so I eventually took the dress from her.

"I can carry it by myself." She said, being stubborn.

"Sure you can. " I replied with a smirk, and carried on walking. The gown was a bit heavy for a piece of clothing, and it was very long.

"You are ruining the fabric!" She freaked out, and lifted the tail which dragged behind me, so it doesn't get ruined.

"Ashoofich shiltee broo7ich" I told her, while hurrying to the elevator, but unfortunately we missed it.

We got in, and an old Kuwaiti lady eyed us. Her eyes were full of question and inquiries, and her gossiping nature was urging her to talk.

"Mashallah.. intaw ma3arees?" The old lady asked.

I looked at Shai5a as she smiled and nodded to the old lady.

"Ee mashallah.. allah yhhaneekum.. ila intaw shlon ti3arraftaw 3ala ba3a'6?" She asked again.

The woman was getting on my nerves, but apparently entertained Shai5a.

"A7na 3yal 3am" She replied with a smile.

"9ij! 3ad killish ma tshabHoom ba3a'6!" The old lady said, she looked at the dress's details, and then asked again. "Min wain sharya nafnoofich?"

"Ma7al b France" Shai5a replied.

"Shisma?" The old woman asked again.

"Walla ma atThakar" Shai5a replied, and I can now sense her discomfort.

The woman looked at her, then back at me, and continued studying our features. The elevator finally arrived, so the three of us entered. However, that didn't stop the lady from asking her meaningless questions.

"Shaklich akbar minha bwayed" She told me, and I ignored her because I didn't want to say anything rude.

"Shkither farg bainkum?" She directed the question to Shaikha.

"Umm.. madry.. moo wayed.." She stuttered as she replied.

The elevator door opened and I got out immediately, with Shaikha following me. The old lady

tried to catch up with us, but I just walked faster when I sensed her behind me. We got to the car, put the dress in the back seat, the bags in the trunk, and we drove silently to her house.

----- Shai5a

I looked up to see M7amad half naked, with only a towel covering his lower body. I think I stared at him for too long, because he said something that I didn't hear. I looked away quickly, and started looking for my phone in my bag. I took it and almost ran to the door so I can ask my sister to pick me up.

"Wain inshallah?" He asked me with a hint of anger in his voice. What's wrong with him I thought to myself. One minute he's the perfect gentleman, and now he's angry at me.

" Aby anzel .." I tried to reply.

He asked me a couple of questions, which I stupidly replied at because I couldn't focus with him looking like that in front of me. I kept moving closer to the door until he shouted at me.

"Laish ihya tyee?! Ya3ny ana moo tares 3ainich?! Wala ma ti3tarfeen iny zoojich?" He literally screamed at me.

I started crying, and then he lowered his voice and started to talk to me in his soothing voice. I didn't hear what he said first, but what I heard made me angry "... it's my duty as your husband to provide for you" He said .

I didn't want to be a burden on anyone. If he didn't want me, then I don't expect me to take care of me. And just because I am younger than him, doesn't mean that I'm a kid.

"It's not your duty to do anything. I am not a kid, and you are not responsible for me. I can manage on my own, thank you very much" I replied defensively.

"Jiddamy" He said in a scary tone, while pointing to the bed. I refused to move even though I was scared to death. He gave me a look, that almost made me shiver, and he took me by the hand and lead me to the bed.

"Gi3day" He demanded, and I sat down without a word.

"Il7een aby ashoof shlon you go against my word. Ana gilt I am responsible for you, which means I will be responsible for you. And you will sit here until I change, ba3dain I will drop you off at your parent's house, and I will come after a couple of hours so we can go to the 3azeema."

I was shocked, and managed to have this awed expression on my face, even after he changed and came so we can leave. He took my bag, and I tried to insist to carry it myself. But he told me to carry my dress instead. I totally forgot about it!

I went to the dressing room, and tried my best to come up with a way to carry the humongous dress. I held it over my head, but it still swept the floor. I felt desperate, so I called him. How do

I address him? I thought to myself, and decided to just go with his name.

He came, and instead of being useful, he just made fun of me. So I glared at him and decided to carry it by myself. All my attempts failed, and finally he decided to take it from me.

"I can carry it by myself." I told him angrily.

"Sure you can.." He replied in his annoying, sarcastic tone.

He carried it, but some of the fabric was still on the ground. Freaking out, I quickly held it so it doesn't get ruined.

"You are ruining the fabric!" I told him.

"Ashoofich shiltee broo7ich" He replied, and I felt like punching him right there.

We walked to the elevator, and as we waited, an old woman, the kind who look like they gossip a lot, started a question-answer session, where she would ask and we have to answer.

I absent mindedly answered, and I felt M7amad getting more annoyed by the second. She asked me about my wedding dress, and I lied, because I didn't feel like telling her. She would probably

ask me about the designers there, the directions to the shop, and how much the dress costs, if I told her the truth.

The elevator finally arrived, and she continued her interrogation in there too.

She said something, and I could feel M7amad stiffen beside me.

This time she looked at me and asked. "Shkither farg bainkum?"

"Umm.. madry.. moo wayed.." I replied, trying to avoid the question, I looked at M7amad who looked like he will hit the woman very soon.

The elevator door opened and M7amad almost flew to the car, with me running after him. He put the things in the car, and drove in complete and uncomfortable silence to my parent's house.

As soon as I got in the house, he sped away.

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Hope you enjoyed! :)
Wish me luck with all my tests!!!!

Someone I can't categorize

2009-11-11T05:55:00.000-08:00

Random post,

For you, my best friend, my savior, my adviser, my hero..

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How many times would I tag you?!

You know you mean the world to me,
you are the first person I think about whenever I have a problem,
you are the first person who comes to my mind when something good happens,
you are the book I keep all my secrets in,
you are the shoulder I cry on,
you are my support system,
you are my opposite, and yet my equal
you balance my every move,
you remind me of the positive things in life,
your adventures are mine,
your smile makes me happy,
your problems are my load to carry until you find a solution,
your success in life makes me proud,
your words direct my life even if I rebel against them,
your beauty inside-out is authentic,
you are my rock, my air, my everything,
your existence makes this world a better place
We were unseparable..

What am I supposed to do without you?

I miss you,
I miss our quick chats,
I miss our ever-lasting conversations,
I miss our long, detailed "7ash" sessions,
I miss your silly comments on everything,
I miss the way you tried to make me feel better,
I miss the way you get annoyed at stupid things,
I miss pretending to be mad at you,
I miss our childish, wild dares,
I miss trying to make you remember things,
I miss trying to get you to study,
I miss our on-going whispers in gatherings,
I miss our crazy moments,
I miss our even crazier future planning hours,
I miss jumping up and down before I tell you something,
I miss screaming on the phone,
I miss just looking at you and knowing you understand me,
I miss saying a word and having you complete the rest of the sentence,
I miss being myself without worrying what others might say,
I miss having a best friend
I miss you

You probably won't read this but I know that you just know ...

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My lovely followers, do you want me to continue with my story?!
wala niseetooha?! :Pp

Stars With Love

2009-11-05T10:37:00.001-08:00

Random AGAIN :Pp
dedicated to the gene master (shooga fi9alt :P)..

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A guy. A girl.

A story. A legend.

Their love. Their devotion.

Their longing. Their suffering.

Their lost souls, on their way, recovering.

Searching for any star to deliver their unexpressed love.

In the same instant, they spotted one.

They wished. They hoped.

They felt the connection. They felt each other's presence.

They realized once again, that a piece of their hearts is missing.

Each went back to his own bed. Each went back to his stained pillow.

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Hope you enjoyed !
story soon hopefully :Pp

High Spirits

2009-11-04T06:41:00.000-08:00

Random post..

Dedicated to:
Dooda.. my positive influence!
Um 3abdulla.. sorry adry wayed a6afrech :P
Mrs. Al- Omani .. Happy B-day!
Fa6oom.. I want the details!! :Pp

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T3arfoon lama they say "raddat feeny il roo7"?!

That is exactly how I feel today.

"Happy" is a word I didn't use for a long while.

But today, even happy doesn't sum up how I'm feeling; I'm just ecstatic!

I feel like a bird, free to explore the high skies.

I feel like a fish in the ocean, washing away all my troubles as I swim.

Today, the world is mine, and I'm free to master it.

The corners of my lips are lifted and still, like a statue.

The smile carved on my face refuses to leave me.

Suddenly everything looks brighter.

Today is one of those days, where the glass is half-full.

I know I'm a typical teenager.

I'm either really happy or really depressed.

But that's just me, and today I am loving myself for who I am.

I'm working on the positive attitude, and it is really doing me wonders!

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H: maybe following your advice is the only way I can survive.
Maybe all of my depression was because I wanted to go against your words.
Maybe just maybe you know better.

Superman

2009-11-01T09:53:00.000-08:00

Trying my very best to come up with as many excuses as I can to delay studying..
and I guess this is my last resource..
I'm sorry Im not in the mood to continue with the story now..
Just a random post again..
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Author's note:
I love superman :Pp
and Im waiting for mine :Pp..
and the title of the post has absolutely no relavance to the rest of its content :Pp

Randoms thoughts today and every other school day :S

I miss my blog ..

I wish I have time to write my story..

I hate the routinic nature of my life..

I hate the fact that i am addicted to blogs..

I hate the fact that am yearning for sleep ..

I hate the fact that I am insominiac..

I hate being a negative person..

I wish I can see the glass as half full, not half empty..

I wish I can have a clear sense of my priorities in life..

I wish I would close my eyes and turn 30 by tomorrow..

I wish I would really know what I want..

I wish I wouldn't break the promises I make for myself..

I wish I wasn't emotional..

I wish I didn't care about others..

I wish I would just stop wishing and start making things come true..

I wish all my wishes would just magically come true

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I have to study NOW!
inshallah i will try to post the next part of the story soon

Misjudging yourself

2009-10-26T11:29:00.002-07:00

For all of you people who think you know me..
YOu are wrong!!
I am a non-existing person!!!!!!
So don't even bother..
btw.. this is a random post..
bas inshallah by the end of this week I will post part 13 of the story!!
P.s: this post may not make any sense to you :Pp
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It is disappointing when you don't know how to describe yourself anymore.

I always thought that I was a rather logical and rational person.

I thought that I was capable of making the right decisions.

I thought that my first impressions where always right.

I thought that my judgment was always the wisest.

I thought that no matter what other people say, my opinion will always be right, at least for me.

I thought that I knew what I'm talking about.

But as I started to see the world more clearly, I realized that I was wrong all along.

I realized it was my pride that fogged all the traces of reality.

Everything I ever believed in, got contradicted somewhere along the way.

Ignorance was my theme for a while, but then it stopped working.

Now I'm lost somewhere in the road of discovery.

There are two paths only; a long, strenuous one which may lead me to satisfaction, and a short one that is easier but again it doesn't result in any satisfaction.

Satisfaction: the feeling I long for.

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TC!